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JeanT Jan 2015
I loved you
But you were an alcoholic
And I was just another bottle of
Whiskey.
I thought I was special
JeanT Feb 2018
He crawled deep within her soul and made a home out of cobwebs and broken pieces

Oh how beautiful she truly was
JeanT Apr 2019
Our love was temporary
you blinded me.
My eyes are open
Now I can see.
The smoke has cleared
I am finally free.


                                           .
blind love
leave me don't love me
JeanT Dec 2014
I can still feel the taste of your nicotine kiss lingering on my lips after you've left my house
I hate it
The way you show up at my door step at 3 in the morning reeking of ***** after drinking for no **** reason
I hate it
How you drive too fast and scare me half to death
I hate it

In these moments I question everything by drowning myself in my doubts
Just as I want to give up I remember

The way you wrap your arms around me infront of your family
I love it
How you're always there for me when I'm depressed and don't want to leave my room
I love it
When we're in your truck and you sing at the top of your lungs just to make me laugh
I love it
The truth is I love you

except you know all my weaknesses


And I hate it
JeanT Aug 2020
If I told you
I was in love
Would you have to ask

“with who?”
Its you
JeanT Apr 2019
Screaming at the top of my lungs.

Gasping for air.

“Please stop!”


You caught me, I’m ticklish
Did I surprise you?
JeanT Mar 2022
I hear the screams of profanity in your drunk voice from that night

The beating of your fist against the truck window

My own voice pleading for help

The faint sound of blood dripping onto the hardwood floor from your knuckles

And yet, all you hear is silence

It’s not the Silent Treatment

The tears in my eyes are screaming so loud

But you just can’t hear me
I  didn’t think I would ever be in this situation
JeanT Jun 2017
Heart so pure
Eyes so blue
I'm dancing with disaster
And it looks a lot like you
Just one more dance
JeanT Oct 2016
You came to me in the spring when I wasn't looking for anything
We quickly sprung into summer and things heated up
But fall rolled around and you fell away like the beautiful leaves on the giant oak trees
Winter blew in and our love grew as cold as the falling snow

Spring came around and new trees began to bloom

The truth is, not all tress make it through the winter and fall was never my favorite season.
JeanT Jun 2017
Please don't look at me
Your eyes shatter my shell
Your smile chills me to the bones

We drink to forget
But instead end up remembering

We were friends who got to familiar

Your warm breath on my neck
Hands on my hips
Heavy breathing
Hushed tones

Strangers we are again
Nice to meet you
I'm begging you to let me go
JeanT Dec 2014
I hate you
You made me love you
You made me let you crawl deep inside my body
Unable to escape
Just when I think you're almost out
I find you in my throat unable to speak
That's the thing about us
I need you so I can breathe
Our love is suffocating
Killing us slowly
JeanT Jun 2017
You are a wild blur of my memory. Your tousled hair and little kid grin.

I was 18 and you had calloused hands and a soft voice.

One time in the middle of the night I made you laugh, you returned the favor. You were wearing a sweatshirt even though it was hot.

You took my hand and spun me around. We fell into each other and fit like puzzle pieces. Our legs tangle when we sit across from each other. You’ve pressed your palms against mine. You watch over me, your green eyes brushing mine.

I think we both imagined at that moment the way our lips would feel against each other’s, the way your arms would feel around my waist, and mine around yours.

I want to know you. I want to learn all of your little things.

Tell me about the day your grandpa died. Tell me the song that gives you goosebumps. Tell me about how you love pizza and hate spinach. Tell me how your heart beats faster when you hear my name. Tell me about every little part of you. Tell me the words you’re scared to say.

Tell me.

Tell me everything. Tell me you don’t want this to end.

Oh God- I’m exploding and this is a love letter I’ll never send…
You can't escape my wondering mind
JeanT Jun 2017
Like a warrior I ride into battle with my head held high ready to conquer

Even when the toughest approach
I smile and say

Bring it on
JeanT May 2017
You're like a shot of espresso.
energy jolting through my veins

Or like a latte.
Frothy and easy to drink in

And occasionally you're like a strong Irish Coffee.
Not everyone can handle

At times you're like a frappuccino.
Cold against my lips and chill me to the core

If I'm lucky you're smooth and warm.
Making you the perfect cup
JeanT Jan 2022
These walls hold the secrets of many before us

They shout the words of anger coming from drunk lips

They bury the cries of the broken hearted

They hold the whispered sweet nothings of lovers

They gleam with laughter of a family

They hum to the silence of a sleeping baby

These walls are painted with the raw emotion of people I’ve never met

I stare at them blankly trying to figure out where to start my story
JeanT Aug 2020
Four years since our last kiss
It was something I didn’t miss
I hadn’t seen you in a while
Until today when I saw your smile
I remembered how I was smitten
It’s too bad our Love was forbidden...
I need closure
JeanT Sep 2017
I see you in my dreams more than I should

I say I ignore you but I wouldn't even if I could

You were never really mine, it was only a wish

But please dear, just give me one more kiss

Our eyes lock and my heart beats out of my chest

I can't get over you, I guess I'm obsessed..

So I'll look at you like I look at a shining star

But just remember, Karma is a ***** and she's never too far
JeanT Aug 2016
I stand by the blue water and look as far as I can
Water isn't what I see as I fade out of reality
I slip back to the night when he took you to dinner
You ordered coffee he ordered whiskey
But you hated the smell of whiskey
And he loved the look in your eyes

Your phone started to buzz
The same buzz as my father sipping on his jack on the rocks
You got a call saying your car was hit
You ran outside
You ran to your death

I wrote "mistrust" on the bullet before I shot you I will never forget the look in your eyes that my father loved
I looked into them as the blood ran from your mouth onto my shoes
You told my father you loved him but it wasn't true

So as I stand here with the water brushing my toes
And the wind giving me a chill
I look out into the sea and realize it is the same color as your eyes
And you were not my friend nor my mother
And everything you said was lies

— The End —