I woke only having you in my heart, Mynat
And looking at the clock,
It reads  5:55 and so I got the feeling that you too are thinking of me
Our angels are working on our case.
Huge change is on the horizons
Massive change is for my highest good
I am prepared for this shift
Things are getting excited.

GOODBYE...A BLESSINGS IN DISGUISE

So happy to say goodbye
For I see it pays at the end
No denying
How I wish we are one.
But I have seen a better and loving days .And they have passed

I look forward to see better
For I have to let go of you
And hope for a better day
I thought it'll be so painful
But now I see better

When I look Back,
I feel i was in a cage or prison of love
I couldn't open up to another person
I couldn't allow love to reign
I became a snob
I became a bully and I couldn't even try another soul

My heart is broken into pieces
Waiting for you to mend it
Hoping the bright sun will shine one day
Gradually, hope becomes delay
Year after year, you feel like a fiction that never true

But when I thought our chance had passed,
You saved the best for a minute
Then you reverse the best
You ghosted me for years
You pretend you never care
And I feel it here you're dying for me.

But whenever I say goodbye,
You rushed to hold me back.
But this time around,
I mean my good bye
It's for the good of all

The last you came over
You left a part of you with me
I had your feelings
I ate so much that I got so worried
And my worrisome was proved right

I was carrying the fruit of our love
I was happy but sad at the same time
For I don't know how you'll react
I don't know what you could say
I was so down of insecurities and fear of tomorrow

What will you say?
How will you react?
No one knows
So I looked up to the sky
And dialogue with the Universe
To do the best for me

And then I felt the pain in my below belly and back
I was scared at the same time I was hoping it goes down,And before I know it
The pain takes away My happiness
Though fearful but it's still my joy
But I lost it for good 👍

Now I am free of you
Don't want to look back
Don't want to keep being a loser
Look into my eyes
You will see how tired I am
Where I think my dreams are blurred

Now I close my eyes
For the last time
I hope I will wake up
In a space and time
Where everything is not broken

Don't want to look back
At what I have left behind
I want to move through the cloud
And fly like angels
And taste sweet serenity
Experience sweet love adventurously

A shadow of our love
My memory will be
Heart will continue to look for you
But I know,my good bye
Will worth it now.
For everyone will be better now
For I will be free and happy
Any make life a better place to live.
What a sweet goodbye!

#happygrief #letgoandletgod #waitingforHismagic

Bolaji Olutosin Temilola

Waking up today and feeling so ***** like never before.
Tried all I could to be myself throughout the day in service.
Gotten home quickly to work on cooling my body that is on fire of fantasy.
Which has been an ages I have felt like this.
I told the lion that woken up the ghost In me
And he tried to help but has to go.

I slept off while trying to cool the fire in me
And when I woke up,I got a message that you need to go out. Which was so ok for me.
But alas despite the wait to hear your voice which I thought will cool my ache one way or the other,
Then... Boom 💥💥💥..... You have to go!

And the feeling got so hot 🔥🔥🔥 and painful.

Wow.... When I felt nothing we used to be for an hour or more now that I feel so ***** thinking hearing your voice will help then boom 💥💥💥 you're off...
Why love is always hurt?
Why others don't feel the pain?
Why am I always fall into these?

I think I always get it wrong.
And I need to choose me.
Bye!!!

A day a story changed my thinking.
Aday I know what the spirit, intuition,The High Priestess and the Empress have been telling me.
A day I learnt how to think we'll.
A day I learnt how to pray right.
A day I know how to forgive myself.
A day I know how to do things right.
What a day of GREAT TRANSFORMATION!!!

I'm not afraid of the distance..💖
Distance is only testing in a wait..
If two hearts are destined to be together

However far...💓

How long...💞

How difficult..💓

The two people will meet
So the distance won't be a problem..
because our hearts will always meet...🌹💖🌹

Behind my silence...
There is love that I hold for you...💖

There is a faithful that I keep for you..💖🤞💖

And there is a sense of prayer for you..😇

And 8 can only send you a throat chakra healing and confidence healing
For you to make it right.

