Too many ideas lurking in my mind
I'd like to make a poem that is aligned
But i have mixed emotions, so nevermind


Am i Happy? Sad? Angry? Or just Confused?
What to feel if loneliness is intertwined?

Collections of my disorderly thoughts
gathered together with knots
of my ample desire
to make sense of my everyday life.

I haven't felt happiness
Not in a long time
Then you came to me
My mornings dream
Simply sweet
Forever with me
Oddly enough my reason to be

I  fell with the most unexpected person
I was in awe by the thought of her
I felt giddy and my inner child was giggling
There were freaking dinosaurs in my stomach doing somersaults
Is this what it feels like to be in love and be loved? If not, then I don't want this to end.

Cried to relinquish this feeling
Yet I seeked for more
I need to let this go before it consumes me
Don't want to destroy what I built for myself

But I was a coward and caved in
Slash here, drip there
The stinging feeling made me feel normal and alive
The satisfaction that I felt, how euphoric
The adrenaline rush it gave me pure ecstasy
Satisfied but disheartened
Happy but Sad

Back to Zero,
Gonna Begin Again.