nothing about this is true and I know it
A lurking suspicion it's too late to show it
I'm aching and cowering I'm shriveled below it
It's pushing so hard that my brain may implode it's

Time to separate out and address the beast directly
Liars yelling pounding orders trying to direct me
Take a breath to yell back but they've stolen it already
They're coming through the mouthpiece in my head I say instead we

Breathe.  
Don't try to speak
Need oxygen
just breathe
For now

Lord, raise my hands and guide my feet,
let me another pathway meet.
Conceal my pain and break my fast,
Lord, light the dark that eats my past.
And when I trip, Lord, help me stand;
pray, hold me in your loving hand.
Have mercy on my faithless heart
and show me kindness as I start
to walk the way you've made for me;
release my chains, Lord, set me free.

I opened my eyes
And looked up at the rain,
And it dripped in my head
And flowed into my brain,
And all that I hear as I lie in my bed
Is the slishity-slosh of the rain in my head.

I step very softly,
I walk very slow,
I can't do a handstand--
I might overflow,
So pardon the wild crazy thing I just said--
I'm just not the same since there's rain in my head.

i.
the other day i felt happy
today i feel empty
its like all my feelings drained out
and i tried to stop 'em
but they slid through my fingers
and seeped out
all gone...

ii.
i thought i knew who i was
but right now ive gone missing
an unknown soul
adrift in the world

iii.
on starlit nights, i look out the window
and cry into the darkness
i ask the universe who i am
and ask if it is calling
for i am here, answering

iv.
i still am lost
getting lost to not be found?

v.
its like a puzzle
some pieces are lost
but i am getting them back
...