All day long, over a long Straight rails.
Like an inflexible wind over the endless sand.
Across parched lads and lasses where the lads twisted their arms in torment.

All day long,all along the lines,
Past the same little station,
Past black lads jostling like birds at the gate of schools

All day long, sorely rattled by the iron train and dusty and hoarse.
Behold me seeking to forget you in the pastoral heart of since!

All night long,I have been searching for the way to talk to you.
All I have here is our memoties of the past.
Which is making me traced the past back to where I ever wronged you.
I am realizing each and every day my hellish mistakes of insecurities and fear.
I got to appreciate you for the love you ever showed me for 12 years without losing hope.
I got to accept it if you chose to marry your business.
I also love you more because I know and feel it that I am the ONLY one on your mind still even when you don't pick my calls or reply my message.
I still have that Confidence that if we are made for each other, you will come back to me full of health,life and money.

You are far from me but so close to my ❤️. And I will forever love you.

It's so beautiful
Falling in love with you.
You stretched out your hand
And hold me tight.
As you lay a gentle kiss on my lips
And the gentle wind
Blows softly through the tonight
And the stars are shining so
As I look into your eyes
Your smile was filled with joy and fear

Eyes so charmed and
Bright and there's silence
In the air it's happiness
All around us and as
You touch me softly
And I melt in  your arms
What a day I can never forget

Now touch your heart,
Close your eyes
And you will see that
What we have  
Is true love

Open your heart and you will
It's true love coming true
Because this love
Is so beautiful
Between me and you

And from the moment we touched
All our dreams have coming true
All we need to do
Is to swallow our ego
And do the talking

So just listen to
My heart it's beating
Only one thing
I love you.

I love looking into your eyes.
When I see them
Every time you smile
And I love kissing your lips for a while

And when we hold hands
Our love shines so bright
And I softly whisper
I love you then
I love you today and now

In my arms he'll be
And in my heart he'll live.
Beating along with me

I love my life so much
Because you are forever
In my heart beating with me..

Beneath a foggy down of today,
I see my tomorrow!
Beckoning like a beacon,
Let this Vista
That I see bring me world
When creative minds
Wins crown of humor

What online blessing you are
When I first saw you on that planet
I thought I saw a mistery
But when I look deeper
I realized I saw an Angel from above,

When I got to know you better
I fell so much in love,

When I started loving you
My heart skipped a beat,
And fear of the unknown filled my soul

And now... My gorgeous sweetheart
You mean everything to me
Even though you are far away
I realized I can't see any other to occupy your space

I Love You,

And on that warm day
You took my breath away,
You take me to the ninth cloud
I'll never forget that magical day!

And all what I see
Is the happiness and joy in my life,
The peace in my heart
And you in my arms.
Icing my cake with love

And forever in my heart
I find all the love I truly need in you

What I see in you,
What I experience in you
Is everything I need in a man
Because sweetheart
I truly feel  I love you with all my heart..

Seen in the crowd,and got infatuated with her
Chatted her up, thinking she should be someone else
But alas,she is proud of herself

Proud of her color
Proud of her hair so coarse and short
Looking tangled and curl
Proud of her lean loving body looking like a model

She is so proud to be a woman,a black woman
No need to be artificial.
She so proud to be black and shine
She is a great mother of one by choice
And she is proud with her life.

Black or white,same red blood is running the vein
Black or white same water we drink
I am black,bold and beautiful
I am black and pretty 😍

What a rumbling heart I have been feeling since daybreak?.

Why is my heart feels so happy?

why is your name keep threatening me this way?

Can you hear my heart calling for you?

All day long,all what my heart was saying is soon I will see you.

I tried to distract myself but I only end up feeling you.

is it possible you too are yearning for me

As my heart and body is?

Can you hear me calling into you?

pls talk to me, I am dying to hear your voice,my love.

