i wonder about the things people would think
if i suddenly disappeared.
i wonder if it would benefit certain people
but not others.
if my heart suddenly stopped,
who would be so affected that they would grieve?
who wouldn't?
i wonder if i would be able to watch them.
to watch their feelings and their thoughts run through their heads.
"Maybe that's what death is? Forgetting... Being forgotten."
i wish i could erase my memory.
from my mind.
from this earth.
from the lives of people that i have impacted.
High in the halls of the kings who are gone,
jenny would dance with her ghosts...
the ones she had lost and the ones she had found.
the ones who had loved her the most...
ones who'd been gone for so very long,
she couldn't remember their names.
they spun her around on the damp cold stones,
spun away her sorrows and pain..
and she never wanted to leave....