They say there is really nothing wrong
But then why do I feel this way
If it is all just a matter of willpower
Why can't I overcome
Why can't I just snap out of it
Maybe they are wrong
But maybe I am

People deny my memories
I don't remember anything they said
The confusion is getting to me
I don't know who to believe
I forgot where reality ends and lies began

The stars aligned
I teared for their presence
In this hateful world
This never ending nightmare

The silence ranged
In my choking windpipe
I tried to scream
That tumultuous hurricane

The darkness reigned
I embraced their sarcasm
Insults rained down
This is my downfall

My demise

How do you tell people?
    How do you tell them that you’re exhausted  
          even though you slept for 12 hours?
    How do you tell them that you need a break  
     from talking and smiling and simply being?

Our life
Is a dance
Spinning into Winter
Breaking into Summer
Running through Autumn
Rolling towards Spring
It is all about us
Our stories
How we choreograph
Our dance
Our life

My head hurts
Hearts beating like it wants out
From my ribs
It's cages
Even the pills can't stop
The incessant chatter
In my overcrowded mind
I want to scream
To claw at my face
Rip my disfigured body apart
I feel caged up
Just like my heart
I'm a prisoner
Of my mind mine no more

What really is the definition of insanity? Is it confusing dreams with reality? Or having imaginary friends when you are too old for them. Is it listening to your thoughts when engaging in a conversation with people? Or is it having different people replying for you. Am I sane or am I crazy ??

Clean and free of impurity
The sole goal overriding
A devil disguised as an angel
The reason I smile and laugh
Lies with no real reason
Trying too hard to conceal
The pieces of me that's left
Parts of myself died with time
The weary numbers that fall
Off the body of my weary soul
Buried under my skin