Life happens to you when you're making other plans.
You start with your own dreams and ideas
You plan your life accordingly
And then you realized it doesn't work that way.
That things don't work out as you planned

Changes forces you to ask questions
You have to face your fears and question yourself.
And that makes you stronger 💪

I don’t have crow’s feet,
I have happy happy memories of laughing with friends until the tears flowed.

I don’t have frown lines,
I have the marks of my frustration and confusion, which I battled through, change for my highest good,smiling in the end.

I am not going grey hairs,
I have shimmering highlights of wisdom, dashed throughout my silver hair.

I don’t have scars,
I have symbols of the strength I was able to find, when life got tough. My life thought me, "Tough time never last but tough people do" and I am grateful I am a good example.

I don’t have stretch marks,
I have the marks of growth and the marks of motherhood. My womanly evolution.

I don't have flat breast, I have

I am not fat,
I bear the evidence of a life filled with abundance, blessings and good times.

I am not just forgetful,
I have a mind so full of stories, memories and moments there is scarce room to hold much else.

I am not old,
I am blessed, with a life of great length, a life full of ups and down which I scape through it all. A life of threatening health but I overcome them all, something not everyone can say.

Don’t change the way you look my friend,
change the way you see things,not all is negative, there's always a blessing in disguise in all experiences.

But change the way you see.

COCOONING IN HIS HEART FOREVER.

Cocooning away with my
Lover David P Carroll today
Falling in love with him feels so beautiful every day,

It's like climbing a mountain
Once your at the top you truly
See it's beauty between you and me,

Together in love we'll be with the Lord's
Blessings shining upon us
Every day we thank him and
Pray to him for our happiness and joy we share together every night,

So just listen to my heart
Every day it's beating
I love you I could never love Another man darling
As much as I truly love you.

COCOONING IN HIS HEART FOREVER.

Cocooning away with my
Lover David P Carroll today
Falling in love with him feels so beautiful every day,

It's like climbing a mountain
Once your at the top you truly
See it's beauty between you and me,

Together in love we'll be with the Lord's
Blessings shining upon us
Every day we thank him and
Pray to him for our happiness and joy we share together every night,

So just listen to my heart
Every day it's beating
I love you I could never love Another man darling
As much as I truly love you.

I need to let you go,
Maybe you can see things in a different way

I need to let you be,
So that you can see clearly

I need to let you be so as to pick up yourself

You're are courageous
I trust in you

For I hope you choose your happiness
Which is the most essential

Ordinary love is selfish, darkly rooted in desires and satisfactions. Divine love is without condition, without boundary, without change. The flux of the human heart is gone forever at the transfixing touch of pure love.

Love is but the discovery of ourselves in others, and the delight in the recognition.

I don't care how you are
I don't care who you're
I only care for whom I see
What I care for is a true person in you

I don't care where you come from
I don't care where you live
Tribe or race has no place in me
I care for our safety and heart 💜

No matter your color,
No matter your pocket,
No matter where you are
I care for what you love and who you are

I don't care what my people says
Or what your people thinks
I only care for our happiness
I only care for our peace ✌️

It's very hard for people to find their right place in life.
It's even harder for them to find their right person.
Young people may not understand
But if you find that person
DONT LET GO

If you let go, then you will never find them
The road never end,
You can move on your own way
But you will need a friend to accompany you on that way

Our ancestors once said and I quote
"Choose a friend before choosing a path"
Those who look will surely find.
And when you do
Don't ever let go!

Today is filled with you the memories of us,
And I couldn't help it but to shed those tears
For the pain of waiting patiently to hear your sweet voice.

Every thought that comes to my mind
Feeling I can move the sea with you
But day and night yield weeks
And weeks yield month which turns to years, still the wait is on.

Just like this world beats with life,
My heart beats with you
If I ever try to leave, hold on to me
Don't let me go,for love is my burden
And my trouble.

