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Isiscold Jul 2018
Broken is what I'm around. Broken is the newfound normal. Broken is who I am..
Curses from tongue and generational. Wings are broken can't fly away. I'm looking for a new day but it's broken the route the guidance.
I wait around in broken paradise looking for paradise but life keeps rolling a pair of dice. broken...
  Jul 2018 Isiscold
Rahama
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     "This isn't who you are."

    "You're not the girl I used to know."

   "I don't know who you've become."

He repeats these lines
So much these days
It annoys me more than
A broken record ever could
Ever should
Ever would
Cause I told him
I warned him thoroughly

     "I'm not nice."

    "You won't like the real me."

   "I'm not worth fighting for."

But he didn't listen
He filled my head with empty
Promises that he meant
He filled my heart with hollow
Vows that he could never fulfill

     "How can a person be so cold?"

    "How can a lady be so cruel?"

   "How can you change so fast?"

He looks hurt and
I hurt a little
But I shut down
Cause that's what I always do

     "I'm nefarious, lover."

    "Had my heart broken a few times."

   "Now it's made of stone."
I hope Nefarious Breed finds this.♥♥♥
Isiscold Jul 2018
I like you "feeling"...
You match me, you feel like me, nervous to be as open as the sea.
We struggle, we lie; to the the fire, the desire, the lust, attraction, the satisfaction the complete, me, you, us, we
At the cliff at the bottom we see "go for it" unsettling roaring "do we jump" too late we fall...
Imperfections are perfect our affection perfect, match perfect,
we perfect "feeling"
I loved watching you be me"feeling" the fight you can't hide, the appreciation you can't deny the butterflies inside.
I'm smitten I've written I've been chicken but **** I'm not losing my "feeling"..
You're not worth the wait but the now, the tomorrow, the weekend, the future, my time..
I want you to stay "feeling", To be around "feeling", I'm open "feeling",
Be gentle with me "feeling".
"Feeling" you make me smile.
I fantasize;
I kiss you
I pose my feelings, let me become
Action.. my fantasy, my role, my words I lay. I just want you "feeling" promise you'll stay.
I like you "feeling"
Isiscold Jul 2018
Daylight comes in the morning...
I lie waiting in the middle of the night with silent cries. Whimpers brought on by disappointment. I whisper... why??? why me, why am I insane??? because I wanna rewrite my wrongs, accomplish a challenge, to beat up defeat?
I wanna slap the **** out of setbacks and criticism. The audacity to embed your taunting words of "I told you so"and "I knew you couldn't do it. Roars of "****"you to the doubters.
I feel the discouragement conceiving in my mind. Hoping for a new outcome while it's in my blood to **** up. All night I beat my mind until it's restless.
Dawn begins drawing the picture of daylight. I fall back asleep requiem.
Requiem
Isiscold Jul 2018
I'm tired...
For the past few months I've dealt with nothing but humiliation.
I'm tired...
Wipe the dust from my face, hands, and clothes from falling just to trip and fall again
I'm tired....
Bonds I thought were sealed with love, based off "history" in all actuality are sealed with deceit
I'm tired...
Snake eyes, snake tongues, snakes in my meadow,
I'm tired....
Embracing fully and whole heartedly with both my arms, but unaware that the slight pain I feel behind me, is the dagger that's piercing my back
I'm tired...
Loose lips sinking ship's currents breaking grips due to faulty anchors
I'm tired...
Can't even create my own zen from at least one of the 3 zzz's when I close my eye's..
I'm tired..
I need to **** it more bc I'm tired...

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