i worry
that i worry too much
after all theres likely little i can change
perhaps things would go smoothly if i got out of the way

i worry
that i must worry more
so many beginnings with rotten endings
certainly minding every detail is the only path for recourse

I beg for forgiveness,
as I sin every night,
but I can’t bare looking at the world each day,
knowing it will end,
maybe not for me,
but for someone else.

and if you can't be a cure,
you have no rights to unleash my wounds........

if you are going to appear in my dreams,
i will never wake up.........

I am sick again



but there's no sniffles or no sneezing.