My life is filled with sadness
Strife and mockery
I feel depressed, weak, and alone
I go to my friends, but no ones home
I'm laying here on my bed
Lying in loneliness
No one cares, no one knows I'm here
They have their own lives
Why bother with me
I feel afraid, and don't what to do
I'm all alone, what can I do?
My life is shattered
Filled with longings
I long for a friend
One that will never leave
But I'm stuck here with empty promises
People say "I'm here for you"
But then they just walk away
I don't see a purpose to keep going any longer, so please, just end it for me.
Unless i can find a true friend who will never leave my side, I don't see why I should be here. I need you
Please stay close
I'm in a bad rough place
I'm haunted by a ghost
I need your comfort, sharing joy, and peace
Please, save me from my desperation.

There was a man who tried to fly
To make it through the land
Though the air he would go
Over the wall he would fly

He thought that the bats
Were the secret
That they could teach him
To make it

But when he jumped into the air
Cart strapped on his back
He fell so fast, his whole world broke
How could he ever again be on track

The bats fly freely through the night
Over the wall, past the tower
As they eat their fill in flight
For they have the power

But he couldn't fly
He landed hard
So he crawled over to a tree
And kept his cart shard

He likes the comfort his broken cart gives
He likes the shelter it helps the tree give
But that's because he wants to receive
So he can peacefully live

To receive joy, comfort, and peace
How could you ask for more
He wants to free, to fly like the bats
But he's forever stuck to the floor

So in his new home, his life will now pass
He did what he thought was right
But it seems it would never last
For he can't like a bat take flight

So here he will sit
A monument to all
That the wall is s trial to overcome
Yet he chose to stall

He stalled in the air
For he can't do right
His joy will never be hear
He'll never have delight

So forever he a monument to all
A warning for those to come
Not to fall into the same snare
To forever beat a dying drum

A drum that those who pass by will hear
A sound to awaken their thoughts
A tone of death, and sorrow ahead
A reminder harnessing fear

This poem may not rhyme
Or give a pretty sound
Buts an accurate description
Of the voices that I hear

I FEEL ANGER

All I can feel is anger inside me
For what I don't enjoy has come
I asked for a friend, I got a statue
One that nods at all my words.

I feel anger
I'm mad at the world
Its doesn't give me love
It gives me little good

People don't see all the greatness there
They cast their glance beyond
They look for something, easy and cheep
Something that will give them much

But by doing so they miss the true target
The target of joy and love
They miss what matters, what's really important
They miss out on it all

That's why I'm mad, for they miss their mark
And throw me by the way side
I'm thrown like trash, a shot and hes gone
Down the hoop of garbage

I feel mad, a deserving wrath
My feelings are not healthy
My fists are clenched
My teeth forced against each other
My eyes are glaring mad


I'm mad at people, they are no good
They only kindle my anger
why cant they see the young man they have tossed
Why don't they listen to reason

I feel like I'm about to lash out
I can't deal with this no more
You've plucked the last straw
SO LEAVE ME ALONE!
I don't want you here.

You've done great good, I appreciate that
But that good was so long ago
Why can't you be like you were
A true friend to me

Now your different
And I hate the change
You can't  see the light
The light that sits right in front of you

I don't even know why I'm here
Your no longer good to me
The world has turned its face away
And you have turned there too.

I loved you once
Now you've kindled my anger
Don't talk to me no more

As much as I have cared for you
You've done nothing to accept my kindness
Why do I try any longer
When you only throw me away

I'm angry, and I don't like it
But I can't tolerate no more.
So either you listen, and heed my words
Or else be gone for good!

There was a Panda in his room
Ready to fall asleep
He wrapped himself up
Hugged his bed
As he counted all his sheep

The sheep jumped by one by one
As he watched the setting sun
The moon would rise
Stars shine bright
As the night time had begun

He rests his head on his pillow
He lays there all alone
In the warmth of night he falls asleep
As he pays his daytime loan

His mind goes dim, as his dreams awake
And he's in a pitch black room
When in front of him a bubble forms
One the size of his head
Past him it begins to zoom

The Panda half walks half crawls to where the bubble lay
Afloat in the air
Suspended above
He raises his voice to speak for it to come
But when his mouth opens, he doesn't know what to say

The bubble sits there laying in wait
Waiting for him to reach
So the Panda puts up his outstretched arm
Reaching for what he thinks would give him great joy
But what he finds is alarm

As he reaches and touches the bubble
The bubble begins to shake
It waivers and pops and rains down debris
And yet he doesn't wake

The Panda looks down
With tear stained eye
He sees the puddle below
And to the bubble he waves good bye

In this puddle left by the bubble
He sees his reflection glow
He sees his face, his tear stained eye
He wants to be set free
But for this little Panda, waking up is slow

There is a beach on the shore
Where the sea will hit the land
A place where two words become one
As the sea and land form sand

And on this beach the waves will crash
And the shells will echo back
The wind will blow, the salt will smell
As you see the firmament's crack

The crack of red, blue, and yellow
The streaks that color the sky
The birds that glide so high above
That make you wish to fly

But on this beach is one great thing
It astounds me most of all
It's all the sand, each individual grain
No matter how big or small