I don't want your hopes to wither
Justice can't be defeated.
If words are made of glass,
Believe me,I won't forget you my love
Even if you are my hell,
I'll rush to you without thinking
If I ever tried to walk away,
Just hold on to me,don't let me go.

Do you give up happiness,just because of stubbornness and ego?
It's never too late for us my love 💕
For love is our cure.

Just like the world beats with life,
So is my heart 💜 beats for you
If I ever try to leave,
Kindly hold onto me and don't let me go.
For love is my burden and my troubles.

DON'T LET ME GO
I don't want your hope to wither
Justice can't be defeated if words are made of glass
Believe me,I won't forget you my love

Even if you're my hell, I'll rush to you without thinking
Just like the world beats with life,
My heart beats with you
If I ever try to leave, hold on to me,
Don't let go of me.

For love is my burden and my troubles
Do we give up our happiness just because of stubbornness and ego?
It's not too late for us
For love is our cure

If you still remember without without freezing,
If you can make others feel you by their side while you're alive.
Isn't that a great miracle?

True love won't freeze,
It'll only melt all the ice,
But only when the love is true
But you're unable to see that truth

You're still waiting,but life is passing by my love  
Just like the world beats with life,
My heart beats with you
If I ever try to leave, hold on to me,
And don't let go of me.

DREAMSDREAM
Every soul has a dream to accomplish
Many were achieved through pain and fear of the unknown
Many were shattered by the experience of the past.
And also some were made out of resentment

But what makes life worth living is the ability to heal from the past,
Ability to forgive YOURSELF
And those that caused the pains

And strength to walk past the fear and anxiety.
To conquer the spirit of past chaos, relationship Experiences, family background experience and friends disappointments.

Then the grace to heal from the past and live in the present help one to be fully happy and feel fulfilled

Money,wealth and affluence
Means nothing when the heart is not fully happy.
Life make sense to people watching us but we ourselves know that all are fake for the heart is not yet experiencing the totalDREAMSDREAce

DREAMS*
Every soul has a dream to accomplish
Many were achieved through pain and fear of the unknown
Many were shattered by the experience of the past.
And also some were made out of resentment

But what makes life worth living is the ability to heal from the past,
Ability to forgive YOURSELF
And those that caused the pains

And strength to walk past the fear and anxiety.
To conquer the spirit of past chaos, relationship Experiences, family background experience and friends disappointments.

Then the grace to heal from the past and live in the present help one to be fully happy and feel fulfilled

Money,wealth and affluence
Means nothing when the heart is not fully happy.
Life make sense to people watching us but we ourselves know that all are fake for the heart is not yet experiencing the total Happiness.

As you are crossing over to a your new wonderful year tomorrow
My prayer is for you to be fully aware of your true heart desires so that the blessings inscribed in your new year will bring you TOTAL HAPPINESS AND FULFILLED LIFE

I wish you the best of LUCK AND HAPPINESS the Universe can give to mankind.
Remember I may not reach out but I am never going to forget you and I always ask your Guardian Angel to always be with you
Happy birthday to you in advance

DREAMS WILL SURELY PASS.
Looking up to my life.
Seen only your image
Searching my heart,
Seen only Your image and name
Then I know you are my true love in life  

Each day,I fight to stop seen you
But you kept on making ways into my life and heart
And I love you so much
Every day your in my heart.
With me to stay.
You are my best friend in life
My best companion and adventure half

And one day the father of my children. 
 I wonder how my heart always come home
To discuss my day with you in 5D. 
 I see us growing old together.
Having a bright future forever.  

Becoming a life legends
Hand in hand we go watching the sunset
And in the glow of your bright eyes. Watching myself laughing in your pupils
And your special smile killing me softly.  

My gorgeous sweetheart 
 I know that I have found my perfect soulmate in you
Because I love you so much
Even when you're this far
Your love is New in my heart everyday.
And there's a special place for you and me.
Together in my heart we'll be..
....Till Eternity!

Life is a canvas and it looks the way you want it to look.

You're the artist and it's up to you what colors you fill your life with.

So what did you paint today?

