As December rolls around the corner seeing everyone slowly putting up their decorations. She can almost tell that... that this year's holidays are going to hurt more. She wishes that she could feel some holiday joy, but instead she feels pain and agony. She wishes she was in hiding during the time of the holidays. Alas she can't. She has to deal with the nonstop arguing of who is getting her for what days, the what are you getting her? No, we're getting her that! and the worst one possible, bet you wish you were with your other parent? Said to say, Not everyone likes the holidays. Don't assume that everyone has an easy life, some people just want peace and quiet during this time because she is dealing with the depression and pain. It doesn't mean she won't be happy for everyone else... but on the inside, she is crying and wishing to be in bed. Crying to know that her childhood turned a child's favorite holiday into a yell off. She just needs the holidays to be over to go on with her own life again.
Don't forget to be nice to everyone, not everyone's life is sunshine and rainbows