One day i wont feel this
One day I'll be over it,
The burning pain,
it will stop
die out like a fire.
leaving only a patch of smoke
and a drifted memory.
One day i wont need him
One day ill be okay again
i want to feel peace again
but i wanted it with him.

The blade glides my skin
like paper,
like sheets at school
My old self is covered with,
permanent unbearable scars-
my youth is now ruined
when i look back i realise,
i've ruined her
the happy little girl i once was
i've damaged her
shes never going to forgive me
i'm never going to forgive myself.

the tide always has to go back,
It's a force of nature.
The sun always has to set
its how the world works .
Balance
Equality
Fairness
all things we thrive off.
Things we crave
but yet as a world
We can't even achieve it,
we cant even see others for what they are
humans.
flesh and bone
all one blood.

I run my fingers over my skin,
it feels like the touch of a lover.
Some distant other,
engraved into me
etched into my soul.
Burned deep into my skin
is the touch that was once there,
a touch that will.
Never leave,
Never fade,
marking me forever
like the faded kiss of another.

Like a moth
you draw me in
over.
and over again,
you corrupt me
every inch of me burns
but only when i'm near you.
It's a feeling i yearn for
i thrive for
i need the pain.

your field draws me in,
your south
i'm north.
I'm endlessly attracted to you
no matter how hard you repel
you draw me back
time and,
time again
i cant escape the pull
i feel submerged,

I swore love off
years and years ago
I made that choice
my heart wouldn't be consumed by another
I wouldn't
i couldn't
do it again
my heart once tore so much
the threads run thin.
Thin as blood
pieces of me scattered apart,
but never whole.