Is life really worth living if you feel worthless every ******* day?
Empty and I can’t face my own feelings.
The distraction is what I will always seek.
I can't face it, I’m to ashamed.
But I will drink, I will stuff my nose with so many chemicals that my brain will die by each day.
I’m selfish and sad, and everybody I love makes me mad.
My so called friends turned their back on me.
I cheated on the only person that truly loved me.
I made someone cheat and I made somebody lie.
I said I stopped and for a few days I did, I actually did.
But now I didn’t just **** every chance I had, I also killed the happy version of myself.
The girl that loved, smiled, laughed and joked.
Now I’m the girl that is desperate, ugly, empty and an addict.
I used to be so happy, I used to remember every song.
I’m ******* nothing and I can’t remember anything.