She spoke at once
From inside her car
Looked at me slyly
Proceeded normally
She spoke once more
Talked of old times
Talked of future endeavors
Proceeded normally
She spoke at last

And then never again...

Escaping sky
Elusive moon
Why must you
Leave so soon?
Black and short
Orange and long
Is this where
I belong?
Drunk and sleepy
Beautiful still
So inquisitive
Full of will

Your need for nicotine
Is a cute routine
I’m lucky I saw you
Three hugs, too

There’s no use trying to fight it
It’s in our blood
It’s what makes us,
Us
And we fully believe it to be so
That it’s foolish to play it safe
When our real life is out there
Waiting to be lived

So it begins
And so it ends
The secrets of the day
It all depends
Careful morning
Hectic dawn
Measuring ingredients
Tastefully drawn
Fitting shoes
Making do
What we use
Getting through
Just preparation
Never early
Lucid planning
Going surely
Talking of days
Long before
Talking of days
When we won’t be poor
Sitting, singing
Awkward distance
Mindless thinking
Mindful assistance
Arbitrary sadness
Arbitrary stress
Arbitrary madness
Arbitrary mess
Exchanging a look
Long overdue
Labeling the tag
From me to you

The secrets of the day
It all depends
So it begins
And so it ends

I’ll think of you
And you’ll think of you
And they’ll think of you
But who will think of me?
Well no one will
But it’s okay, my love
Because I don’t deserve to be thought of.

Put my eyes
Where I can see
Where the soul
Used to be
I feel the walls
Closing in on me

Shut my mouth
I take it back
It’s no way
For us to act
I missed the boat
But somehow sailed away

But that’s okay
I’ll have a talk
With this divebar
On a long walk
Along the shortest pier
And watch it disappear

There’s a hole
In my mind
Where the sun
Used to shine
Memories
In black and white

Cut me off
I’ve had enough
Infect the wound
And sew me up
No more words
...

But that’s okay
I’ll have a talk
With this divebar
On a long walk
Along the shortest pier
And watch it disappear

You have no idea
How much I deserve all of this
I am a bad person
Good things happen to bad people,
But bad things happen too.
And so I finally get what I deserve
All my life, i have manipulated people
Toyed with their lives
Done whatever it took to get what I wanted
Whatever that was
And I was very good at it.
Along the way, while I was getting what I wanted
I lost sight of what was important
And now I have come full circle.
I jeopardized what I had for what I wanted
And now all I want...
Is what I already had.