Lying in my bed at 9:00 pm
Recalling the sweet memories,
Some people gave me
A smile appeared on my face,
A tear ran down my face
That feeling of helplessness,
Took away my happiness
My mind was filled up with questions,
Why this all happened?
Why they had to leave?
These questions didn't let me sleep.

Thank God for blessing us with,
What we deserve and what we don't
Thank God for taking things from you,
To bless you with something more precious and worthy
Just thank Him with the true spirit
And then just watch because you wouldn't have to wait!

I have lost myself,
While trying to be someone else,
Someone I can not be,
Something I can not do
I lost the peace, once I had
I lost the good in me
I lost my identity
I lost my personality
I don't know how to get it all back
I don't know how to get the old me

Hope lies within the heart
To us hope is belief
To us hope is a symbol of life
To us hope is a sign of wisdom
To us hope is patience
To us hope is peace
To us hope is a sword,
That kills the dark knights,
Heading towards our kingdom,
In the dark nights

I want to be remembered, like her
I want to be creative, like her
I want to be cared for, like her
I want to be someone's best, like her
I just want to be someone I can never be!
...like her

Don't know why
Don't know what
Nights are cold
Days are dull
Cold and dull strikes my skull
Deep down in my soul
There is a hole
I can't control
The anxiety in my soul