It's size doesn't matter
It sits on that beach
It's unique all on its own
This is what it will teach

Though the grains so numerous
Are each a single unite
No units are the same
Each differ a bit

This is astounding, the variety here
The shape, color, and shade of each
It reminds me of an experience
That all happened on the beach

How each grain of sand was all in place
And then I ran across its surface
Some sand stuck to my feet
Some moved along, it all missed the race

The sand was there, then gone, then back
It left, was present, and absent
Some sand remained true to the end
Some came and went here and there

Some sand showed strength by clinging on tight, others showed weakness
Both showed power
Though one shows reason

There are many monsters in our lives
As we journey through the lands
Many battles to be fought
Some with our minds, some with our hands

So here I am, on this journey
Why was I choosen to go
Im in the forest, scary and dark
With no light to glow

I've reached a battle a small little goblin
A sword is in his hand
But with one blow of my mighty swing
I knock him from the living land

Now I've reached another monster
An ogre of great size
And with his club he smashes down
Im hit hard and go to the ground
But then i take a small throwing knife, and hit him in the eyes

Two monsters down, one small one big
But another monster comes
This monster is called a mimic
For it takes on the form of a friend

It comes out and entices you
To think it's very friendly
It tells you it will help
Your journey through the war

So now you are tricked to think you have a friend, but then you fight another goblin, small and insignificant, but then you lose to the monster and the mimic turns on you.

This is a monster in your life
A backstabbing one you must discern from
You must see theough the lies it tells
Or itll hurt you more when it attacks you and leaves, once you lost.

So now I'm stuck here bleeding out
A dagger in my side
My eyes see my life flashing by
And from this world my mind will slide

the physco
In us all
Is a creature
One others rarely see

Yet a creature
We know too well
Its a chaos we rarely see

Its a creature
That cowars behind
It is rarely shown

Its a creature
That festers with time
Someday it will explode

This thing is fearful
Bashful and
filled with rage
Confusion

Yet no one knows the creature
No one knows its age
No one knows its birth

Yet we know the creature
We know how much it's worth
We know how much we need
To see the hidden strength

It is a feeling
That grows more and more
Till one day
Calm is seen no more

Just a few too many
Pushed too far
Till we fall of the cliff

We dive way down
We drag other with
We leave some behind

Yet as we fall we feel free
An aspect of us unleashed
Revealed for all to see

Its an emotion
Help with in
With the goal of never using

Yet someday
Our brains will pop
The pressure too much to bear

Physo will be free
Our ideals change in an instant
And a once broken heart
Though not fixed
Will be seen as perfect

For our smiles hide our feelings
Our words hide our screams
Our acts hide our tears
And our brains hide our thoughts

We decide to ourselves
For i am best For me.
I never leave, always stay
will always be set free

For I know my values
I live up as best I can
When others fail to meet them
Its my fault for thinking
That they could be good for me

We lose our self
We lose all trust
We lose all faith
As our minds now turn to dust

My life is a mess
Things aren't going right
I'm all mixed up
Nothing good in sight
So I must ask
Where is the light

In my life, no light shines
I don't know what to do
I wish i wasn't lost in the dark
Never to make it through
I'm wandering in a giant maze
A maze with no end, a maze with only tears

I wander here and there
From one dead end to another
I'm lost, where do I go
Will you ever tell me Father
This maze has no end
I guess I'm doomedhi
To eternally travel farther

But the farther I go
The weaker I become
I need renewal, strength, hope
But it costs a large sum
I'll never get to see
Any future hope to come

I'm lost, I'm alone
I'm wandering still
The maze is dark
And I'm feeling a chill
The air is cold, I feel a slight breeze
But I'm stuck, empty with out fill

I need assurance
I need to know
That I don't walk alone
I need a friend to be by my side
I need an angel to glow

Sneakers, sandals, slippers, or flips
Flops and, socks, or maybe crocs.
Vans, and addida, champion too
Oh the many shoes to go through

But here is a man who knows shoes well
He has much to teach and tell
This man is named Mr. Ned
He has a shoe on his head

Mr. Ned went to school
The university of Crocs&Socks
Now all he wears is comfort shoes
Things that make him feel good and cool

So now lets hear the story
The story of Mr. Ned
The story of he got to where he is now
A story of his march ahead

Mr. Ned was a poor little boy
Grown up in the city of This Way And That
But poor little Ned had a no bed
No where to rest, but it was all his best

So Mr. Ned made a choice
He would travel abroad to study shoes
It was a good cause
To make sure no foot could lose

He went to school
The school of tick tocks
A place where he learned
Of sandals with clocks

He then moved on to Toe Boot School
Where he learned his boots
Inside and out
Making sure to know it all well through

But poor Mr. Ned didn't like any of those shoes, they made his feet hurt or uncomfortable
So he chose to move on to Sneaker Squeaker, a school of silent sound

But Ned didn't like this school one bit
It was all silent, but the squeak of the sneak, you could never be happy, making no noise, so he chose to move on
To the school of Shoe Boys

But when he arrived
The school wasn't for him
They chased him out
Throwing hard doll toys

