Anaïs

Anaïs Dec 2019

Music

The melody pulls me in,
Tugs at my soul sensually,
and I feel the pain of the
voice break walls surrounding
my heart, slowly, music
opens my vulnerability,
and I am on full display,
An aura of serenity
heals my aura

#music

Anaïs Dec 2019

Poems

In a poem,
I can touch clouds with my fingers,
I can blow blizzards into a halt,
I can whisper winds into the distance.

In a poem,
I feel more myself than I tend to be,
I can be honest, without feeling guilt,
I can confess my love, without him knowing.

In a poem,
I can feel emotions I do not feel,
Imagine stories I do not live,
Be characters I wish I could be.

In a poem,
I can do everything

Anaïs Dec 2019

Silk Layers

Wrapped in that familiar
blanket, I spend my days
behind layers of silk,
and I see that darkness
enveloped by that lust
and I want the dreams
without the means,
I want the life of
easy and simple,
I want love without
the drama, I want the
passion without the
pain, but I am still
wrapped up in that
silky blanket,

I lay
beneath layers of uneven silk,
find myself drifting into
my dreams every now
and again, unable to
distinguish fantasy from
reality, unable to tell it
all apart, because I
realize now, that those
layers of silk,
hide layers of insecurities

I'm stuck in a body
I'd rather hide
than show, I
conceal my personality with
fear, I starve myself for
distorted beauty standards,
and I hate it
so much that I mistake
my pain for obligation,

so
I cut               the layers
apart,                                  see the avalanche
ripping                                               my comfort to shreds,
stitch it together
when life gets
hard,

Burn
it
to
ash
now
because
I've
learned
how
to
live
and
leave
the
silk
layers
behind

Anaïs Dec 2019

i feel numb

i feel numb,
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                                                            d  a  y  s    i n t o  a  w a s t e
                                                            b i n, w r a p p i n g  p l a s t i c
                                                            b a g s   i n  a  b o w,
                                                            c o n c e a l i n g  t h e  u g l y
                                                            w i t h  a n  e m p t y  s e a s h e l l,
                                                            c h a n g i n g   t h e i r  l e n s e s
                                                           f o r  d i s t o r t e d  g l a s s e s,
                                                          r o s e - c o l o u r e d  f o r
                                                            s o c i e t y,    f e i n i g n i n g
                                                            h a p p i n e s s  f o r  m i s e r y,
                                                            c l o s i n g  w a s t e  b i n s  f o r
                                                         f a m i l y,  s e a l i n g  t r a s h c h u t s
                                                          f o r  m y  a c t, b o l t i n g  d o o r s
                                                         f o r  m y  s a n i t y, w a s t i n g
                                                           a  w  a  y  f o r  t h a t  v o i c e,   t
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                                                           l i f e   a w a y   f o r  s i m p l e
                                                           c o w a r d i c e
                                                           i  f e e l  n u m b

Anaïs Dec 2019

Tired

I'm tired, constantly,
physically, mentally,
in all regards, a blob
of exhaustion repeating
day after day the same
words, moving the
same way, lacking
the common thrill of living,
'I'm tired' we say, and fail
to notice the vast sea left
undiscovered.

#tired #blinded #by #work