Laying in bed, it's 4:00 AM
I haven't had a wink of sleep
my head has been a mess tonight
it's like I can feel Death creep
All I can think about
is taking those pills
there's so many of them
it'd be such a thrill
I can fantasize
and feel them go down
in all the pills I keep
I feel I could drown
I know it's not fair
to commit suicide
without leaving a note
or saying goodbye
But my energy is gone
I've been waiting too long
for Death to find me
and I'm no longer strong
This battle tonight
is taking a toll on me
waiting for the sun to come up
so I can be free
From the demon in my head
telling me that Death is calling
if it's really coming
I feel like it's crawling
6:00 AM, I'm still alive
the sun starts shining in my eyes
but the feeling is still there
Death didn't come, I'm left with whys