That school was for girls
A lot of them too
The smell and the hair
Made Ned coocoo

He then decided
"Proffesional I should go"
So he chose to go
To the school of Shoe Snow

But that school was cold
Except for his feet
They were warm
Even through the sleet

So he left being freezing
And went to a beach
But all he found there
Was shoes white with bleach

Why you should ask?
Well it's really quite simple
The people love shoes
Not the yellow of sand

They want their shoes clean
Not fat, wide, or lean
So they made sure to put bleach
Where ever a shoe may land

But Mr. Ned decided that even
That wasn't for him
So he took a bus
To City Where Ever Whim

There he found a school of Crocs
Crocs with socks
Some shoes were black, others were red
Yet nothing there, was a sight of dread

The style was intricate
Fancy yet easy
A sock must be put in every croc
A sock and shoe was comfy
And made you want to walk

So Mr. Ned finally found what he loved
A sock with a Croc a style of uniqueness
A sock of DeWine, with a basic Shoe
Made it seem, like anything he could do

He marched up a hill
With a smile on his face
And a paintbrush in hand
Oh the color you could make your crocs
Yet it always washed off, with soap-a-krill

Socks with crocs were what he needed
He made sure to stand tall
And to announce his discovery
To all passerbys's he meeted

Mr. Ned now wears crocs and socks
A croc on his head
And socks on his feet
No heavy thing could ever slow him
Not even the eight of of a rock solid block

So please go ask of Mr. Ned of his journ
He has made it all around the world
But now Mr. Ned needs some rest
He lays down on his bed
Knowing He found the best.

A thud, a knock
A tap at your door
Will you open

There is a person
A practicing friend
Who desires to know you more

Yet will you chose
To let them in
Or for them to stay on the porch

To unlock your door
Is a notable challenge
With pains from burns and scorch

Yet is the price
Worth having a friend
Will you open the door

Will you respond
To the thud, the knock
Will you hear the tap at the door

No matter the twinkle
No matter the star
No matter the wish
Or the distance far

No matter the night
Or the monsters fright
There is someone
With all the might

Watching, listening
Keeping you safe

It's our Father Above
With eyes of love

He desires your best
A good nights rest
A kiss and a hug
With no bed bug

A sweet calm dream
Of a steady stream
Or a sailors ship
Or a family trip

No matter the vision
Through out the night
There is our Father above
Who keeps away all fright

I feel afraid, I'm all locked up
I can't express myself
But if I hide how I feel
It makes me feel no hope

Fear has me
It's gripped on hard
I cannot find relief

I'm all locked up
inside a cell
As i stare in disbelief

How? Say its not so
How did we get so lost
I just can't see what's all happened
I'm blinded behind my smile

But my smile never shows
I have no reason for joy
I'm all locked up inside

This prison isn't physical
But it limits more beyond
Its in my mind compelling me
Saying I cannot do what's right

I have no freedom
What do I do
I do nothing
For there is no reason with hope
There is no freedom inside

Im struggling
In frightened, lost, confused, hurt, and sad
I don't know what to do
I feel like nothing but a lost sheep
One that will be found in 14 years.

You my friend for you I fear your ship is sinking and land is nowhere near

Your ship is old and rather worn the air blows through, for your sails are torn

I hope you know where for repairs to seek for your chances of living are looking quite bleak

The water is deep up to your knee
The repairs cost a lot, a pretty hefty fee

But now I will explain to you, your crew you should know them they're all but new

This man is Eager he steers your boat
That's why for so long you were afloat
He steers in the way where his eyes seize And thats why for you sailing was a breeze

This man is Lie and this man is Hate
they both happen to guard the gate

In case you were wondering its the gate to your heart and they make sure to gaurd every last part

But also you know this is gate number two this gate gaurds Truth, he's locked up too

Every once in a while you let Truth out
But when you do he begins to shout
He shouts at your crew and all the evil they brew

This man is ******* he orders your crew
That's why there's nothing for you to do

This man is Self-Love he loves you most
That's why your crew does little but boast

You are in despair no hope for tomorrow
That's why your best friend is Sorrow

This man is Lust and this man is Fake
They both choose for what leaves to rake

They rake leaves or anger sadness and sorrow that's why for joy you must pay or borrow


The ocean is open few clouds in the sky
And yet to you I must wave good bye

A good bye forever for you have no hope
Your stuck going down, down the sadness *****

But look what's that, a man in the sky
With angles around praising Lord most high

Meet your Savior He's riding a cloud
Music praises Him with trumpets aloud

This man comes down whipes away your tears You've been away a great many years

He clears your ship gives you a new crew
He makes it so you're no longer blue

He knows what is right.
So He clothes you in white.
He shows He has strength to overthrow sin. You sit there and wonder "what is this might?"

This strength comes from God who rules over all. He'll make sure into sin you don't fall.

So now with
Christ by your side
You walk stride by stride

Have faith in all this and remember His love,
remember in Heavan His presence above.

