I want to be happy but my brain won't let me
I feel so guilty for everything I've ever done
I feel like I've ruined everyone's lives
But I think things will be okay
I will just keep fake smiling until soon it is real

when you speak,
colors drop from
your lips.
when i first met
you, my world
was so bright.
i think you
blinded me.
now all i can see
is black
and the world
isn’t beautiful
anymore