You are the driver, of your life,

No one has the power to drive you unless you allow them

Given them space and time makes life life easier.

Even your immediate family are your number one enemy

They are there to push you to your destination if their NO,is worked on to be your best.

Then you will realised it's a great way to your abundance

Are you ready to navigate your your way?

Waking up to see your beautiful quotes from my page makes me feel like a woman.
Your words sweet my heart and make it more younger each and every day.

How I wish I am with you to feel each words in my heart,to hear then with my ears. Showing you how happy I am. And how wonderful you make me feel.

Here is my gratitude from here to you. Loving you would have been the best thing but.... Distance is my darling enemy. But still my heart is so glad I have you❤️.

Looking up to my life. Seen only your image

Searching my heart,
Seen only Your image and name,my Nat

Then I know you are my true love in life

Each day,I fight to stop seen you but you kept on making ways into my life and heart


And I love you so much
Every day you're in my heart.
With me to stay
You are my best friend in life,
Best love I ever felt
My best companion and adventure half
And one day the father of my children.

I see us growing old together.

Having a bright future forever.

Becoming a life legends
Hand in hand we go watching the sunset
And in the glow of your bright eyes.

Watching myself laughing in your pupils
And your special smile killing me softly.

My gorgeous sweetheart
I know that I have found my perfect soulmate in you Because I love you so much
Even when you're this far

Your love is New in my heart everyday.

And there's a special place for you and me.
Together in my heart we'll be..

Till Eternity!

Our love is eternal
Even though hearts are physically apart.
Although, body is physically far

But our hearts are spiritually bind together. Our love keeps us together
And our love makes us stronger more every day.

Just listen to your heart's beat
There beating softly on harmony
Like two dancing feet

Our love makes us happy
Our love is never blind
Because I give you my love every day

knowing I'll never go away
Knowing I will never decieve myself again
Knowing I can never love another soul again

Because sweetheart I promised you
I'll love you every day of my life
As long as I breathe....

Always in love with you

I've been living with a shadow over my head
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been alone for so long

Stuck in the past i cant move forward
Been hiding all my hopes and dreams
Just in case I need them again someday

I've got time set aside
To clear some space in the corners of my mind
All I wanna do is find my way back to love
I cant overcome without a path back to love

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been looking but i don't see any signs
I know it is somewhere
It’s gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I'm lookin for somebody to emit some light
Not just someone to spend the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I wanna do is find my way back to love
I cant overcome without a path back to love

What if I open my heart again
I guess I'm waiting for you to be there for me in the end
There are times when I don't know if this is real
Or if anyone else feels how I do
I needed an inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find my way back to love
I cant overcome without a path back to love
What if I open up my heart to you
I hope you show me what to do

What if you help me start over
You know I'll be there for you in the long run.

How do we measure closeness?
Not in miles alone ,for I feel closer to you every year even though you're far away.
Although I miss all our casual hellos and chats. I miss reading your messages where you addressed me as my love or my sugar... Oh it hots!
I missed your touch,your sweet voice that usually sing a song" Oh baby! Oh,baby!" I missed your sincere love that was painfully waiting for me which I was blinded to by actually insecurities and fear. I miss everything about you.

I wish the universe can tell you how much I missed you. But still I know waiting for you will never be regretted. I am still at your beck and call my love.

It's very hard for people to find their right place in life
It's even harder for them to find their right person
You won't get it because you're still young
But if you find that person,
Don't ever let go.

If you let go of them
Then you'll never find them
The road never end
You can move on your own way
But you'll need a friend to accompany you on that way
Our ancestors once said ;
" Choose a FRIEND before choosing a PATH"
Those who look will find them.

Exotic bliss never rush to come
You need to hear something from me
But I thought we need to do it slowly

Though being with you is everlasting
But why happiness today,
Sorrow tomorrow
Will you bear these on mind
That I really care for you

But I realized That
We have many ships
In the world but only one ship
Never sink

Even, the mighty Titanic ship sank
But the unsinkable one
Is FRIENDSHIP
FRIENDSHIP never fails
It flows like a river
So let us share real truth
For truth should be in love
And love in truth
Then we can fight for our love.