But above all remember this
Your greeted with a kiss
And not just by those who passed before
but also by Christ and angels

Im done, I'm through
For to me you have lied
So I am gone. Leaving
Away I now ride

I will never want to here your name
To trigger memories of our past
For all i feel is pain and anger
Friendships lever last

I'm done, im through
I can't know you anymore
I dont want to, i wish i never did
Away from you I soar

Leave me be, you have caused pain
So out of my mind you go
There is nothing great, no accomplishment
Nothing good to show

I'm mad, I feel anger
I don t want this to be
In sad, I'm hurt
And from this you find glee

Get out of my life
Your no longer welcome
For out of my head
Out of my heart
And out of my life
I am cursed with this memory

I am friends with my inner most parts
The emotions that i feel
They help me feel some good
Or some evil with which to deal

I am friends with loneliness
As it comforts me in times of strife
It helps me to not feel unwanted
As it is always there for me in life

I am friends with fear
As he never leaves my side
He comforts me when I am afraid
When with anger i abide

I am friends with anger
He helps me feel alive
For with out him, I might lack motivation
And never make the dive

He gives me strength
When i need it most
He helps me out of bad situations
And of that he often boast

I am friends with weakness
For he helps me think
He helps me be deep in thought
And find solutions to prevent me sink

I am friends with lie
For he brings much pain
But through it i grow stronger
He helps me grow, as I always train

I am friends with false hope
For he keeps me in line
Reminding dreams are not always possible, and reminding that here on earth, i am a living sign

I am friends with waver
For my mind wanders
From being one thing to another

He helps my mind move along
As i forget what is in the past
He is my life saver

I am friends with all of these
They help me to remain alive
So that as i live i can be happy
And have a reason to dive

The desert is full of many grains
Many people seeking fame
Many people pursuing riches
Seeking to make a name

They dance around
They work hard
They tale their dust
And form a shard

A shard of sand
Made fine by time
A peice of art
A shining dime

Its value untold
Its worth is precious
The hard work to make it
The countless, countless, hours

All to make
This shard from dust
This shard of sand
This shard of luck

But it isn't so
The shard is made
From water mixing
Which happens never
In the desert

Yet every few hours
Day by Day
A storm
Ravages the deserts

No shard of sand has ever survived.
For four times a day they die
And once a year they live
Yet people seek them, why?

They seek a hope that never comes
A joy that fades so fast
For they take their dust, the tears of sand
And it turns only to rust

Nothing lasts, nor stays around
Even grains of sand
Are tossed and thrown about
An unfamiliar place, to always land

The darkness here is thick and cold
Im living a life but I'm not bold
I sit here scared
Scared of my life
Scared for my life
Scared of where my life will lead

There is no light
For it has ran
My life's not bright
Its boring, bland

So here I am where ever this is
In a place of darkness, fear, no bliss

Its dark in here
Its cold in here
I look around
can't see the ground
where am I

Then I see a flicker of light
I come closer
Its suddenly bright
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I

Then the brightness fades away
Im stuck again where i was before
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I

My skin is burning
I'm freezing cold
I want my pain to end
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I

But then all a sudden
In front of me
I happen to see
A figure a shadow
Of who it is I'm meant to be
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I

This figure reaches
Outstreched hand
Gives me a light
A torch in hand
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I

I thought the torch
Would warm me up
But the fire's cold
The wood will not scorch
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am i

I look around
Now able to see
I see no color
Only dark empathy
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I

Im all alone
My feelings drone
I feel like I'm
A life unknown
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I

I live my life
In the darkness here
But no one truly knows my fear
In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I

I fear a lot of what is to come
And where my thoughts will be
Im lying here my thoughts all dead
Then I remember my life I dread

In the darkness
In the cold
Where am I?
The answer is
I'm in my mind
Alone and unforgiving

My mind is dark
Not easily lit
And if a light
Can manage to shine
Its only for a bit

My life is shattered, torn, and cruel
I feel like I'm in a standing duel
A duel I cant win because if my sin
Because of my lack of sustaining joy

So here I remain
In the darkness
In the cold
Stuck inside my mind
Please someone
Make it end

An end to all my grief
Only then will you be
Someone I can love
A sincere and true friend.

So please my friend
Be a light
A light that will last
Or else my head and I
We may just have to never see
An end to this dark sickness
For it to end is what I plea

Way down here
Where screams are common
The people shiver with cold
Way down here in the darkness below
People listen to the Shaman

Everyone is locked up in a cell
Everyone in his own
Here is a place where they are all alone
The place where evil calls home

In this prison the people cry
For a redeemed to come and save
But so far they only here
The mocking voice of the Shaman
"Soon you'll see your grave"

The people are are locked
Inside despair
As the Shaman laughs
And casts his glare

He chants a few words
And pain arcs through your bone
The Shaman cackles and smirks
As he sits on his dungeon throne

In the evening night time shines
The darkness becomes king
In the evening the Shaman rules
Where there is no good to cling

The Shaman demonstrates
All the power that he can do
For the Shaman wants me locked in prison, where all my fears come true

This is a place that's hard to leave
A snare that never fails
This is a place of horrors come true
Where to good there are no trails

This is the place the panda is trapped
In a prison of fear and pain
The bubble is gone, the dream has fled
As the Shaman brings out a chain

