My own journey, has not been easy and one thing I have observed,
Is that there is a danger to be bitter when you see others with the life you deserve.
And there are some who will do what they can to take this happiness for them,
But even if you succeed in this, your stolen happiness will only be a brief duration.

There are even people whose lives have known the happiness life can provide,
But they cannot be happy for others & in observing others become bitter & snide.
They’re actions are only small & are often insignificant,
But they can become a thorn in your side when these prickles are persistent.

They are the type of person who will lie, to manipulate how you are perceived,
They contradict their own narrative to make the final cut easier for them to read.
But it’s those contradictions that causes them to fall in people’s esteem,
Because they realise the story is not all that it seems.

So, to those who are watching and like what you see,
Why don’t you focus on yourself and just be happy for me.
Do not upset things outside of your own selfish bubble,
Grow up & shut up & just stop causing trouble!

When all that you do is made out to be wrong,
and there is nothing more to try.
It can feel like your words have been muted,
no matter how loud you cry.

When a person will not hear what is to be heard,
and only registers the opinions in their own mind.
Your life becomes a lonely place to be in,
No escape or release to help you unwind.

The weight you carry, starts to make you drag you feet in the dust,
Scrapping the dirt and picking up the grime,
Of bitterness, resentment and discust.

Your ***** and dusty path will take you no-where,
So you must always pick up your feet,
Change the direction to the scenic route,
and smile to all you great.

So although there is that one person,
Who choses to knock you back.
Remember you can take the higher ground,
and find the more sunlite track.

30 days to get us all into nature,
30 days to give people a brand new adventure,
30 days to prove that there is more to be done & to do,
30 days to open people’s minds & change attitudes .

30 days to experience a whole new reality,
30 day to show that there are more important things than technology.
30 days to try and change someone’s day for the better,
30 days to bring families closer together.

30 days to breath in the fresh air of the seaside,
30 days to just listen to the trees and river flowing by,
30 days to watch birds & help the tired bees
30 days to be in your garden, digging weeds & sowing seeds.

30 days showing your children the beauty of the countryside,
30 days showing them all the goodness the earth can provide,
30 days teaching them how we must protect our bees,
30 days to show them the rainforest is more than just a bunch of trees.

30 days wild to have fun we can share,
30 days wild to show the world we care.

Kindness
It is not hard to get lost in your own self-deprecation,
But this is easily remedied by re-evaluating the situation.
See your woes from the prospective of those causing you anguish,
And ask yourself, what has happened to them to make them so selfish?

Abolish Blame & adopt generosity of heart,
You’ll start to see a small act of Kindness is a good way to start,
Then adapt this gesture to reach out to others,
To strangers, friends, your sisters & your brothers.

By choosing to act in kindness and not with a selfish attitude,
You’ll feel your spirit lift & with it flies your selfish outlook and your low mood,
Your eyes will start to shine from helping another soul,
Because you simply stop thinking about you, and focus on all other individuals.

So, Be Kind, be brave, be honest & true,
and if you know your morals are good, you will certainly bring out the best of you.
Learn to love life and care for all living things you find,
Because the secret to happiness is simple, you only have to be kind.

While I am resting and staring at a tv screen,
my unborn baby is growing inside of me.
She wiggles & kicks to let me know she's there,
but although I feel it my attentions are elsewhere.

This is not right to ignore real life for technology,
But I fear this is something to which we all are guilty.

And in doing so, we will miss the most precious of life's gifts,
Those magical moments that are there to be not watched but lived.

Because if they are missed, you will not see
& will in time be blind to that type of beauty.
Then you will only ever know life through a screen,
Not living it, just watching it with your smart phone technology.

So don't be a fool and let yourself technologically drown,
Connect to the real world and put your gadgets down.

Hold me until the tears run away
Stay with me until the new light of day,
Just hold me until you have had enough.
Please,I'm not the girl who can't be loved
Death appeals but i will not go,
live for moments, live in hope.
Time will always  compleatly turn the fates,
All that's good comes to the one who waits.

My heart is compacted with loves light.
My mind follows good morals, and will always fight the good fight.
Fight the demons who won't let me sing.
Let me rest, let me smile, forever suffering.

I know who I am and it's not what shes made you see,
This poisoness person who spreads lies about me.
Her venam takes hold.people forget all I can be,
They believe her lies and wipe away all the good they might see.

Please remember my love all that we were,
See that my tears are justified and caused by her.
See that the chaos that has been is not of my making,
It's because of her spite and a person who is always faking!

All I want is a life simple and true,
A happy ever after I can share with you.
No drama, no chaos & just happy tears.
Hearts full of love for the rest of our years.

I have a place in my heart were I keep my angels close.
Were I can feel their love and hear there words at the times when I need them most.
I have today made some room for another angel to reside there
The most amazing man I'll ever know
Who loved life and lived through it without a care.

He was brave & fun & all things a gentleman should be.
He was kind and loving and understood us all and ment the world to me.

But what made my angle a hero during his life time of 64 years.
A policeman, a husband, a father & friend who was always there to stop the tears.

Other people made his day tick by and helping them was what he knew.
Any person, on any street he was there to listen & help you.

He loved his family & his friend and stuck by them through thick and thin.
Its so hard to see our angel now as we are to spend each day without him.
But he is here in our hearts and through us he does live on.
The strongest man ill ever know
The definition of the word inspiration.

So lets look to the sky's for that new bright star and all blow him a kiss.
To our darling Marty,who is  in our hearts & who we will always dearly miss.

I am sat here by the river on the roots of an old beech tree,
The birds sing, the river flows. The delights of natural beauty.

There is no sun today, there is no warm breeze to comfort me,
but i did see a rabbit letting me know you are watching over me.

What laughs we had, what smiles we made, what wonderful times we knew,
I just wish they were not over, and i did not have to live the rest of my life without you.

Many things i wish but alas they can not be,
My little Gemma your hand print is on my heart for all eternity.