T'was fun
Somehwere i've never been
Forming bonds i've never had
Trying things i've never tried
Fallacy in my reality
Driving under the sun
Then I came back home
But
Somewhere
Perahps another reality
I am still driving
I never left
I can sense it
Also
It might have never happened
But If you ask around it did

I'm not entirely here
I'm trapped somewere
Living half aware
Hanging between the realities
Sitting in a room
A waiting room
Yellow and warm
Tense and eternal
Safe but never ending
Reality twisted
Overactive imagination
There is no door
But I can leave at any time
Only one way
Find my inner peace

I sent you a cry for help.
In pain both physically and emotionally.
Sick as a dog.
Feeling hopeless and morose
Alone with my demons
Wanted to know you cared for me
I wanted to debate the universe with you
I wanted to be hugged
I wanted to be told everything was fine

Instead you made *** comments about my body and got insulted when I asked you to listen.

Down the drain all the "I love you" I got went.

What happened?

Last I checked I wasn't only a toy to you.
Or was I.

In the morning he bought a shirt
It was so pretty and fluffy
Then he went to eat a cake
So much sugar!

In the afternoon he hid the shirt away
He never liked this color anyway
He went down to the bridge and stared down
So hopeless!

For supper he went to his favourite restaurent
The tingling sound of ustencil
The cacophony of sounds
So energising!

At night he met his neighboor
She is so annoying!
He ran away after the formalities
So angry!

How was his day?

The corridors are long and loud
Every door is an excuse to forget
Sitting down at my desk I mimic
Turning up my music to destroy reality
Getting up to be happy
Anxiety pumping my adrenaline
So many variables around me
So little will to play them
Budging fate little by little
Leave me alone

Ask me your questions

Guess my answers
Analyse my desires
Make sad faces
Show me how much you've suffered
Tell me it's okay
Give me tips I've heard

Let me leave as empty as I came in

The acidic substance runs down my troat

I'm shivering from the heat

My head is pressing against itself

My imagination is hurting me

It is no longer a safe space

The future is grim

I don't know what's happening

Get me out of here

I'm not okay

Scream of distresses
Flood of fears
Burst of laughs
Ideas piling up

But who to tell?
who cares?
what does it matters?

Like a cake it sliced happily
Hours after hours
Flowing and flowing away
A wave of tick red energy
Death might have been near
At least i tought it was
My body was sad
It cried
But my mind felt relief
Pain would finnally stop
Nothing would ever matter again
Nobody would hurt me anymore
I'd be safe

They came

They sat
Looked deep into your soul

Or so you imagined

They talked

You took it personal

You are now living for them
You are now slave to their mouth
They are your God's

But they only look to you as a plastic object
They told you their small closed mind
They told you that you were not worth their time

But
Who cares about them, right?

Detach
They are animals
You are an animal
There's no real purpose to life
There's no real purpose to death
Be your own self
Detach
Take a bow
And forget them

They didnt cared anyway

Put the crown back on your head

NEVER AGAIN

*
Sharon-Rose boisvert

i stepped in the unknown unprepared
trying to keep my sane
giving in a little
testing the water
finding it isnt made for me
hurted by the person i hurted
yet what did i expected?

**

sharon-rose boisvert