Here a creature lurks below
In shadows of evergreen
Constantly surrounded
By trees, rocks, and green

This creature lives in solitude
As below the sky it thrives
It grows in height and grows in age
It grows in antler size
But most of all it grows up inside
As it grows with morning dew

This creature is no antelope
Or moose of the great up north
It simply is a caribou
A traveler of abroad

The caribou is in the green
It has aged an awful lot
So in the green it finds a tree
And its antlers it will shed

Here is a creature in the Green
The green of forest groves
It lives in peace and eats its cloves
As in the forest it grows

This creature grows tall and strong
As is grazes on the grass
It lurks below the shadows
As forever it will last

Unoticed by most who pass on by
Unseen by those you don't care
So lurking in the deep dark green
A lonely life it will share

In the lot
The sky is dark
But everything is lit

I can see
The passing cars
But not the passing stars

I can feel the cool cold dark
But also I feel the light

The light of Christ
Shining in me
Shining to show me the way

But the light
I'm about to see
Isn't mine

But its a gift so divine
To see the work others do
To be apart of their work

I see cross after cross
Painted on the lot
I see light among the dark

I moved myself inside the lines
That is where I park

As I step out I see a world
More beautiful than ever
One bounding for joy
Abundant in life
And bright as ever

Amidst the cruel chaos
Happening around
Here is a sphere of hope

An aura of safety
A place of worship
All inside a church
What blessings will come next?

There once was a kingdom
Towering high
Great it would stand
Strong and grand
But it was really shy
This is the first
Of three lands
But only two
Were different brands
You see the greatest
Of them all
Was the one
That was often small
The two lesser kingdoms
Fought and fought
The third kingdom join
Is what they sought
But war and anger always despair
And cause fires and damage
That never repair
So neutral the third
Did try to remain
But it seems only soldiers
Are continually slain
Why can't borders be kept
Or armies swept
Qhy can't fences be made
Yet also rode
Why can't farms grow
And bring forth yield
Because armies clash
With sword and shield
Because no yellow
Is neither green nor blue
Because no trade
Can ever reach through
For ever person and every war
Is a raid on life
On breath
On blood
But from this third kingdom
Will never come aid
For when fires burn
And when they smother
Can you ever truly gain another

We all sit through the play life
Watching day by day
Will the play ever change
Will I ever have a say

People go on this stage
To act as a different person
But each character they play
Is not who signed the page

Each person has put their signature
Onto a slip of white
Saying they will true to themselves
But then acting, they won't fight

They all chose to act in this play
To be who they are not
They all chose to be a person
To be who life has taught

Life has taught all these people
To act as what they are not
To star in a play, where they are fake
No one has ever fought

They commit themselves to a fake them
They then torture others to watch
We are all forced to sit in the audience
And watch life's false blotch

People lie to who they truly are
For they like the character too much
They tell you statues, make you promises
But then never carry out such

We all need to find some one
Who hasn't given into the play
We all need fo find someone
Who sits with us through the day

A person who will join you
And sit in the audience
A person whose character matches
The person they truly are

But be aware for you may just star
In the play you read described
And so i hope that you can fight
To be one with yourself inside

In the night the crickets are loud
The frogs croak as they abound
In the night the birds are asleep
Only bats are to be found

In this night the sun is down
The moon is hiding too
In this night the breeze blows cool
With the mist of sadness blue

The trees are dark and sky is black
No light can be seen
In the darkness I am stuck
Lying in agony

The sun never shines in here
The stars never twinkle
The howl of wolves and casted shadows
Cause my courage to dwindle

I'm all alone in this dark void
No soft voice to comfort
All I hear is resounding fear
And all I see is the darkness of night

I'm lost, no hope
The trail can't be found
I'm wandering to no avail
I'm lost in the dark surrounded by shadows

The shadows project
Monsters galore
Monsters I know all to well
Sadness and lonesome are two I make out, with anger and sorrow next to me

It seems in darkness eternally
Is where my soul is bound
For this darkness is thick
And the air is cold
How could i ever be free from this dark mind trick
Am I ever to be found

We sit and watch
We look around
But what we see
Is never sound
Our ears can perk
Our noses smell
But never will
We realize Hell
Is often closer
To our hearts
Then all the clouds above

Our vision blurs
Our ears can droop
Our noses plug
Our hands grow cold

So ever key we hit
Only becomes
harder with ice
We play a key
And yet don't see
The giant size
Of what is lost
A feeling
An emotion
A thought
A song

For in a moment
It all turns wrong
No note is heard
No shadow seen
Only a growing fire
With but one desire
To burn all
That we love
And rid us
Of our hearts

For deep inside
We all know
Our shadows grow
When no one sees
When no one listens
Hears or smells
And slowly we enter
A dark damp room
With locked doors
And no source of light
In this room is a piano
One with shimmering keys
Tainted in blood
Wood is sanded
Smooth and soft

Yet,

Hit a note
And no sound comes
For all the stings
They have been cut
And each string
Represented
A dream that will never come

So curl up
Hide
Try not to cry
For your head is gone
Your eyes are blind
Your ears are deaf
Your nose is plugged
Your hands are cold
And feet are numb
And soon you will
Be dead

