Sing me a lullaby because I can't fall asleep,
Sing me a lullaby so I can fall asleep
Sing me a lullaby because I'm scared and I need you to sing to me.

I’ve been through it all,
The betrayal, the verbal abuse, the mean looks,
The pain and the hurt,
I’ve been in deep situations where my own friends would talk hell about me,
I’ve been the one who always cried with a broken heart,
But people don’t care, about me, about my hurt, my aching, my pain,
To them, my feelings are irrelevant but to God, they aren’t because I know that God will always be here,
My feelings matter to God....

People ask me all the time,
“Why are you so skinny?”, “Do you even eat?”
And I always respond with “I don’t know why I’m skinny but I am appreciative to be skinny” and “I eat every chance I get when I’m at home”

I wish I could sleep in bed all day and dream,
That's the only possible way we can hold hands in the moonlight
And the only way I can love you fully

She shed her tears on my shoulder,
She hugged me so hard,
She didn't want me to leave her,
"I'm going to go get my food", I told her,
When I came back to sit with her,
Her other friend was there taking over,
Her friend wasn't like her,
Her friend was mean and bolder. . .

My stomach cramps aren’t the best,
I just want less,
This is just a big mess,
I guess it’s trying to have my buttons to press

I wish I still had the chance to say, "I love you"
I wish I still had the chance to kiss her on her cheek,
I wish I still had the chance to say, "Thank You"
I wish I still had th chanc to hug so tight, because if I did, I would never let go,
I wish I still had the chance to say, "sorry for not being there with you all the time."
I wish I still had the chance to get to re know her. I wish I still had the chance to smile at her,
I wish I had the chance to tell her thank you for taking me in when I felt like no one cared. I wish I could spend a night with her and sleep in bed righ beside her,
Like I used to do when I was only so young,
I wish I had the chance to relive the very funny and special days I've had with her,
I wish I had the chance to get to know her again,
I wish I had the chance to shop with her, and do everything with her like I used to do,
But I lost all of those chances when she passed away in March.

The fireworks lit up the excitement in me,
The fireworks exploded in my heart,
The fireworks was first annoying to the ear,
They was first my fear,
They were amazing at sight and annoying to ear,
But they threw excitement at me,
They were loud and irritated but i just let the pop and be,
They might have scared me at first, but the fireworks was so beautiful,
They were many colors, yellow, red, green, blue, all kind,
Even though, I was just watching them, I actually had a wonderful time

There is this girl(me)who writes poems and quotes, but they are deep, strong and tear dropping,
She writes about how she is treated so wrongfully, while all the other girls are treated like angels,
But that is ok because she sees that they’re rotting,
She sees that one day those same girls are going to be worn out and old,
She hears things a sweet girl should have never been told,
“I’m going to better than them than I already am when I’m grown”,
She clench her fists every time she see another girl getting called pretty when she never gets called pretty,
“Am I ugly?” The girl ask her mom, “Liyah, you are so caught up in what you look like, you’re not ugly. People just don’t see the beauty in you, but I do” said her mom,
“Why did you ask?” Asked her mom,
“Because I see how other girls are getting called pretty and I don’t. I get called ugly.”
Her mom replied “Liyah, you’re beautiful in my eyes and half those girls are going to be fat and ugly when they get in their late 20’s and you’re going to look like Beyoncé”. “Really?” Asked the girl,
“Yes really. I mean look at you now, you’re not pretty, you’re beautiful and you will be more beautiful when you get older, and you’ll see”
The girl nodded her head “I guess”
“Liyah, don’t let this conversation lead to more stress” laughed her mom.

I saw a puddle,
I looked in the puddle,
And I saw my sad face,
I didn't know what was wrong
with my pitiful looking face

The sky looks so beautiful today,
Part of it is blue and the other half is gray,
The sun is barely showing it's rays,
I really hope to see the sun after this very day

The wind frozen me,
The sun warmed me,
The wet and soggy ground tripped me.

I see life when I look through these trees

I see love when I look through these trees,

I see happiness when I look through these trees,

I see god when I look through the trees,

i see a face when I look through these trees,

i see your face when I look through these trees,

i see a future when I look through these trees,

I see a better life when I look through these trees,

i see my future through these trees,

i see what I want in life through these trees.

