Keep your head held high
even if the suns Rays blind you for daring to gaze up at the sky
Never let them Cowards see you sweat even when it’s pouring down your neck
If you fall get back up again
and kick societies *** make sure you ******* Win

the difference between her and I is that she is desperate for you and your attention I wanted to love you I mean really love you, what I thought was space to clear the negative energy was space for you to settle..... I know you don’t crave her she's just willing to do what you want..
well so was I but I know I’m no easy ride
you should have called and let me know that you cared  but instead u honored ya pride that you claimed to put aside.
for 3 months now all I have done is cried
vivid images of you and I as your bride
I’m so ****** up in the head now
cause I still love you I wanted you from the moment you made my heart push any other that dared to compare to the side
you saying those cold words to me it crushed my pride
my love can be so deep I wanted to show you I really tried
it still hurts that every time I see you my body wants to shuts down and I must hide
I’ll never have the courage to tell you how much you hurt me to **** hard to describe
so I’ll leave it here instead of keeping it all inside
**** I wanted to love you ....  but you couldn’t push ya pride to the side...

It should be me that you’re kissing
but it will be me that your missing
up late at night hoping praying wishing
stuck in the dating world straight endless  Cat fishing
it should be me holding u tight every night  
your name still sizzles at that back of my throat more than Mc Donald’s Sprite
constant memories of you My Beautiful Tragedy so I write

Why do I still see HIM in my dreams
to have this feeling of heartbreak…
for a man I haven’t even kissed
there has been a few that when things were over It wasn’t easy to digest …
but not like this… I feel like our souls connected it so this can’t be truly over
or was I just connected to HIM in hopes that he would save me like I knew only a man with his exact strength could
or is it just the fact that unlike most HE wasn’t in a rush to kiss on these lips
HE really wasn’t in a rush to kiss on the lips as soft as this
I really do miss you…
for the things I know we had potential to explore with each other
pillow fights date nights long walks in the park conversations that never seem to end late nights just you and I no covers all the lights so I could see the cold parts that Pierced your eyes shine bright no where left to hide at the door is where we left all pride
I wish I could rewind that night I should had told u my submissive heart would never had said no if he’d just came out with it.. just asked
****
my gut aches in pain at the thought of you
I never ever share my secrets I should have just listen to yours and not said anything about Mine  would I feel any better?
This **** is still hurts because I miss you
you said you moved on so there’s nothing left to do
except pretend I never met you
sun up to sun Down my spirit wanted u around

I feel so foolish never again I must hold true to myself I must hold my ground

it wouldn’t matter if u came back today and told me u loved me cause when my heart missed a beat... it was bleeding for u and all I’ll remember is u Not needing me too...  honestly boop it still bleeds.... Just for you.....

to the one I love to forget...
I apologize for my constant rejection
hhhmmmm...
u been longing for my affection
misleading ur heart in a different direction
for quite some time now the false promises and fake smiles I constantly feed you spreads through your mind like a blissful infection
the ****** poetry I sinfully spit at u leaves u standing firm and tall the greatest lover i am let me ease your *******
I love it when u begg  get on your knees is always my reply , time for me to see what that tounge do inspection
oh so you wanna be my love slave is my detection......
let me stop here I go again misleading u in the wrong direction
I don’t know why when u look at me u see endless perfection
when all I can offer u is endless rejection
I’m not  willing to let my future king of the past get the wrong impression
so I hide ur love for me as the unseen discretion
u really think I love you... sorry u mean nothing my smile must’ve caused that deception
before u became attached  I tried to let u go cause my love I know will leave u in a 2 year world of depression
I know that it will be because of me u look at women funny u get the wrong impression
look all I know is that I need to admit my wrongs in order to receive true redemption
and also I hope that my apologetic poetry will help cure those late nights that u spend consumed with depression  
I guess this is how it’s supposed to go