4am mornings and
4pm afternoons
tired eyes and empty stares
just pretending I don't care
stop! its all fine
ill just wash my hair
and tidy my room
sit on my chair
mum'll be home soon

Stop trying to fix me
I’m not broken ! I don’t need you to fix me
stop watching me , pitying me
waiting for me to crumble
your eyes keep following me
stop watching me ! Please
stop trying to break me
because then
who will fix me .

Cos I'm just here
trying to hold on
to the frayed rope
we all call hope

I wiped at the window
Until I could see clearly
Through the tears that threatened my facade
The tears that told the truth
Which I swallowed with the lump in my throat.

How can i be drowning
When i'm standing above water
How can i be falling
When i've already hit the ground
How can i still hope
After seeing you leave
There's nothing left to take
Yet i'm still being robbed
I'm holding out my heart
Wishing you’d break it
Just so i couldn't feel
So i could stop loving you
Without a beating heart
There can be no love
And all love has ever done is crush me

I'm so confused just trying to work out
who I am
who I'm supposed to be
what makes me happy
feeling so lost
with no sense of identity

And I maybe , almost, coulda, woulda
loved you
But I gave up to early
And you didn’t fight
So now you’re just a might have been

Because once upon a time
Means back in the day
And back in the day means you couldn’t stay
And even though you couldn’t stay
You didn’t figure it out until it was too late
To late to say goodbye

And now I’m left with a broken heart
A void that cannot be filled
Because there is no longer a still
We are not still friends
We are not still making memories
We are not still
We are once upon a time

I don’t hate you
I hate the broken heart you left me with