why so many people
are getting involved
in a breakup, they don't even know

let's never leave your bed
that smells like cigarettes
and great ***

I wish for nothing
because when i look at you
I have everything
-S

And hope
Tomorrow I won't

Is life really worth living if you feel worthless every ******* day?
Empty and I can’t face my own feelings.
The distraction is what I will always seek.
I can't face it, I’m to ashamed.
But I will drink, I will stuff my nose with so many chemicals that my brain will die by each day.
I’m selfish and sad, and everybody I love makes me mad.
My so called friends turned their back on me.
I cheated on the only person that truly loved me.
I made someone cheat and I made somebody lie.
I said I stopped and for a few days I did, I actually did.
But now I didn’t just **** every chance I had, I also killed the happy version of myself.
The girl that loved, smiled, laughed and joked.
Now I’m the girl that is desperate, ugly, empty and an addict.
I used to be so happy, I used to remember every song.
I’m ******* nothing and I can’t remember anything.

True happiness
Maybe in the rise of the sun
Bed sheets full of sweat
Heart full of stitches
Obsessions filling my head
Can't leave my room without shame
Drugs, alcohol, cigarettes and ***
True to no-one
Darker days are yet to come

I lost the one thing
I lost the one thing that i love the most
I lost it
It just slipped away on a regular saturday morning
You told me you lost it
The one thing I was so scared to lose
It's gone
I'm so broken
I'm so lost
You said it
You just ******* said it
It's all my fault
Now there's nothing I can do
You're going to leave me

I love you so much
I never ever want anybody else
You and me
Against the world
-S

Sorry for getting you out of that dream
I created
I had to say it

Sorry for doing to you what you didn't deserve
I hope she treats you better
Than i ever will

I truly hope for my future self to find happiness and laughter
I don't need money or expensive cars
I need happiness
Give me friendships
And just make me happy

Just your body on mine
Nothing more
But now I caught you staring
Through the reflection of my window
Your glassy eyes gaze to long
Nothing more
Atleast for me

No more bad nights
Just a few years
Our first bed
Our first key
A full fridge
And a full heart
you and me forever

You want me to cry
Maybe it's better to pray for me
To stay alive

I wish for more
In my selfish thoughts

It's never enough
I do as I must

I don't see what I have
My heart is half full

Ignore the wants
Desire the needs

Can't call this a life
If no one wants me

When the wind turns
The snow will fall
The good will stay
And love will call

And I still remember you the same
Cause you will never change
It's not you, it's me
That couldn't hold on

Green paint, tinted glass
Looking at the big white moon
Knowing that the sun
Will be there pretty soon

**** me when it starts
Bury me when it's over
Can't lose an other life
Scars appear and my bones are broken

I have done a lot of listening
Thought about it for a while
I even laughed a little

You like to talk
But talks always ends in screams
You even cried a little

I’m cruel and heartless
You brought me back to reality
To see without my eyes

You’re kind and warm
I dimmed your burning light
Now you don’t whisper anymore

We’re back together again
Nothing can tear us apart
It’s a shame, we don’t know each other

I’m not afraid anymore
To let you see
The one that’s hiding inside of me

I can’t control anymore
I’m tired to be
Someone I never saw as me

I can’t wait anymore
You set me free
Finally I feel like I’m really just me

Why do I dream about you?
Why don’t I want to be with someone new?
Why you, why now?
The time stops when I’m with you somehow.
Stare into those eyes
Want to reach for your hand
I can’t tell you how I feel, this friendship will end.
I want to touch your mind.
I want to make you mine.
Why don’t you love me?
Why can’t you see?

It’s not that I don’t love you
I’m just scared to face the truth
Reality always hit me hard, so I decided to ignore it
There’s something I always wanted to say
I know it’s probably not a good time
And you wouldn’t even remember it
But it’s been haunting me day and night
I need get it off my chest
So here it goes
I’m sorry I never returned your calls
I’m sorry I never visited
I’m sorry I isolated you out of my life
I just couldn’t see you like that
In pain, desperate for salvation
And now it’s to late
You went down
Not remembering my face
Because I left
Because I did this
I’m sorry

This is my last letter to you.
It’s time for me to move on.
I need to open my eyes and see the beauty life has to give.
I need to end my grief
This doesn’t mean that I’m not going to visit you anymore.
Cause I will.
But my tears have dried and run out.
I filled my heart with so much hate and pain.
It hurts even thinking about it.
I want to change.
And it starts with you.
So this is goodbye.
This is goodbye to my guild.
This is goodbye to my torture
This is goodbye to your ghost.
I love you,
Goodbye buddy.

Speechless
Everytime  you looked at me
Happy
When you made me laugh
Free
If you take my hand
Confused
Do you ever stop yelling?
Sore
Since you left
Heartbroken
You with her

Today we cry
Tomorrow we say goodbye
Monday we’re sad
Tuesday we forget
Wednesday we laugh
Thursday you’re long gone and past
Friday we drink
Saturday we don’t think
Sunday I take the blame
Next year it’s all the same

To deep in my web of lies
Burnt by my own fire
Can’t even trust myself anymore
Acting all day
These words are as empty as my bedroom
Regret has filled my heart
Smoke has filled my longs
No more tears
No more love

When your heart lies
Your eyes tell the truth

I choose to fall
You choose to fall with me
So don’t blame this on me

Catch me if I fall
Lift me off my feet
Loyal through it all
Without you I’m incomplete

Fix me if I break
Make me feel loved
Let my demons escape
And clear my blood

Get me out of the blue
Never disagree
These were the things I did for you
But what did you do for me?

I walk alone
In the hour of the night
Corners are filled with the unknown
I’m glad there’s still a little light
Nowhere near my home
And there’s danger in my sight
I feel my keys pressing against my bones
My body is ready to fight
Finally at my door
Guess I’m lucky to be all right

I shouldn’t have fallen for you
It was my mistake
But I don’t feel bad about it
Cause I loved what you did to me

I didn’t notice
When you
Screamed
For help

Day after Day
It’s all the Same
Same Story
Same Song
It never Ends

Staring into nothing
Be who I want to be
No worries in the world
Only care about me

When I look back at what I lost
I see your face
And the smiles you caused

I will think of a poem
That comes from my heart
It might not be much
But for me it’s art
It’s a piece of me
Even when I fall apart
After every bad luck
I wake up and restart

Their love was strong,
But the timing was wrong.
Then love decided
They didn’t belong.

There is an ocean of silence between us....
And I am drowning in it.

I only do it when I’m lonely
It only happens when I’m sad
I let it happen
I feel the pain
Look in the mirror, but can’t see my shadow
My soul left my body
My light left my heart
My love left my life
Can I still be saved?

I know I am
I have friends, but I don’t feel like I can trust them
I have my family, but we don’t get along
I am alone in this world
I wish I could just fly away from this all
Leave everything behind and start over
Would it help?
Or is this what I am?
Lonely