Do you see this empathy i have?
The sincerity i have?
The forgiveness i have chosen to give?
For not just my mistakes but yours.
I'm willing to forgive.  
Sorry, that was a lie!
I can't forgive.
Not for 'how not bothered you are of
how little you have seen.
But maybe the fact you have never wanted
to even get to know me.
Never really knowed me.
I suppose i can never understand/get over
just how quickly you disowned me.
Maby you could at least help me see your point of view... whatever it may be.

    - It will help me to at least get a
               glimpse of me-

(Sponsored by - A conversation between Me, Myself and I)

I am better than this.
I am better than you.
Stop trying to keep sabotaging me.
If i go down then so do you.
Why do you struggle to see?
This....

"My friend this is life as you already know.
You know there is only so long you will be able to keep me at bay.
Only so long until i am free to say...
What i want!
What you can't!
Because of these F* morals you hold on
So tightly to.
But when you do let your guard down..then i
am free to do what you can't.
What you won't"

"I'm a cook cook cooking...when really i should be *******..you
Riding you...
******* you slowly...
I flick my tongue a up and down...
It makes your frown turn upside down...
Even if its just for a little while.
I **** a little harder and i can feel you smile...
Smile for me babe.....
As i lap up your load...
You push my head down harder..tell me to **** harder...
I do as I'm told.."😜😘

I Just don't get it.
I don't think i ever will.
I'm sick of going over the same stuff.
In my head that is...
Most thing's i have forgiven.
Many thing's i have forgotten.
But you don't really care.
I know this by now, yeah...
(i convince myself)
I don't let it get me down.
For you i will never frown...or
will let you see my smile upside down.

- Can you see the "F* YOU"
      in my Smile today? -

Blow..blow..blow
And a bottle of ***...
God i love to swallow your ***.
Deep..deep..deep to the back
of my throat...
Hope to god you make me choke.
Then you start to moan and whine...
I must admit it tastes sublime.
I love to shove it....
Shove it deep.
I love it when your knees go weak....
Babe....
Shove your **** as far as it goes....
Right until "there she blows"

Yes i have questions.
Good one's at that.
The kind of questions that i feel
need answering to.
The one's i think about each and every day.
The one's i would never say.
You thought you understood.
When really you didn't.
You thought you did everything you could. When infact you didn't.

No.

When it mattered you stayed hidden.
Of course you were there...
To kick me when i was down....
Of course you were there...
Maby i'm not being fair.
After all i'm only seeing it from my
point of view.
I'm not pointing fingers at you or you.
There's no one to blame here.
It just hurt that's all... when i started
to see clear.

At the age of 16....
To find that in my hour of need...
there was no F* near.