Tomorrow is the day, when I finally will be free. You’ve had such a hold over me. Reminding me of how my body doesn’t belong to me. Always feeling the touch that didn’t belong. A focus of what has been wrong for so long.
When you first came, I wished you would go away. Before there was any damage done, I knew you were not mine. I wished for you to be gone. Even thinking cancer would be better. Just whisk you away.
Every moment of every day, I feel you. I feel the others. I can’t be myself without trying to hide you. And the hiding is something I’m trying to break free from. I want to just be me. Authentic and free.
So this is goodbye. Goodbye to the thing that has attached me to my past. Goodbye to what makes me feel like I don’t belong. Goodbye to you, and hello to me.
A new era is coming. I can feel the breeze picking up. Eyes set to the future as I leave you behind.
Forever,
Alex