I felt

So much

That

I started

To feel

Nothing.

He wanted to search for himself,
that's why I let him go.






He found himself...
and it was with her.

I need to feel the sweet release I long for and the silence that follows.

The simple, destructive act of opening my skin and allowing the demons beneath my surface to temporarily escape.

Temporarily.

Temporary.

It doesn't last.

Nothing does.

Except this constant, numbing drone of pain and its physical manifestation left behind.