Behind my smile is a girl that's screaming for help,

a girl that cries for her life back,

a girl that tries to have faith and hope,

the smile is lying to you, telling you I'm ok,

but I'm really not okay,

I want to feel wanted and needed,

i give fake smiles all the time and it's really hard to put a  smile on my face,

I cry for help behind my smiles,

my smiles aren't always real. Just look deep in my eyes

The sky is crying,
While the sun and the moon
are are arguing and fighting,
The thunder is screaming,
and the lightning was steamy. . .

The thunder woke me,
The lightning scared me,
The rain caused my tears,
The dark clouds inspired me

When the wind blow soft and smoothly,
I can hear the trees whisper,
I can see their leaves shuffling around on the ground, coming towards me, as if their trying to warn me about something.

The wind calms me,
The wind settles me,
The wind cools me,
The wind clears my mind,
The wind unblocks my nose

I ran down the road to quickly get home,
My grandmother wasn't there, I suppose,
I looked at my dog who had quickly grown,
I took a step in my grandmothers' room which smelled like cigarette smoke,
I seen my mother's brother who I desperately wanted to choke,
I always wondered why he'd lie about always being broke,
My mother looks just like me; She could be a secret clone,
Many people at my school asked me why I didn't have a phone,
I told them the reason, and they looked at me wrong,
When I looked at DJ, I was so very sprung,
When I looked up, he was already staring at me, and I thought he was the guy I had won.

When I look over my house,
I see thousands of beautiful, bright, and shining stars,
Those stars remind me of your eyes.
Because your eyes are beautiful, bright, and shiny.

I stood outside in the rain,
The wind was blowing so smoothly,
I felt like the wind was talking to me, trying to tell me something,
I heard it's voice in my soul, in my heart

When I was younger, the only word I was called was ugly,
So when a guy kik me and said I was beautiful, it stunned me,
Because literally every guy that was in my school, joked on me, made me feel unwanted,
Then there was a guy that called me "The Unknown Beautiful"
Even though I didn't know what he meant, I didn't ok offense to that,
Never was I called "Beautiful"
Never was I called "Gorgeous"
Never did I feel l good about myself and love every bit of myself,
Never did I ever smile in the mirror and say "You're so beautiful"
I thought that since they don't love me, then why should I love me ?
When people felt sorry for me, they were trying to I be funny,
Not supportive,
They didn't care about how i feel, nor if I screamed or killed myself,
My classmates ruined me,
A guy called me ugly and I said "That's the nicest thing someone said to me all my life" but I didn't cry, I just look away after that

A guy who went to the same school I go to now,
Called me "Unknown Beautiful"
And most of the students in the class laughed,
It had hurt my feelings,
But I laughed with them and pretended it was funny but it wasn't,
I took offense to that because everyone in the class
Was laughing and having a great laugh at me,
And I had a sad sad feeling,
Ohh boy ! That wasn't a good feeling, that feeling didn't feel so good,
I was crying on the outside, because I was so hurt,
They didn't even feel or see the pain in me,
I don't want to be "Unknown Beautiful"
I want to be Gorgeously Beautiful,
The guy was basically saying my beauty was unknown,
But what I think is funny is that he dropped out of high school,
And I stayed there,
I hope to never heard "Unknown Beautiful" ever again because that's not a nice way to describe someone, in my opinion,
I don't want to be called hot because that's a word I hate too,
I was laughed at, called ugly my whole life,
Never called beautiful a day in my life.

Sometimes I wonder,
How I’m going to be in the next five years,
How I look, will I ever learn how to cook
Will I keep my head in a book,

I am a powerful human being,
When I am about to face my fear,
With my heart quickly beating,

I am very VERY unique,
Many strangers can agree,
I make people laugh, I always succeed,

I am a hard working student,
I am more than human,
I am always making good movements,

I am an outsider to most,
To many people, I am an overdose
They want a huge dose...

This morning it rained like hell,
In the hard pouring rain, I almost slipped and fell,
It was dark and wet outside,
In my house, I really couldn’t tell,
I had no umbrella, so you know I was *******,
The mud and the heavy rain I had to step foot through,
Me and little Maxine stood in the rain like too fools,
Until this lovely young lady offered for us to stand on her porch, under her roof unti the bus came,
Soon, the bus came and me and Maxine ran across the street to our own bus stop with our book bags over our heads,
Besides, Maxine didn’t have on a jacket

I don’t think I’ve been happy
if I wouldn’t have fallen in love with you,
If I wouldn’t have met you,
I’d be the most miserable guy in the whole school...

