clamoring voices
twist and turn
around me
melodies strange
each utterance
a puzzle,
a din
unbearable
I watch them
laughter rises
like smoke from fire
merry-making
joy
in their faces
I stand
at the banks
of their flowing
mother tongue,
I cannot cross;
I feel the divide
the song
of my culture
the lyrics
I cannot sing
lost in
the sound
understanding
eludes me
traditions and dances
warmth
of their fire
a distant craving
too distant
I feel nothing
but bitterness
lights dimming
the weight of
shame
bears down
upon me;
I shall know
no release