One moment you have joy
Your happy as can be
But then a trial hits you hard
Knocks down all your glee

So you fall through the air lower and lower, till you can no longer fall anymore, But then the ground opens right has you enter an abysmal store

Your way down deep separated within
Why isn't help here
Your stuck below in this dark case
Lonely, cold, and with fear

One moment your good then it's all gone, why have you fallen so far
It seems to me the Shaman within
Has turned my joy into a scar

I need a friend down here in this pit
I need to know I'm not alone
I need a friend to rescue me
And share a joyful tone

There is a desert past the fields
Over the mountains away
For past the mountains not very many
Rain clouds tend to stray

The sky never darkens except at night
But the day is always bright
Always ready to show you flames
As the sun shines down light

Here no water ever comes
Not even tears to cry
Here you can sit
Where it will always be dry

Is that good or is that bad
It's very bad I'll tell
For years and years
The only presence is a face that fell

This fallen face is part of you
For its in you and lives
It brings your thoughts to despair
And nothing it continually gives

The sun or the moon is always shining
The desert is never dark
Never absent never alone
Never heard the meadow lark

A meadow lark would be a sign
That there was reason and good
But in this desert, none are present
You have to escape if you could

But your prisoner in this desert
A never ending land
No water, no joy, no darkness to rest
Your only surrounded by burning sand

So here your fallen face will tell
You of a forlorn man
A man who is lost in his mind
Escape him if you can

But you can't, for it's not possible
The sand will never leave
And neither will the fallen face
Your stuck to only grieve

Your world is lost, you'll never rest
You will always be alone
Hopelessness is all you will know
This the light has shone

All you need is one little drop
A drop to quench your thirst
A drop to make plants grow
But it seems you are cursed

Cursed to live your life here
In this desert of empty fear
With out rain, sleep, or tear
But with storms you'll never hear

This desert is your mind
It's all you'll ever know
A state of hopelessness
Is what you'll continually show

The lights above you guide your way
Forcing your wandering soul
You're trying to find a way out
Freedom is your unattainable goal

Your world is lost, you'll never rest
You will always be alone
Hopelessness is all you will know
This the light has shone

Mystery surrounds
We can not tell
We know not
How we fell

I am cursed to walk
Among those down low
Where people pass
And time is slow

Where leaves turn brown
Where rivers freeze
Where the sky turns dark
And you can feel the breeze

This foreign place
I do not know
I want the truth
That will never show

I want to be told the secret
To this foreign land
But I fear I lost the bet
Question is, at who's hand?

I can feel the steam
Comming out of me ears
As i think of you and cry
I can feel my anger, dwelling inside
As i feel my tear stained eye

Im standing here torch in hand
This is the final goodbye
I smash down the torch onto the bridge
As I think of your words that lie

I now step back safely on my island
Raging mad you see
I watch the fire blazing now
As the bridge collapses into debris

Your gone, your stuck
To neber be on my island
Your are not welcome to come here
As i give you a spiteful brand

The bridge is gone, I'm raged at you
I don't want you here again
The evil i see is much to great
As my fuse has reached ten

Here I am on top a hill the water closing fast
I hope I learn how to swim or else my life won't last

The water now has eaten me I'm in the deep dark blue.

Now I really have to wish
That like a bird I flew

But now I'm covered by a blanket of blue surrounded by those I love

But being with them I'm still not happy
Done is my life above

So as I sink further down I open my eyes to see
But the water around slightly stings my eyes
that are in that sea

I'm stuck down here below the surface the water squeezing in

So as I know my life will end
As I think of all my sin

Of all the sinful acts and dreams I have thought and done

I realize I'm such a fool for not believing Noah

He is the one who could have saved me
Buinside
Despair is swimming
Lurking near laughing at me
no hope I see
Only in a matter of time my life will no longer be

So as I take my dying breath a pain I will imbibe

The pain of water filling my lungs and the pain of my grief inside

You invest time
Money, and mind
Soul and heart

But in the end
All you see
Is love broke apart

You try your hardest
You give your all
But it never will safice

So why try
Why push ahead
When every step
Is a sacrifice

You do everything
With perfection
Trying hard not to offend

You do so great
Perfection really
Then you fall off
the deepest end

Your mind goes dark
Your thoughts become fear
And never do you mend

Your unconscious thoughts
Your fear of loneliness
Have now appeared

Be her friend
Let her grow close
The demons all sneered

But then those demons
They have won
They applauded and cheered

You've been left
Abandoned
Alone

A powerful light
A beacon of hope
That had once shone

Now dead in the tower
Hides above
Never to walk bellow

You have tried
You gave your all
But even perfection
Is only third best

Is this a test?
To try my worth?
To check where my faith lies?

If so why have You left?
The temple gone
The millenium far
Unhearing to their cries

Please my friend
I know I'm dead to you
But I know my spirit lives

Please my friend, let me in
Let my spirit relive again
Let me be your life long friend
Let me fix the wrong I've done

Please my friend
I know your hurt
I know I am to blame

But please my friend
Let me retry
Let me help you if I can

Please my friend
I need your help
To fix the wrong I've done
Please my friend, help me to help you

I look around and see
A very lonely me
For people's only desire
Is to abandon those they meet
The only way
To make them stay
Is to bribe them
With gold, silver, or hay
Only with something
Of value to gain
Will a person choose
Not to run away
But why can't it simply
Be enough to keep them close
Just to show them love?

