As i lie down to to sleep,
my mind tends to take a leap,
over to the dark side of my soul,
where death are the only thoughts made whole,
all things smell of burning flesh,
here lies every dead dream and every lost wish,
but one thing here is not just a dream,
death is a real thing,
it cause me to stay awake,
as i feel my skin begin to bake,
as i sweat and cry,
because i don't want to die,
as my body falls still,
my mind never will,
cause my hearts to cold and my sweats to hot,
i wish these nightmares would leave me but they will not,
i wake in the morning but it only gets worse,
cause hate isn't a dream and neither is divorce,
i can't escape the evils in my mind,
there is nothing to hide behind,
the wickedness cuts through all i think,
it tears my flesh and poisons what i drink,
cause all these things are real,
and darkness is their only appeal,
i want to wake up from reality,
go back to something that will never be,
so i must deal with being me,
and living in the world i can touch and see.

Days pass by and by
none of them catch my eye
the present and past seem to fly
as we grow old and begin to die
all has meaning
even breathing
every moment so direly fleeting.

I see shadows crawling up a wall
the voices in my head tell me to **** them all
I smell hate and feel loved
In the dark i feel hugged
all emotion fades away
it all leaves day by day
killing all who get in my way
with a kiss on the cheek
and no other words to speak
i run back into the black for none to see
what i have done to that lifeless body
destroy the body eat the soul
leave the blood to form a pool
for the wolves to lap up
and maybe even it will bring a few pups
i don't think i am crazy
this darkness just feels so amazing.

To fill a heart with grace and peace
To give love to those who have the least
to care for those who are dying
to be a comfort to those who are crying
to sing to those who cannot sleep
to teach writing to those who cannot speak
overcoming every fear
till a full heart will finally appear
a full heart spills over the brim
and floods joys over and out from deep within
a fountain of joys springs into light
and renders the dark to flee and fright

How can one feel so alone
when one is do full of love
how could one feel cold to the bone
when one is free like a dove
a question in the dark
to which no good answer would spark
left in the shadows to rot and die
teardrops fall from his eye
when you are different from everyone else
but you feel like you need to act like all is well
when really you feel like a freak
and comfort yourself by saying your just unique
full of emotions full of fears
in a corner alone again shedding tears
burning your face while you tell yourself everything will be okay dear
when really you believe u wont and it tears u apart
your soul was stretched and these thoughts shred your heart
but they wont leave
neither will the attention you receive
death inside life outside
nothing to lose but everything that hurts you feel you must hide
You feel like it would set you free
if who you were you no longer had to be
but in the dark there is always light
someone finds me in the dark
and i began to fight
Death is dead and you behold
the real you about whom you were never told
cause underneath every scared soul
is a person waiting to be found to be mad whole
thank you sister thank you my dear friends
for seeing past the difference in me
and setting me free!