I am looking for you
seems like
I am looking through you
where did you go?

we flit around
like  butterflies
feelings
like circles of smoke
disappear upon touch
emotions
like breath on a freezing morning
visible but unwelcome
we flit around
from table to table
words
like confetti at a wedding
abundant but never heard.

so this is what a final Goodbye  feels like
the knowledge that there will be no
right of reply
no thinking it over tomorrow
and deciding we were wrong
no we said too much
no let’s keep in touch
no lets fume for a week
and have coffee next Friday
no let’s talk it out again
and say sorry for playing games
this is the game
that was the game
we lost
no chance to regain
you are gone
from this earth
so this is what a final goodbye feels like.

i just wanted you to know
that I've been reading your poems
your stories
your heart
and I too
bleed for these words
like you
and I hope
you read mine too
when your heart
seek for words

There is a man in my life
says he knows who I am
even knows my name
calls me by it everyday
how strange
I don’t know his name
although
I might have
maybe even would have
probably could have
if………

let me hear you laugh
let me hear you cry
let me watch you die
into another evening
without try
let me cry
without voice
with no invoice
in the post
let me try.

I live within realms
of silence
I so want to relinquish
yet cannot