She spoke at once
From inside her car
Looked at me slyly
Proceeded normally
She spoke once more
Talked of old times
Talked of future endeavors
Proceeded normally
She spoke at last

And then never again...

Escaping sky
Elusive moon
Why must you
Leave so soon?
Black and short
Orange and long
Is this where
I belong?
Drunk and sleepy
Beautiful still
So inquisitive
Full of will

Your need for nicotine
Is a cute routine
I’m lucky I saw you
Three hugs, too

There’s no use trying to fight it
It’s in our blood
It’s what makes us,
Us
And we fully believe it to be so
That it’s foolish to play it safe
When our real life is out there
Waiting to be lived

So it begins
And so it ends
The secrets of the day
It all depends
Careful morning
Hectic dawn
Measuring ingredients
Tastefully drawn
Fitting shoes
Making do
What we use
Getting through
Just preparation
Never early
Lucid planning
Going surely
Talking of days
Long before
Talking of days
When we won’t be poor
Sitting, singing
Awkward distance
Mindless thinking
Mindful assistance
Arbitrary sadness
Arbitrary stress
Arbitrary madness
Arbitrary mess
Exchanging a look
Long overdue
Labeling the tag
From me to you

The secrets of the day
It all depends
So it begins
And so it ends

I’ll think of you
And you’ll think of you
And they’ll think of you
But who will think of me?
Well no one will
But it’s okay, my love
Because I don’t deserve to be thought of.

Put my eyes
Where I can see
Where the soul
Used to be
I feel the walls
Closing in on me

Shut my mouth
I take it back
It’s no way
For us to act
I missed the boat
But somehow sailed away

But that’s okay
I’ll have a talk
With this divebar
On a long walk
Along the shortest pier
And watch it disappear

There’s a hole
In my mind
Where the sun
Used to shine
Memories
In black and white

Cut me off
I’ve had enough
Infect the wound
And sew me up
No more words
...

But that’s okay
I’ll have a talk
With this divebar
On a long walk
Along the shortest pier
And watch it disappear

You have no idea
How much I deserve all of this
I am a bad person
Good things happen to bad people,
But bad things happen too.
And so I finally get what I deserve
All my life, i have manipulated people
Toyed with their lives
Done whatever it took to get what I wanted
Whatever that was
And I was very good at it.
Along the way, while I was getting what I wanted
I lost sight of what was important
And now I have come full circle.
I jeopardized what I had for what I wanted
And now all I want...
Is what I already had.

Almost two weeks later
And I don’t know where I am
I know not who controls me
But every minute,
Of every day
In every situation,
I always wish I were somewhere else

I woke, and saw death
I smelled death
I tasted death
I heard death
I felt death...

And for what little hope I had...

Now I am covered in death

Cried out, to me alone
What's in you? Throw me a bone
Oh life, what did you know?
How do I ever decide?

Careful love, blow it away
Let's go there, what do you say?
Oh life, why did I wait
How do I get to the sky?

Called out, to me alone
What made you? Maybe you know
Oh life, let it all go
How do I get to the sky?

...I just can't.

No matter how much
I wish for my death
I always feel weirdly
Attached to this life

Nothing is ever as bad as it seems

Because nothing is as bad as losing the girl of my dreams

Oh,
Elephant
In the room
You made yourself
Out of my shoes
Displace this place
Misplaced in space
Love the love
You loved to love
Once,
All was lost
Now we screen
To find it all found
It's all profound
All profound

Lazy days
Once dazed with haze
Filled myself
With vague's craze

Oh,
Elephant
In the room
Take my worried days
Take today
And yesterday
Make yourself
Out of my shoes
Because I've got nothing
Else to lose.

How did I get trapped in this **** life?
Every day is a new version of yesterday
I now vaguely value things I previously never appreciated
Only to keep my interest in this world
I'm in love with the simplest things
I applaud myself with laughter
And on the inside, I yearn for the end
The irony is that I do the same on the outside as well
And nobody knows that I'm not joking

Angel I can see myself in your eyes
Angel won't you feel for me from your heart
Do return my heart to me
No don't insist I'm already hurt

Elephant girl
It was an accident unfortunate
Angel threw me like a rubber man
Aiming for the ground
Why amuse yourself in such way
No don't insist I'm already hurt

Lay me down on the ground softly softly
Don't remove my head, hurts much too much

You never return it
Well I wouldn't miss it
I shed no tears for broken me
You never know it, my peace of mind
Now inside and outside are matching

Why amuse yourself in such a way
No don't insist I'm already hurt
If you never return it
Will it break your wings
Will you shed no tear for broken me

All of the memories
I cherish so much,
More than anything,
None of it means a thing
It might as well have been a dream
The Fleeting Angel

The more hopeless it seems,
The more hopeful I get.
The more hopeful I seem,
The more hopeless it gets.

