I try to be a leader,
but feel like a dictator.
I try to follow,
but feel like a servant.
I try to show emotion,
but feel nothing.
I try to hide emotion,
but feel it burn inside me.
I try to live,
but I feel dead

"being color blind and constantly told how colorful the world is."

I am too scared to write.
I have too much to say.
My mind is racing,
yet thoughts remain
internalized.