Cold in the brightest days
Shivering in the dark
My bones ached as I moved
Too tired to move on
I have gone too far to give up
After all this is just it
We just amount to this much
What more could I ask
Lost in this skin coated skeleton
Buried beneath daydreams
Lost in my minds warped fantasies

Sometimes you just wake up and don't wanna do anything. All your goals suddenly turn to dust and seem like miserable excuses to live. You just want to lie there and waste away. In your head you're screaming and screaming even though on the outside you're laughing too much, too hyper too friendly. No one see's through the facade, no one can see the pain you're in and you cannot let them know... Because you don't know how to explain. That you didn't think too much, they didn't do anything wrong, no one did anything awful to you..  But you're just hurting...

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust
What are we living for
If there is no love here
If nothing will remain
When the end approaches
If not for this moment
If not for this love
I would've given up this life

I loved you with every breath
A time I didn't know fear
My existence ached for your touch
While holes burnt in my heart

Your sad eyes told the story
A truth I didn't want to hear
My believe for us to be perfect
Was the only mistake

No amount of assurance was enough
To pull her out of the cage she built herself
For her it was too scary out there
With all the things
That took her down
She only felt safe with her own demons...

When you feel the heat
a cramped up feeling
trapped in your chest
you just want to fly
you just want to love someone
but that torn up feeling
the residue of a failed game
pours into you like a river
no fail no pain no love