When I see your face
Baby,I know how you're feeling
I feel your vibration here
And it's draining me

Baby give me all your attention
I know that you're drained
From the pain of our past story.
I was once in that stage
But I am healed now

I know that you're praying
For a better days to come
You just gotta give it time.
Remember,time heals the pain
And keep believing in you and I

You may not understand it now
But everything happens for a reason
The reason we cannot understand now
But in every season,
We just need to stay
Calm and be strong for each other
It won't be long that our awaited breakthrough will come.
But till then
I pray you give love a chance in your heart.

Waking up to hear your voice calling me "Tosynnnneeee" but all I heard is a man's voice saying you are on your way to eternity to be my angel.

I rushed out to check on d day maybe it was a dream.
I checked my call log to check d last time you called me which was 10pm.
And now 10hours later you are so eager on your journey to divine.
Leaving me in this dilemma

While I was thinking how your wedding will be.
How proud I will be to make your day wonderful but alas, You are gone to the world beyond.

Oh! LATEEFAT ADEIGBE OLAJUMOKE
You left without a trace.
You called to say goodbye but sleep had taken me
You gave me love throughout our time of knowing each other.
I love you so much but destiny can never be changed.
That is how the divine written ur story.
Thanks to God that you left without a sickness or accident.
Thanks for being my guardian angel above.

I love you but God loves you more.

Adieu LATEEFAT ADEIGBE OLAJUMOKE 😩😫😫😭😭😭😭

I see pass that feeling of not being able to leave the karmic love.
I see pass my feelings of being detached from love.
So I decided to let go of what does not serve me

I let go without given up.
I let go and make it a dynamic and friends at the same time.
Now I choose to be in love
In absolute romantic and friendly

I am having this new love beginnings
For the love for myself
I am in love deeply in love with my joy
I am in love unconditionally
I have to ensure this 3D experience
Is an evidence always in play.
I let go of all that is not bringing happiness

Body can be tired
Eyes may get wet
But don't let your heart be weak
Keep believing that every difficulty there will be ease
Behind the sadness there is happiness

Stay strong even though your situation looks heavy

Things may even look cloudy
Stay strong even though your body looks fragile
keep being a person who reflects beauty in your every step...💖✍️

April is a month of new beginnings.
A new leaves cropped up
A new month of great flowers blooming
A month of fall and wet land.
All souls born in the month are called blessed.

I celebrate you all
The April born people
Know you are a legend
A great souls that will always bloom
Greater height to you all.
Most especially my love

I wish I can reach you
To celebrate you my way
To give you all the love I have in me
To wish you a better life together
And to talk you
I will always love you
I know I still live on in your heart.

And no matter the distance
Our love will live on.
Our heart will continue to be in love
We will live as one till eternity

Life moves in a blurring way .
I encourage myself every day.
I write a gratitude journal each day.
Assuring myself it will be in divine timing.

I keep my day bright and musical.
I engaged in movies.
I wrote and affirm our reunion everday.
I paste some affirmation upon my shelf and walls.
I try to celebrate my livelihood.
I assured myself it's going to be better.

I turn on our favorite music which takes me back to when we are good
And I dance without abandonment into the inky black of the night,
While I sing out the lyrics passionately loud and dance vigorously .

I wear masks,pretending I never Miss you
And I lie myself down diagonally across my soft bed with crossed leg,
Reading novels,or reading books or poetry or do tarot card spreads,or checking on horoscope, While the scent of essential oil fills up the room as I listen to sublimals and meditation rhymes.

I include my guardian angels in all that I do.
I talk and pray to their spirit daily.
I encourage myself that I am currently scaling a phase of life
So frighteningly, unpredictable and going to new beginnings in all endeavor.
Something so dead center to the absolute truth of who I really am,
Why I am here and my purpose.
With days that are so unexpectedly thrilling and days where I can barely breathe — walking on the lawn, wailing in my heart 💜, sitting upon the edge of my bed weeping silently into the palms of my hands.

