Abby Carpenter

Jun 2016

Angelica

Bite One
What are you doing?!
You know you're on a diet!
Don't eat that!
Bite Two
OH MY GOD.
That last bight could've just made another official pound
Bite Three
Don't think just eat!
Bite Four
Bites Five
Bite Six
Bite Seven
Etcetera.

Purge One
What am I doing?
Google said this is a mental disorder
Purge Two
Mental disorder or not you're still fat!
Do something about it.
Purge Three
The acid is burning my throat...
No more.
Purge Four
Keep going until it's all gone!
Purge Five
Am I ever going to be skinny?

You see,
They call me, "thick thighs, nice eyes."
I call me, "stretch marks bigger than a kind man's heart"
And...
I know that when I'm skinny this will all fade.
Because I know that, the girl across the room is laughing because of my fat face.
And I know that, that boy is saying that he'd never date me because my fat is a disgrace.
And for now...
I'm not thin enough
Not pretty enough
Not light enough
Not bright enough
But every time I purge I'm closer to being perfect enough

Jun 2016

Zach Hanlon

War on Love

Lives shattered from ignorance.
People struck by intolerance.
Livelihoods are judged from love,
and lives are taken by hate.

A love bathed in terror
is not a love we crave.
A love brought from kindness
was brought down by violence

Love slain by arms and a hatred.
A cry for humanity, a cry of sorrow.
It's our reach for freedom,
and we'll never back down.

For a battle not fought,
is a war never won.

Keep all the names of the victims of the Orlando attack close to heart and never forget this day.
Rest in peace.

#love #war #gay #on #transgender #pride #lgbt #lesbian #rights #civil

Abby Carpenter Jun 2016

The way you look in that dress

I tell myself to like boys
But the way you look in that dress has overtaken my thoughts
The way it skips along your thighs
Inviting me to dance
The way in cinches at your waste
Calling me to wrap my arms around you

I tell myself to smile when boys talk to me
I encourage my heart beat to quicken when they hold my hand
But all I can think of is the way you look in that dress
The way it shows of the skin on your shoulders
The way your skin would feel under the soft pads of my fingertips
The way your hair falls down like a canopy
Beckoning for me to come closer

I tell myself that we can just be friends
But the way you look in that dress tell me friends will never be enough
I tell myself this is wrong
But how can the way I feel be wrong?
How can the butterflies that start in my stomach and erupt through my whole body be wrong?
How can the way you look in that dress
be wrong?

#love #gay #girls #lesbian #pridemonth

Jun 2016

Ma Cherie

"Everything Is Beautiful"

We should smile at strangers
        it may brighten up their day

       We should offer a hand to hold
          to  help along on their way
         Instead of seeing differences
      we should see we're all the same
            Everything Is Beautiful
      When there is no place to blame
            We should never judge
         taking comfort in our sins
     and knowing there is more to life
          than the surface of our skin-

"It is hard to know what is really going on
in someone's life whether we believe we know or not"
Cherie Nolan © June 2016

A poem in a quote hopefully they make sense. :) random acts of kindness...

#poetry #judge #quoteslife

Abby Carpenter Jun 2016

Coming Out

I can tell by the scrunch in my sisters nose when she sees a gay couple that I will never come out
It’s not a comment, it’s not even audible
But I can see the distaste on her face

I can tell by the way she clings to her bible on a Sunday morning that I will never share my true self
She clutches it like a security blanket, trying to protect herself from the sin in the world
Where I see love she sees a blanket of immorality wrapping them up and taking away the good

I know how she feels when she sees sin in others
But how would she feel if she knew the sin was inside of me

#love #depression #lgbt #lesbian #comingout

Abby Carpenter Jun 2016

Finding Sunshine

There will be a day when I feel like life is worth living
There will be a day when I can get out of bed without wishing I had died in my sleep

I am more than a dark storm cloud of emotions
I am more than the never leaving ghost that haunts my every move

I have value
I have thoughts and words and worth

I deserve happiness

#love #depression #anxiety #happiness