You walk, you drive,
You live your life
And yet you feel
So much strife

You're filled with anger,
Sorrow, and tears
You've been this way
For many years

And with each year
A new tear comes
A new face flees
A person runs

For no one sees
Your pain within
Their eyes are blind
Brains in a spin

They are there
No words to share
No life to live
No breathe to give

Questions unanswered
Messages left
Moods unchecked
Intentions neglect

The reason behind
Is silence ahead
No fulfilled request
Loneliness and dread

There once was a stick
A part of a nest
Handpicked by birds
And placed for a rest

This stick was set
To keep them warm
To shield from wind
To protect from storm

But day after day
And night after night
The little birds were wet
But no rain was in sight

They then soon realized
The stick they had chose
Was slanted, out of place
And them, it did expose

So out of the nest
They threw the stick
The slanted price of wood

They wanted to be dry
To be shielded from the sky
Yet to it, those were nigh

The stick now lays
Soaked on the ground
Again though no rain comes

Shivering, mourning, and disappointment
Are its emotions in a sum
Casted out a forlorn friend
A burden to them all

Your head
Is in a spin

But sometimes that
Is what you need
To see the earth
In its orbit

Around the sun
It spins around
It never stops
Always in motion

So spinning
In life
In shadow
In your head
Or in your heart
Should only be
Seen as natural

Life is filled with suffering
All this pain and sorrow

All this hurt
Endless despair
Will I see tomorrow?

Everything's dark
No light to be seen
Blood is all around

Long nights
Dreamless sleep
With only one soft sound

The sound of tears
A sniffling nose
Blue lifeless eyes

All you held
All you loved
Forever out of reach

Lost in darkness
A deep abyss
Misery, disbelief

In this life of suffering
All this pain and sorrow
How can we ever find the hope
To seek and gain tomorrow?

Here I am on a raft
I'm paddling quite hard
The rushing waters push me back
The wind is on my side
Will i ever reach the mountain
Where this stream has sprung
Or will i be cast back down
To endlessly float in the towering waves
Of the deep blue ocean.

I was once in the ocean
Floating aimlessly
I once was lost in despair
With tears that will never be seen

For the ocean is all water
No one can tell the difference
They just see a big blue mass
No one sensed my distress

But some how through it all
I managed to make it out
Now I'm paddling up river
To the mountain of doubt

My raft is brown
Its made if wood
The oars are wooden too
The river is my enemy
Pushing me away
The wind is my friend
But compells me to sway

I'm soar, I'm hurt
My muscles no longer move
But then ahead, i see the mountain
Where the spring has sprung
And so I push forward
I give the oars a shove

But as I reach the mountain base
It becomes an uphill row
The raging waters are too much for me
I guess I'll forever be below

Below the mountain
Below the goal
I'll never be enough

So back to the ocean I now float
For I can't make it to the top

The top was a place filled with joy
With good water to drink
And friends to be with

But I can't make it, I am all alone
Forever to wander the abyss

We look around
The world is full
People everywhere

Yet, as we look
We see no life
No breath in the air

No one sees
The suffocation
Of hearts that care

No one sees
The coming death
Of what once was there

People come
Breathing joy
Only to turn away

They snuggle close
Then flee in horror
And this is what they say

"The darkness rises
The clouds grow
The moon shines red

The trees creak
The fires glow
Yet no light is shed

I will search
For those long gone
Till all breath is dead"

The earth spins
It hurdles onward
Floating through
And falling downward

Towards the depths
Of empty space
Towards the center
Of darkness race

Into the void
Of blackness thick
Where blue souls
Are all your pick

In the floating void
Of menacing eyes
With tumbling rocks
Of crushing size

This void is black
The center burning
Burning dark purple
And burning people

Our souls are on earth
All blue with sorrow
Heading towards this void
To be dead past morrow

This is where
We see the night
We see our world
We see the flight

It all will end
In a purple flame
With our souls all crushed
And filled with shame

Our spirits are weak
Our desires are lost
For in the endless void of fire
The earth will be tossed.

When time goes by
day by day
You watch everyone
Walk away

Days can come
Days can go
Yet everyone
Takes actions slow

They see the fire
Burn and glow
Yet it never gives sight
Nor heat, nor light

Never gives warmth
Nor joys, nor laughter
Only burning coals
That remain after

The coals are there
Ready to ignite
If someone there
Will give the right

The darkness surrounds
The pointless fire
For its light is a lie
An empty desire

Its heat is a curse
To show you good
Then burn your skin
For bleed you should

For in the dark
Or in the light
The fire is
A source of fright

A thing to observe
But never tend
An item used for good
But then, to evil, bend

This is the fire that sill soon die
This is the fire that is done and shy
This is the fire that will no longer be
This is the fire or sorrowful desire

As I'm laying on my bed
The world around will wake
It will become full of life
And I will begin to bake

But before I am up and begin to bake
I must watch a beauty of life
It is the rising sun above
Relieving me of strife

It's relaxing to watch the colors grow
From darkness to light pink
All I can do is think and dream
Dream of the sunrise, of it think

It's a mood change for me
One for the best
It makes me feel ready and joyful
It makes me feel I've finished my rest

So i rose on up, out of the shadow
Out of the comforts of bed
I go to the kitchen and turn on the stove
I wait till it becomes red

The red hot stove now lights up the room
And the rolls must now be made
They cook real fast and are ready to eat
So now I put them to blade

The taste of them gives me strength
Along with the sight of the sun
All this glory invigorates me
For the day that is to come.

