Just Ty: Poems

Vacancy

Just Ty Mar 2018

Vacancy

What was it that caused you to move into this residential
It’s as if you seen this old broken down place and saw so much potential
Where as others feared and laughed at the thought of it being a beautiful space
You walked right in as if you owned the place
Tell me what it is seen that made you want to make such a risky purchase?
Not knowing what’s in this dark place not knowing what lurches.
A lot of people have ran out this place screaming
So how long do you have before you too are leaving?

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Victims

Just Ty Oct 2019

Victims

Is it just me or maybe it’s that I am just a different breed
For there isn’t anything I wouldn’t do when it comes to my seed
I would walk the distance just to be able to put food on the table
I go by many different names but bad father isn’t one of those labels
I don’t understand how parents are ok with just getting by
Because I would do anything for my kids to touch the sky
Maybe I’m wrong and maybe they are doing all that they can
But perception is reality so you have to understand,
Where I am coming from for Im not trying to be the bad guy
I am just asking the questions that we all want to know; why?
Why is it that you have enough money for your drugs
While your children’s stomach is the only thing they’ll hug
These children are walking around with holes in their shoes
All while every Friday night your cabinets are stocked with *****
Isn’t it annoying to see all these dead beat
dads
But dead beat mothers isn’t a conversation to be had
Doing more than what we are doing for our children is my only wish
Because they are the victims here for they didn’t ask for any of this

#children #victims #mother #fathers #mom #dad #change #pain #suffering

Warning

Just Ty May 2018

Warning

I know that some days I am really short with you
But yelling and lashing out isn’t something that I like to do
You scare me a lot for you have all of this power
And in one spilt second my heart you could devour.
So fool me twice and it’s shame on me
But fool me a third and there won’t be a we
Or whatever this is I really don’t know what to call it
But my heart that I gave you I’ll have no choice but to withdraw it
Please don’t hurt me again please don’t break my heart
For I am trying to forgive you and give us a fresh start
Just bare with me through this cold that are my actions
Promise not to add to my pain only subtractions

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Why

Just Ty Mar 2018

Why

Why is it that I can never feel good enough?
Why is it always the same excuse “oh its different stuff”
Why do I always love those whom will never love me back?
Why is it those who do love me are the ones that I neglect?
Why is it that I can never write unless I’m filled with pain?
Why is that my life without you just doesn’t feel the same?

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Wishful Thinking

Just Ty Apr 2018

Wishful Thinking

I wish I knew what was wrong with me
I wish that I could handle my emotions more responsibly
I wish you could understand what goes on in my head
I wish I could take back all that I said
I wish the world could see how much I try
I wish I knew how to be the good guy
I wish all this pain would just stop and go away
I wish I knew if I would make it another day
I wish that writing all this actually mattered
I wish I didn't relate so much to the mad hatter

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You’re not worth it

Just Ty Apr 2018

You’re not worth it

In that last moment was the first time I felt at peace.
I actually smiled before the crash knowing I would be underneath
This cold harsh world that never gave me all that I have given to it
But it didn’t end how I wanted to, for it ended deeper in a pit
Not only physically but mentally I am deeper in my head
And the flame that once guided me through the darkness is finally dead
Now I am driving uncontrollably down this scary road
So **** it why not since “you’re not worth saving” is what I am constantly told

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