Sometimes I forget how well you write
Until I see your words
Laid out before me
You always seem to know exactly what to say
And when I read those words
I feel it
Leaving indents in my brain
Pumping blood through my body
I feel it with every inhale and exhale
My heart stops for a second
Your words paralyze me
And I search for you
Waiting for the next rush

World of lines, there lies special curves
Of random life, yet
Mathematically precise
Able beyond measure
Nothing short of perfection

As I run away
Thoughts overtaking me
I've signed off for good
Hating how much I need you

But you find me
With your busted finger
Resentfully childish
And everything that I've ever needed

Bottled up emotion.
Beating of word.
Belittled woman.
Breaking her.

Rage rattling. Ripping  heart.  Renounced love. Rigid decisions.

Observations  of a oblivious man.  Obvious he won't.

Keen girl.
Kindling suspicion killing her.
Knowing he would.

Neutral balance.
Natures nourishes.
"Broken" girl
New life shall flourish.

We are not alone
and although it is uncertain
It is something we just know
We are not the strongest, nor the smartest
For it just cannot be
Yet in the midst of our downfall
We possess the power to find infinite beauty

Alone
I have been
For all of this time

Angry
I became
For there was silence

But I
Mistaken
Consumed with terror

Could not
See the rest
Hidden in plain sight

Enclosed
Your picture
Among the china

At once
I could feel
Your understanding

At last
I could know
We have each other

You move to action
Through fleeting moments of inspiration
Only to have such a gem stripped away
By the chaos that is the world

It is not easy to swallow
To have gone all this time
Believing progress to be
The result of perfect harmony

It is the opposite that is true
Our existence made possible
By the colliding of infinity
None of it being the same

So with every learning moment
All of the time spent outside of yourself
I will fight to further the limits
You've spent your entire life cutting short

Please don't fade away
For the world needs your chaos too

in this quiet room
i can only hear the rain knocking on my window
i can only feel the storm in my head
dark and it's getting darker
light won't ever shine
cold and it's getting colder
it's autumn in my heart
dying with every leaf
i haven't got the will to live
my body aches
millions of needles through my skin
my heart dies little by little
i embrace the pain
i'm holding my breath
i find joy when closer to death
i am drowning in tears
cutting in my flesh
the rain from my veins falling harder and harder
red on my legs
red from my wrists
an ocean of misery i'm falling in
i cannot swim
i'm drowning in a sleep
that i'd like to last forever.