This is how I feel right now
Obsolete manuscript
No one reads and no one needs
Pages lost, incomplete
No one knows what it means
Minds grow dark, so suddenly
I was lost on your street

Hey I'm talking to myself
I can hear you listening in
To my thoughts, to my dreams
What I want, can't compete
Obsolete

Take me to the water's edge
Let me stand in the sand
Let me hear the waves crash-land
Useless part
This useless heart
Useless art
What am I? Why am I
Incomplete?
Obsolete

This is how it feels right now
Obsolete manuscript
No one reads, no one needs
Useless part
This useless heart
Useless art
What am I? Why am I
Incomplete?
Obsolete

All I want
Can't compete
All I want
Is a sleep
All I want
Incomplete
All I want
Obsolete

That scream continues to haunt me
It brings me to my knees
The tears, the broken heart, the shout
"Go...please! Just please...get out!"

Flying solo
So close to the sun
Though I care not
For, what I want
Is to see the light
One last time
Before the end
When darkness
Overpowers me

Oh, that magic feeling
Nowhere to go

It's never over
My kingdom for a kiss
Upon her shoulder

It's never over
All my riches
For her smiles

It's never over
All my blood
For the sweetness of her laughter

It's never over
She is the tear that hangs
Inside my soul forever

I'm so in love with you
That I act like you
When I am alone
Because I can't stand
To be without you

She rubs her eyes
Like a child would
"I'm a sleepy girl"
"Hm, I know you are"
"But I don't wanna go to sleep!"
She pouts, then she smiles
And then she sleeps
Precious as the day I first saw her.

Your day breaks,
Your mind aches
You find that all the words of kindness linger on
When she no longer needs you
She wakes up,
She makes up
She takes her time and doesn't feel she has to hurry
She no longer needs you
And in her eyes you see nothing
No sign of love behind the tears
Cried for no one
A love that should have lasted years!
You want her,
You need her
And yet you don't believe her when she says her love is dead
You think she needs you
And in her eyes you see nothing
No sign of love behind the tears
Cried for no one
A love that should have lasted years!
You stay home,
She goes out
She says that long ago she knew someone but now he's gone
She doesn't need him
Your day breaks,
Your mind aches
There will be times when all the things she said will fill your head
You won't forget her
And in her eyes you see nothing
No sign of love behind the tears
Cried for no one
A love that should have lasted years!

The Razorblade
That's what I call love
I bet you'd pick it up
And mess around with it
If I put it down
It gets extremely complicated
Anything to forget everything

Got to take me out
At least once a week
Whether I'm in your arms
Or I'm at your feet
I know exactly what you're thinking
You won't say it now,
But in your heart it's loud

Oh no, my feelings are more important than yours
Drop dead, I don't care, I won't worry

Oh the Razorblade
Wish it would snap this rope
World is in your hand
Or it's at your throat
At times it's not that complicated
Anything to forget everything

He would never talk
But he was not shy
She was a street smart girl
But she cannot lie
They were perfect for each other
Say it now, 'cause in your heart it's love

Oh no, my feelings are more important than yours
Drop dead, I don't care, I won't worry

Sweet one,
Your feelings are more important
Of course
OF COURSE

I have to wonder
How fast the soul could travel
To get away from here
Far away from this life
That I have ruined
Oh,
The life I have misplayed
And the feelings never decayed

"So the mind won't lie
And the arm won't set
And the bright red eye
Isn't off you yet
So the words won't come
And the hand won't touch
And a midnight sun
Doesn't look like much
As an Iris contracts
Facing the day
I can tell you've cracked
Like a china plate"

Fear what is gone
Fear what is lost
Fear what is loved
Fear what it cost
Know what was known
Know what was here
Know what was lost
Know what is fear
Love what's now here
Love what's now new
Love what's now fear
Love what loves you

The slow dive
Below the surface of the night
An undertone
The moonlight
A flaming ember reignites
And blows out cold
I'm barely holding on
You were the only one
You were the only one

Oh, but the moonlight is coarse
And we're strong in detail
But before we go hoarse
The truth will prevail

Of course.
It always happens
Has to happen
It's never over

My life, is something I dread
A monotonous, never-changing seam
Everyday I try another thread
The thread of a new theme
Nothing seems to work