I engaged myself in my work duties,using my leisure time to watch movies,I no longer attempt to resist, but look deep into the eyes of every experience all the way.
All of those immense and passionate joys and the staggering delirium of tireless grief of your silence and distance.

I accept the silence,no communication, fear and disappointments and keep my hopes strong to still wholeheartedly believe in the direction of expansion through the heart of Allowing.

I now know what I am facing.
My full understanding of everything has totally changed and the lessons are well mastered.
No amount of preparation could have seen me through to this place — this unexpected and unpalatable phase of life where I have begun my true healing.
Where everything inside me is still joggling, shaking and reeling with all that has come to pass and for the one hoping for.
Yet I am learning how to find that sacred balance and feel proud of myself, at last.

Twinflame experience completely ground me down to dust.
And yet, somehow, everything that I AM, everything that I wish for, remain fully intact.
Despite all of the chaos, traumas and all of the pains,
I believe a new day will comes soon and I will be right here.
So I will keep on taking care of myself,
Working on my total happiness and
Keeping the hope alive.
I am not going to ever convince you to choose me
And I won't chase you,I won't give up on us also.
It's okay and fine with being replaced.
For I know you can't do find the love 💕 as mine
Anywhere in the world 🌎🌎🌎.

Thump,like ancient drumbeat of a group.
Singing of love
Beating out a caudence of desire.

Thump,like the fall of a ripe fruit,
Feeding the bees,
Cascading like the water of fall

Thump,like the beat of my heart
Pulling string of hope
Letting me know that still I can touch your heart,your soul

Telling you that I am still here
Waiting for you
That I will patiently wait.

I hate every second of hopes
And waiting for an illusion
That is never existing.
Why am I in this?

A Man that is messing up my life
Who never remember me And.....hmmm...
Who seems to never remember I ever lived.
All I got is his brutal lies
And gbam I forgive and let in
But all to see him slip away cowardly.

Smile... I am just a fool...
Remembering everything
And still can't see the reason
Why my life is entangled In this ******* lies.

I hate myself,I hate the time
I spent with you.
I hate you with all my heart and being.
I am fun to be with.

Everyone fights to be with me
But whenever I see the commitment, Boom 💥 I blow it up for no reason. And if I couldn't get them off I blocked them and try to change my location.

What a demon in me!!!
What a wasted time I have been since I know you.

Dear Beautiful Venus,
   O great Goddess, I, Temilola Your true worshiper crawl before your altar to ask you for a love, my soul mate, my true companion. A man who does joke with my precious heart. Who is God fearing. Who is financially balance, emotionally and Spiritually balance. Who laughs and make me laugh. Who make decisions with me and our children. Who plays with me and my children. Who respects and treat my family as his own. Who understands my silence and my eye blink. Who argues but not fight. Most of all. Who accept responsibilities for all d faults and mistakes. And make me to love him too and accept my responsibilities too.
Tender hearted Venus,You are a friend to the lonely like me,to those who need a lover,a companion for life,a mate to share their sorrows and delights.
Pls grant me this request of my heart. And I will encourage your true worshiper among my community.

Oh,Star! Make me bright
Bright as you are
Like a diamond in sky.
Make me bright all the time
Make me a star just like you are

Oh, Star⭐! Make me proud,
Make me a best in all endeavors,
Wish to  be my friend throughout the time
That I trust you with my life

Oh,Star ⭐! Make me the best
In all I do and what i say,
Let my voice be heard
And make me a legend
With you by my side,
All is possible

I can't just love somebody
Just because I see their highest timeline.
Who you are has no meaning.
I have to be with who they are right now.

To enjoy who they truly are right now.
For I deserve better
For I am love.
And I deserve truelove
I don't need to sweat it before it comes to me.
I deserve it all

I watch your mouth,as you're telling me, how you truly feel for me.
I sense your fear while promising
That this time will be a life time.
I tried so hard to believe in all you say,
And my thoughts is proved right after you left.

