You have no idea
How much I deserve all of this
I am a bad person
Good things happen to bad people,
But bad things happen too.
And so I finally get what I deserve
All my life, i have manipulated people
Toyed with their lives
Done whatever it took to get what I wanted
Whatever that was
And I was very good at it.
Along the way, while I was getting what I wanted
I lost sight of what was important
And now I have come full circle.
I jeopardized what I had for what I wanted
And now all I want...
Is what I already had.

Almost two weeks later
And I don’t know where I am
I know not who controls me
But every minute,
Of every day
In every situation,
I always wish I were somewhere else

I woke, and saw death
I smelled death
I tasted death
I heard death
I felt death...

And for what little hope I had...

Now I am covered in death

Cried out, to me alone
What's in you? Throw me a bone
Oh life, what did you know?
How do I ever decide?

Careful love, blow it away
Let's go there, what do you say?
Oh life, why did I wait
How do I get to the sky?

Called out, to me alone
What made you? Maybe you know
Oh life, let it all go
How do I get to the sky?

...I just can't.

No matter how much
I wish for my death
I always feel weirdly
Attached to this life

Nothing is ever as bad as it seems

Because nothing is as bad as losing the girl of my dreams