What I don’t understand is why I’m always a second thought,
Other peoples attention can never be caught,
In burning flames of fire, I hope they rot,
No one will never like me unless I do something for them I was taught,
Their smiles and their kindness, it feels like I bought,
People just need me for what I got. . .

I don’t understand why there is so much hate in this generation,
Some of the hate must be questioned, more like an interrogation,

I don’t know why all this generation knows is hate,
Some guys hate me knowing one day, they’ll be the one to ask me out on a date,
Some of the girls hate me but one day, they’ll be fixing my plate,

This generation needs some integrity,
They need love in their pity hearts,

How am I the only one that has a warm heart?
How come that heart gets hurt?

The world is colder when you’re not there...

I want to drown in your love,
I want to be cuffed,
I just want to be loved,
I want to be hugged,
I want to be drunk in your love

I want you to drown in my love, in my faith, in my soul,
I want you to have a overdose for taking me so much,
I want you to love me a whole bunch,
I want you to fall in love when I hit you with a love punch

The more I get hurt,

The more I don’t put my all into one thing because I already know that it is going to be what I expect, which is bad,

The more I get lied or be lied to,
The more my trust issues affect me more

Everyone lives their own story,
Everyone knows what they want to do,
Everyone wants different things,
Everyone get treated different ways,
Everyone live different lives and lifestyles...

I wish I can put the broken pieces together in my past...

I know I probably won’t love you forever,
But that’s because we’ll probably won’t ever be together......

I want to feel secured in my life,
I want to feel protected, I want to feel safe,
But, everyone doesn’t get what they want...

There were some bad things said about me,

I cared back then, now I don’t,

There were some good things said about me,

I care, I always will,

My past is dark, but I feel that my future is going to be very bright,
That’s all I care about,

Is the good words spoken about me and the positive vibes and moods and my future

I want to CREATE,
I want to discover,
I want to achieve,
I want to turn this world into happiness

I am a powerful human being,
When I am about to face my fear,
My heart quickly beating,

I am very VERY unique,
Many strangers can agree,
I make people laugh, I always succeed,

I am a hard working student,
I am more than human,
I am always making good movements,

I hate Christmas, I never get nothing for it,
That’s why I’m not looking forward to it...

I’m giving up on love,
I want it to hit me so hard that
I wouldn’t even see it coming my way...

I want you to drown in my love, in my faith, in my soul,
I want you to have a overdose for taking me so much,
I want you to love me a whole bunch,
I want you to fall in love when I hit you with a love punch.

He’s more than divine,
He sends chills down my spine,
He makes my face shine,
He makes me want to read between the lines,
I FEEL like maybe someday he’ll be mines...❤️

She had compliments always comin,
She couldn’t accept them or agree with them
because she thought she was an ugly woman,

She hated her own image,
She looked at herself in the mirror
She only had hate for herself...

Seeing you puts a smile on my heart,
Your smile gives me sparks,
Seeing you at school is the best part..

I can read you like a book,
I can hang you with my mental hook,
You pass me in the hall and don’t even turn to look.....

She is a beautiful woman,
Nice compliments keep comin’,
She has a heart of gold,
She taught me how to cook and fold,
She told me the saddest things I’ve ever been told,

She has an issue but we can work it out together,
Because I’ll be by her side forever,
I’m not going nowhere, ever,

I’ll be there to understand her, listen to her and take care of her,
But we must do this as a unit, together,
I’ll be there for her whenever and whatever,

She taught me how to care,
She was there but she wasn’t there,
If I would have left her, it would have not been fair,

She is an amazing person,

But me and others see her in a different view,
Mom, if you’re reading this, I love you

Great,  now its the new year,
That time is getting closer where I have to face my worlds biggest fear,

And that fear, is walking across the stage, in front of this hug crowd,
It’s like over your head, there’s a really dark cloud,

I’m scared to walk across that stage,
I’m just very frightened and afraid,

I want to start this year off by being CONFIDENT, HAPPY,
What I never was in the year 2017 or any other year out of my entire life...

You make me feel like a free spirit,
Tonight I’m gonna live it,
When I’m away from him, I have a fit,
You make me feel fearless,
If I hate you, it’s gone be a limit.....