Kisses can mean so many things
So many different emotions come from them
We all have the idea of a perfect kiss
From the time we are young
We look forward to that one perfect moment
When time stops
The world ceases to turn
Our breathing hitches
Our hearts flutter
That kiss for me is different though
I want to feel love in that kiss
I want my body to become warm
I want my mind to realize it's happiness and love coming from it
Not just an action two people do
God how badly I wish to be kissed

Come here child
Don't be afraid
I won't hurt you
I just take the pain
You've tried for so long
To forgive and forget
Its just too much at once

In your little head
The voices they creep
The tics they ridicule
The images inside
Your amazing twisting mind
All you ever say "why are you being so mean!? This who I am this is me"

I'm here now so come with me
We will take a walk in the summers breeze
You won't cry not anymore
You won't hide behind closed doors
Its all alright
Can't you see?
Its better this way
You're safe with me

"Looking at the reapers face
Knowing full well of his evil ways
I take his hand
He leads me down
Down down down
Deeper in the ground
As I see the last of the light
I picture the love of my life
I whisper into the dark night
I'm sorry, I'm sorry for being me"

I can't do it
Not on my own
He said he's helping
Helping me cope
I won't have to worry
I won't always cry
I won't remember the pain inside
I won't see your face
In the dead of night
Its just an illusion
A trick in my mind
I won't hear your voice
I won't miss your lips
I won't miss the way you held my hand

Come here child
Don't be afraid
I won't hurt you
I just take the pain
You've tried for so long
To forgive and forget
Now it's all over
Trust me my friend

I always wanted to marry a beautiful girl
Nighttime wedding under the stars
I love the stars so much
The way they shine so brightly
Even though they have died
I love to lay outside in the summer
Spring or fall and look up
At the stars shining above me
Wondering how far are they all
It would be a dream to be married underneath them

It would be a dream to visit Ireland for a honey moon
See my ancestors home
Irish through and through
That would a dream come true

To see the world with my wife by my side
To take my baby on journies far away
Watch as my child grows up with two moms
And know they have seen a variety of cultures

I want a life worth living
I dream of being okay
Craving to be happy
Dreaming of "One Day"

i close my eyes
welcoming the darkness
drowning in hurt unbearable

bound and motionless
waiting for time to slow
and swallow me

here i lie covered
rooted in misery and despair
as a corpse waiting for burial

pleading silently for words
to will my spirits to lift
and set my sad soul free

i finally find my way through
after each fall i eventually rise  
gracefully learning to cope