Sometimes people forget others
They kast them by the side
Never to see the person they left
The person who wishes
To with them abide

The kommon person doesn't think
To look around or about
All they wish to see or have
Is the lakk of any skar

They skan the horizon
They look for their friends
But often times
When the means meet ends
They forgot the person who matters most

They forget those who kare for them
They forget those who think life through
They forget people who's life is debt
They forget the "c" in their alphabet
They forget to see what they bekome
They forget to see the added up sum

Two cities
Side by side
A flowing river
The only divide

To cross this river
This steady stream
They build a bridge
A golden gleam

It reflects the sun
It sparkles the river
Along with the moon
The small light sliver

They make it glow
So great and grand
Watch waters flow
Past shores of sand

This bridge is build
Yet gold is weak
A precious metal
We often seek

For it is shaped by hands
That don't need tools
Emotional molds
Our feelings in jewels

For we mold the gold
Into what we want
Our desires reflected
Our hearts, we flaunt

We wanted a bridge
To unite the cities
To travel across
To ship wine and cheese

To trade goods and Information
Experience and memory

Our hearts transportation
And our personality

But the golden bridge
Can't take the weight
Of all these goods
Across the straight

And slowly we see
That piece by piece
The bridge fades
And the trades cease

The bridge sinks down
For gold can not bear
The weight of our hearts
And the love that we share

Curse the emotion
That molded the gold
Time has tarnished the work
And our bridge becomes old

Its color fades
It's strength fails
And into the river
Downstream it sails

The trade falls in
The good cease to flow
The sun no longer
Makes the water glow

It all fades away
The cities grow distant
And everything is lost
The downfall is instant

We doomed ourselves
From the very start
We built a bridge
Made to fall apart

Our emotions that founded
A great experience together
Would cause us to separate
Now distant, forever

There was a creature
With a heart of good
Knowing what's right and wrong
Yet hidden behind a hood

This hood was called
The hood of false hope
For in it was hidden all greatness
Never washed away by water or soap

The creature it tried to give joy
The creature tried make smiles
Yet over and over the hood made it fail
So it walked and walked for miles

For her an outcast
Forever alone
Forever with no one
To remove this cone

This cone of shame
This hood if dread
This lingering shadow
That surrounded its head

No matter the effort
No matter the intent
No matter the smiles or joys it sent

No matter the creature
Beneath the hood
No matter the effort
To share only good

No matter the creatures appearance
No matter its face or emotion
This creature will forever walk
For no one will make the notion

No one will make any effort to try
To make this creature a pleasant surprise
To make the creature feel at home
To show it the joy or a pretty sunrise

But because if this hood
That covered this monster
The creature is hated
Never to be, nor show, nor be shown good

There is a tower in a field
A field in no mans land
Its a field of darkness, death, blood
A place where demons stand

But the tower is strong
standing in this field
Will minions all around
And all Evil it will wield

But in this tower
Up past all the steps
Is a small room
Containing the worlds depths

There is a mirror in this room
The room inside a tower
It a beautiful mirror, a reflection of glory
Yet it doesn't know The Sower

But here is a wanderer
A man who lost his cart
A man who made a long journey
So he could fall apart

He is lost and confused, hurt and sad
He doesn't know what to do
So all the demons all around chose to helo this man
They chose to bring him through

They help him
bring him across the field
They bring him to the tower
And they watch him drop his shield

He leaves everything
Continues on, up the stairs he goes
He enters the room, finds the mirror
And he sees what it shows

The whole world is there
The galaxy, the microbe
All in front of his eyes

The mirror shows him everything
The fish that swim
The bird that flies

He sees himself
A shining knight
How can this illusion be?
Its all too much how could any of these things be truly what he sees

But they are
They are the truth
Why can't he believe
That all he needs to do is go pick up his cart

The city is near
The greatness close
But the mirror shows it all
How could he be so small

He is a small part of this reality
Yet he has such a large impact
Yet he chooses not to act
Only to know all fact

The man then leaves
Knowing what he must do
Knowing the hardship and the pain
As his eyes are stained with blue

It was beauty
It was truth
Yet it was hidden and warped by Evil
He saw what he was, he saw who he is meant to be

He is meant to tell of what he saw
And show the meaning behind the cart
How empty it is to carry
If its not with a heavy heart

You must know the treasure you seek
The goal of what they city truly is
Because more often than not
Life won't give you a kiss

The city will be rubble
The glory in it gone
You'll look around in search
And see only a vanished song