Many times I wonder
If it's been my own faulty decisions
Or if there's something in the Sunder
To blame for the constant salty revisions
Nothing seems to work

I go about it all with scars
The wounds on my soul
Look up at night, I see no stars
Wake up, and I play my role
And nothing seems to work

As the little time pains
The fantasy wanes
But never let the dream fade

Family, in pieces
Set in motion
The future, in splices
Many of us dissipate
The rest of us remain
Throw forward
The throes of time

I lie in bed thinking
Here in the beginning
Whether I'll be losing
Or what I'll be winning
Somewhere along
In the days and nights
I lost who I was
I lost my mind
When it all fell apart
I can't recall
Who was there
Or what I saw
The grip I had
Was loose at best
It was nothing, there
When I did confess
Hell is looming
Heaven is gray
God and disciples
Hate me anyway
With no hope
No reason to go on
I turn to what
When it's all gone?
I lie in bed thinking
Here in the end
All I know is
I know I didn't win

I feel like Bob in the Rain
There is no Lizard of Hope
I'm gone
From my body at least
I appear here now
But my body has no mind
No moral compass
It operates without me
My mind is in this writing
It's in the unconscious decisions
"I hate it when I know and I don't know.
Same time"
It all was a game
It isn't as if I was ever unaware
I always knew
The magnitude is different
Every time, I give up on humanity
And every time, I somehow find hope
This time certainly seems different
It's the end of something.

You, you used to read Karl Marx
Alone in the bath
Whenever you were low
Whenever you were low
You made cakes out of love
And love out of hugs
'Cause that is what you do
Yes that is what you do

And you made a paper boat
And you sailed it all across the floor
To the harbor by the door

You are two people
Still separated by an ocean of time
Part of you bursting
To talk about what you saw
Part of you longing to tell you
What it all means

Anymore, again
Seldom do I scare
For, the moment, then
I just don't care
Like roadkill, still
Wariness is absent
Taunting will
Having rent spent
Look toward the Robin
For life living advice
My head throbbin'
But his voice, reminds me my vice

If I don't know what to do
And I don't know where to go
How can I trust
That which I do know?

Hander of loss
Candid response
Tethered things
And range, arranged
Plural bodies,
Vaguely, qualities
Read a page
Skip a page
Read one more
Never yore
Two explore
Colors and contour
Lone in home
As in Rome

I'm bitter now
Bitter and torn
Because I can't
Protect you anymore

**** them with kindness
**** them with love
Love those who **** you
Love fitting like a glove

Walking to avoid branches
Getting hit regardless
Hung up on the little things
As much as you want to discard this

I can't shake the feeling
You don't understand
That what you're doing is stealing

With my heart in your hand
The feeling revealing
I'm slipping like sand

Ten, and two
Me and you
Two, and two
All I think about is you
Ten, and two
This feeling's not new
Two, and two
I'm rubber, you're glue
Ten, and two
Like a recurring flu
Two, and two
What can i do
Ten, and two
We went to the zoo
Two, and two
Watched Younghoe Koo
Ten, and two
The Morning dew
Two, and two
Clearer now to you
Ten, and two
Now you're a jew
Two, and two
And unrelatedly, i'm blue

Making a claim
To love the same
Revived throughout
With speckled doubt

Every night
I cry myself to sleep
Over a thousand dreams

Nothing I can do
Nothing I can say
Back and forth
I fall, and can't get up
I'm up and I fall again
Drink myself to life
And consider myself to death
Love is life
Life is hard

Sometimes it gets to me
And someday it will **** me
I mean it's fine
What she wants to do is fine
Whatever makes her happy
That's all that matters
Her wants and needs
Easily come before mine
But I do still feel
And it's becoming a detriment
To my life
To my own physical existence

People say every emotion is good
Sadness is a gift...
Fuuuuuuuuuck no, it's not!
I'd give anything to feel nothing
But happiness

Sometimes the world makes me feel
Like I never existed
And I existed
When she was laughing

Upon your cheek
Upon your neck
Upon your wrist
Upon your legs
Upon your feet
Upon your thighs
Upon your lips
Upon your eyes
Upon your fingers
Upon your toes
Upon your hair
Upon your nose
Upon your heart
Upon your heart
Upon your heart

Upon your mind
And upon your hand
That is where
My love will land

Yeah soon you may find
Me with a married man
So take to the sky
With all you can
You can go
Or you can be my friend
On your way here
I read your fears
I understand
Why you're here
You won't go
Because you know the end
Sometimes you say
The silliest things
And no one brings
The happiness you bring
Please don't go
We're on the mend

Please don't go...
I'll need you again...