Raindrops die on the windowpanes today;
each one now on its way to becoming an ocean.

I used to smile
With the best of them
But now for awhile
My grins been thin
When you see the world
And the shape it's in
With an insanity crust
And a crazy filling

I would wake my day
In the usual way
With a howdy do
And a smile on my face
To those I passed
I would kindly wave
As I would always have
Something special to say

But then my smile
One day went South
If you need to know
Take a gander around
Look high, look low
Look up, look down
You too will see
What I'm talking about

When I say ...

I used to smile
With the best of them
But now for awhile
My grins been thin
When you see the world
And the shape it's in
With an insanity crust
And a crazy filling

what doesn't **** you
doesn't make you stronger

it doesn't do anything at all

nothing.

You threw a stone down the wishing well
And put your faith in a ceramic shell,
As the rock disturbed the water
You thanked the Lord, your Father.

Your ceramic shell is full of sand,
And you must obey every command.

In this I mean no disrespect,
But it has to be what you expect
For centuries you've tortured souls
Claiming it will save your own

If I don't believe in him,
That must be the greatest sin,
Worse than denying human beings
Of their own instinctive feelings

Can you blame me for my hate?
When you stole, murdered, lied and *****?


.........."But all that you need is Faith"

Take each day, just like a step
Carefully placing one foot then the next
Watching closely, all the words
Hearing hidden meanings behind all the verbs

Chocolate mint lullabies
And vanilla streams
The sweetness that used to coat
All my childish dreams

Staying clean, its a messy affair
Watch the explosions they fly everywhere
Shards of broken loves, they stick into mine
Injecting the broken fears that causes decline

I've not been myself for a while,
had my heart
broken y'see;
It was a little while ago now,
the pain has faded,
it merely ebbs now and again

I've not been myself for a while,
it changed
me y'see;
I pieced myself back together,
best as I could,
but cynicism still spilled
into the cracks

I've not been myself for a while,
totally someone
new y'see;
there is so much that I want now,
so much more than boys or love,
I'm hardened to all that

I've just discovered myself,
I just realised a second ago,
I never really went away,
I was just concealed under the surface,
waiting for life's little pleasures
life's little happinesses,
to pull me through,
out of the ever-ebbing darkness.

Home is not a place for me
It's not where I have grown
Home is waiting patiently,
somewhere yet unknown