My thoughts are sporadic
scrambled messy things
Mischievous and sick
flapping broken wings

Darting to and fro
scurry for the dark
hiding in my shadow
before I can remark
to try and save her,
him, them, they, or me,
all are hurt when they occur,
my thoughts that is, you see

They jump to fast to see
from topic start to end
searching for the sad me
the me that's not your friend,
and when they tell me what to do
and when they tell me what to think
I'm terrified not even you,
could save me from the brink

Yeah, my thoughts do really stink
and it's hard to clip their wings,
But then sometimes when I think
something beautiful they'll bring

Here we are again
Just laying in bed
With these thoughts in my head
It seems to never end
I'd just like to rest
Escape the stress
Feel nice in a dress
And look the best
It's 2am here
And these thoughts roam my head
As I'm laying bed
Wishing for them to end
These scenarios fill my head
Of what could always be
All the possibilities
Never ending
Wishing they could be
I question all things
Like it's suddenly 215
& I feel nothing
Or feel something I know nothing of
I'm wondering why
Wondering how it is
I feel like
I'm out of place
And shouldn't exist
Too fat to wear a dress
If love is even real  
What's the possibility
Of running into someone who's just like me
We'll at least with their thoughts
But I'd never know
Cause I do not share
What thoughts fill my head
& the scenarios that play
All up in my head
When I'm awake at 2am
Laying in bed
Wishing to get some rest
Escape my stress
How to feel nice in a dress
& look like some of the best
See,  these words a pointless
As they can not explain
What's going on in my head
And what I feel inside
So why do I even try
There's more to say
But it's best I'd go away
Not to annoy anyone
Coming to this page.  
But i'm just a girl
Who's heart is a mess
& this is my daily vent
So God bless
Get some rest & don't stress

i raised her
with a violent birth
my vocal cords tangled
like a drunk couple
making love
with her name.

she emerged from
the slit in men's throats,
a grown woman,
her sister followed,
from suffocated coughs,
glowing like streetlamps
from mouth to mouth,
never happy,
never settled.

girls like her,
they don't enter this
world easy,
they leave it in a mess,
exit it like a highway,
move on to the
next place.

there's a stain they
always leave,
yellow on the teeth,
marks on bed-sheets,
empty rings on
bedsides with last
nights drink
gone cold just like
their feelings.

just a girl they say,
harmless,
girls have endless love
in their hearts,
and endless hate.

I was starting to feel a little grey
And then I met your face
You started to brighten up my days
And I forgot what's his face
I didn't think this day would come
But looks who's happy
Look who's recovering
From all the damaged you've done
This guy is good, this guy is sweet
I hope he'll stay
& stick through my troubled heart
This connection is great
It's almost frightening
But feels Oh so great
I hope we can make this last
He's brightened my days
Makes me feel wanted and loved
And makes me forget what's his face
He's given me hope
In the game of love
Where I thought it was all lost
And no where to be found
Oh I hope he stays
Cause this connection is great