I just can’t find the words anymore
I try to write, describe, say how I feel
But I can’t, I just can’t
It’s like I’m in a river, trying to swim against a strong current
No matter how hard I try, I can’t
My feelings are now indescribable
I remember the days when writing meant everything to me
Writing my feelings, hidden between the lines of words, poems, stories
It was the feeling of freeness, letting go
And now, I can’t anymore, no matter how bad I want to
My words get stuck, tangled and torn
And all that comes out is a jumbled mess of meaningless thoughts
And so once again, I feel defeated and withdrawn
And I resort to the only other thing I have,
Drawing
But even drawing is limited
And so when I’ve recalled my limit
It’s like I’m totally stuck
Trapped
And, to make it worse
I’m claustrophobic