I don't like crying
You are vulnerable
Mysterious
Alone
People see you when you cry
Well, they think they do
People assume
so
     much
That you are too upset, can't hold it in
     a n y m o r e
Can't deal with your ****
Something is wrong with your relationship
How w e a k
You got a bad grade on a test
You hate yourself so much, you
b
     r
      e
a
          k
They assume

People don't see
They get confused more than anything
You are now more drama

So no,
I don't like to cry

Every word you say
Everytime we burst out laughing
I write it down
Because I know
That you will one day
Disappear
But I don’t want to
Forget
The feel of your chest
The smell of your hair
The comfort you gave
I want to relive the best parts of my life
That you became

You made me nervous
I was caught off guard
I would catch my breath
You made me scared
You made me involved
I adapted to depend on you
To need you
I wanted to not need you
I knew
I would be scorned

That day came
When I turned around
And you weren’t there
You went away
Disappeared
Into thin air
Suddenly gone
and with a piece of
        me
Now I take the ring
engraved with promises
of the past
off for the last time.
And say goodbye
To the day I dreaded
So much

I could end it all in a minute.
End the rumors
The lies
The whispers and thoughts
These compulsions of mine
Screams in the back of my mind
It could all go away
With just
One
      Simple
   Sin