I like it when you wear yellow It makes it easy to see the sun embracing your skin and Allowing your melanin to drip gold, From your head to your feet Your steps leak rainbow And paint canvases of different colors and shade You make your way to shine The corridors of your surroundings As if God himself place his lamps Unto your feet You carry yourself higher than any standard A bonafide version of simplicity But this could never surpass your understanding Your mirror became the boogeyman, you Think if you look to much you’ll become what you see You fail to realize how bent your shoulder Looks from all the insecurities that your Spine failed to carry By any means Still cracked that cocoon And shine again Bright as the moon And you’ll fly High as the bright yellow star
But try not to fall Like a falling star Try not to bend Like a dropping rose Try not to keep your head down Like an army waving the white flag Instead Embrace the waves like the fish in the deep And walk straight like your mama taught you Maybe to me yellow shine on you the most But, all the colors of the rainbow Make your melanin drip gold From your head to your toes You wear the sun as your cape You are modesty Which is how You shine the corridors of your surroundings As if God himself place his lamp unto your feet
I get lost in my thoughts often. It’s almost like riding the passenger’s side of my own car It’s my life that i cant seem to care For, the time that I’ve spent living on earth robbed me of The energy granted at birth, Its all been wasted and drained, from the pain that drives me sane i cant seem to stretch and reach for the gear i thought maybe changing the speed a little Could make things simple.
But, the wind embracing my face brings me to a different place, the feel brings blurred memories to focus, so i lay back and rewind
i get lost in my thoughts often. i didnt realize how real my reflection looked in my shattered side view mirror “oh my dear, what have you become”, Is what i thought.
i get lost in my thoughts often. and i didnt realize that i was at the edge of it all close to a fall, A fall to what i thought would be the end of endless laughter among us, temporary silence cracked by our smiles, and a recovered friendship that once slipped through our grip As much as i get lost in my thoughts I remember how selfless you were To trade with me, pain for energy Sorrow for love, You delayed your fixing to help me fix me
I get lost in my thoughts often. It’s almost like riding the passenger’s side of my own car but it’s just for a while It’s my life that i can’t seem to care for, but the feel of your hands keeps me warm till the end of the ride.
Overthinking is like waking up in a labyrinth. Its like mental war. Its a sea where, you cant float on your own, its getting lost in a foggy path Overthinking made you a killer of your own mind. You are now wanted. Questions like when, how, and why ? Becomes a rope around you neck. Whats your escape plan? Do you got one? How many walls do you got to hit, Till you meet a solution. Maybe another position will perhaps Give you a new perspective of life You not a bartender Don’t make martinis with all these lemons thrown at you You’ll realize The twisting part of it all is that the only way out, is to overthink.
I walk through the dark To get to a shade of light My shadow isn’t even present to comfort me in this lonely hour I’ve known madness when I couldn’t carry my body to safety Noon didn’t feel the same since it was always midnight Searching for that shade of light Was like walking a marathon with no finish line
How did I get to this point Taking my mind to unfamiliar streets To find an escape route But doubt is still around Doubt is still the cause Pinning me, binding me, tying me to the enemy Can’t even trust my finest thoughts since I am the enemy Am I suicidal if the inner me is already dying? From trying and searching and hurting
The light is no paradise It is a beautiful pain, which presence is like a heartbeat; it comes and goes I’ve walked through the light once There’s not much of a difference Except, in the light, I was surrounded by monsters I couldn’t see in the dark I walk through the dark To get to a shade of light Leaving one **** behind just to cross over to another
You moan in pleasure as if i consent to it You made me a prisoner On a bed i once found comfort, But now is a coffin buried six feet under I thought being an adult wouldve given me the strength to fight back I guess i was wrong Your cold Tongue against my chest Your cold hands aggressively held my wrist I bet you can imagine the rest
Your body against mine Your heart beating so fast As if you knew you were doing me wrong Created a cocoon of fear, pain and shame You took from me a body that once was mine A dignity that was in the buidling process Time had stop But i felt each movement in its slow motion pace I bet you can imagine the rest
steps fading in darkness You left me alone My body felt cold Paralyzed Here i am, laid there Where pain and self blame remained Rewinding To loud music The atmosphere felt dizzy Unbalanced I couldn't see it coming ONE MORE SHOT Was the chorus of the party I felt the effects just a little to late I laid in a bed I tried to regain myself Till You moan in pleasure as if i consent to it Toungue against my chest Your hands aggressively holding my wrist I bet you can imagine the rest