You left with a reason to think
You left with your heart in your palm
I feel the fear in your face
Even though you left your love behind
You gave me the gap to see who I am
And I am grateful I see it all.

This is why I am letting you go
I am facing the world of my own.
For I know someone out there is aching for me.
Someone who is not scared to be part of me.
I'm going out there to make life better

I will like to see a world without you in it
I will like to understand a heart without you
Don't think I don't love you anymore
Know that our love is eternal
Even when I worked on not thinking about you again.
You're my eternal love infinitely.

In your presence,I rediscovered my name.
My name that was hidden under the pain of separation.
I rediscovered the eyes no longer veiled with fever.
And your laughter like a flame piercing the shadows.
Has revealed your love to me beyond the rain of yesterday.

Eight to nine years,my love with days of illusions and shattered ideas,
And sleep made restless with alcohol
The suffering that  burns today with the taste of tomorrow
And that turns love into a boundless river.

In your presence, I have rediscovered this memories of my blood
And necklaces of laughter hung around our days
Days sparkling with ever new joys

In your arms, I felt the ever secured hugs,the most sweetest 😘 that looks like honey.
In your arms I felt most loved and like a real woman.

In your bed I became a fairy angel never want to come back to reality.
You taste like honey
And your thickest porridge
Made me see a true sincerity
Of soul in human.
It's felt like being in a dream Land Don't ever want to open my eyes again.

Is only in your presence I rediscovered the true name I have hidden some years back.
And this memories gave me the option of vowing to you that waiting for the total you is not a crime.

If to be lonely without you
Is the only thing the Universe gives me I will keep on waiting in faith
In the power of the Universe
Because in your presence
I feel like a natural woman.

In your presence,I rediscovered my name.
My name that was hidden under the pain of separation.
I rediscovered the eyes no longer veiled with fever.
And your laughter like a flame piercing the shadows.
Has revealed your love to me beyond the rain of yesterday.

Eight to nine years,my love with days of illusions and shattered ideas,
And sleep made restless with alcohol
The suffering that  burns today with the taste of tomorrow
And that turns love into a boundless river.

In your presence, I have rediscovered this memories of my blood
And necklaces of laughter hung around our days
Days sparkling with ever new joys

In your arms, I felt the ever secured hugs,the most sweetest 😘 that looks like honey.
In your arms I felt most loved and like a real woman.
In your bed I became a fairy angel never want to come back to reality.
You taste like honey and your thickest porridge made me see a true sincerity of soul in human.
It's felt like being in a dream Land don't ever want to open my eyesagain.

Is only in your presence I rediscovered the true name I have hidden some years back.
And this memories gave me the option of vowing to you that waiting for the total you is not a crime.

If to be lonely without you is the only thing the Universe gives me I will keep on waiting in faith in the power of the Universe because in your presence I feel like a natural woman.

When time plays games with you,
You can't force it or manipulate it.
All you can do, All that is Left to you
Is to surrender  yourself to time.

I read somewhere "that life is what happens to you while you're making other plans.
Don't fight it! Don't stop it!!
Accept it!!! And move on with your life.
When the time is right,we will see each other again

You hide behind your feelings
And keep the truth locked away,
But there's so much said in the things
You don't say.

You innocently tell me
Our time has come and gone
And that we can't go back
But I don't believe it
And this time you're wrong.

The distance you put between us
Is nothing more than time lost
A place for feelings to hide
Yet I can hear  the love in your voice
Each time we talk.

My patients has no end
When it comes to loving you
And i will wait a lifetime
For you to see the truth.

Real love doesn't go away
It doesn't fade into the past
It goes on forever
And always finds it's way back.

I will wait a lifetime for you
Because you are my soul
And behind all your doubt
I know you can't let go

You are my soul
And I am yours too
If two were meant to be
It's you and me!