My body is still stained
with the scent of you.

My mind is still affected
by your twisted words
and abuse.

Infected by your touch
and like glass
my body chips away at times.

You smile to yourself
knowing you just got
everything you wanted from me.

Now here I am
smiling to myself
knowing I have a far better life
than you ever will.

Your actions were brutal
but you will never keep me on the ground.

This stained glass heart
will never completely break.

The demons in my head
only fuel
my passion to write.

My safe haven
from everything
that sets me apart
from this life.

The one last thing
I have in my life
to save me from myself.

A single strand of hope
it lies within every one of us.

We only need to draw it out.
It’s hidden deep in our hearts
in the darkest places of our minds.

From the ashes
we can create aesthetic poetry.

Fragments
of abandoned dreams
swirl and slither
in between.

My mind
has been infected
and severed.

Temptation blinds me
and I fail
to see your objective.

For all I know
you may never truly leave.
You control me
you own me.

You've infected me
warped my  thoughts
and yet
I still let you in.

I’m lost
in the depths of confusion.

I can’t see
nor hear a sound.
My mind is in ruins.

I try to piece the thoughts back together.
But they are just lost
somewhere in the blinding darkness
of my cluttered mind.

I can’t utter a word.
Only silence escapes my lips
and engolfs me.

In hopes of healing
I write
until I feel the soothing sense of contentment
and release.

In fear
in chaos
and blinded
by the silence inside my head.

I long for words to slip through my lips
to make everything all right again.

This love I share with you.
This love I feel for you.
Without you,
I would have faded years ago.

You took me in
and nourished me with unconditional love.
You gave me the strength to see hope,
and showered me with your smiles and laughter.

You gave me so much that I never knew existed.
Words cannot express what I feel for you.

I need you to stay with me,
for without you,
I fear I'll sink back into the depths of my fearful acts.

I still struggle,
but I want to tell you that your love keeps me moving forward.
I hope you can understand what I'm feeling,
for this will never change.

I will never take our small moments for granted.
These memories are a reminder
of how lucky I am
to have found you.

You're forever the light in my life.

Take the plunge
face your fears.
And through doing so
underlying courage appears.