You
Shall I tell the the ways I admire you?
Should i tell you that everyday I wake from slumber
And you’re absent I long for you
Shall I tell  you that you are my sweetest dream manifested
My forbidden fruit that I’d die to taste
So that I can become your nutrients so that you won’t ever wither away
Shall I tell thee that no woman compares in my eyes
A love undefined unrefined
The greatest scientific element
Nothing else holds relevance
To say that one would die for you and mean it
Is trivial in the aspect
You’re more than beautiful
I’d eternally live to make you smile everyday
This is no opinion to assess
Question arise when the thought arises do you feel that same?
Will I ever find the right words to say?
Or will this heart continue to bleed with the ink from this page
Someday I may never know
Someday the truth will be answered
Until then my heart sleeps
For the day I enjoy your embrace

Lately I stared at myself in disgust ,
how could you ?
It was something so beautiful ,
destroy it ..why would you ?
It was your everything and you reduced it nothing
,how dare you ?
You let lies, deceit, and paranoia ensnare you,
why would you ?
It was our one true piece of happiness our future and you sabotaged it,
Who are you ?
Maybe its time I suppress you
And Progress without you
Because when it comes to our happiness you’ve constantly shown no concern
It’s time to let you drift like the beautiful embers in the wind as the Phoenix burns
You were our greatest obstacle
There with every turn
I guess it took our final loss
For me to learn
Goodbye My doubt, good bye my insecurity,
I have lived my life with you pursuing and
Sabotaging me
I am finally comprehending who I really am
Those false pretenses no longer shackle my hands and wings
May I fly like Phoenix and you drift away like the embers in the breeze

When you compared me to them in your mind I became them
I was destined to depart from your presence
I fought for what we had but this ship sailed in its own direction
Cutting through the waves instead of simply letting them take us on this journey of self understanding and companionship
It became a constant battle between the tides of opinions and mistrust
What happened to us ?
What happened to the reason that made your presence just enough ?
What happened to love and effort being enough ?
Although this book is reaching or has reached its last chapter
With tears sweeping away my ****** expressions like high tide in the sand
I’m hoping your happily ever after is within the reach of your hand

With you gone, every night i pray for your safe passage to all routes you choose to take.
I wept every minute your presence was not in my face.
As memories of you drift,
like those pebbles on the river of yesterday
although pain leads the way, your memory will forever be protected in my wake.

With the rise of the morning sun few things come to mind
But one thought does is that
Your day be filled with the wonders of the world
May your beautiful seconds
Turn into astounding and riveting minutes
Those minute turn in hours of bliss
Eventually let this day be filled with positive progression and minimal accomplishments
Let no negativity derail that beautiful train that is your happiness
May the heavens bless you to have the day of your dreams
May the day be as amazing as you seem