All I ever wanted was not selfish endeavors
Not An object for possession nor a product of pleasure
But a total self gift, not something for my own
To sit beside my Queen on her royal throne.

But have you ever been so hurt you felt your heart break?
Throbbing, pounding, so very much is aches.
To realize that all you ever wanted to do
Was give her a happiness and joy anew.

But that time is past, longing hearts turn astray
To find the one with whom she will stay
Although the pain is deeply immense
Her radiant light still gives us some sense.

Long nights will be spent alone with a cigar and some wine
Hoping that all her emotions are fine
The one she is with makes her feel anew
And can do something that I was never able to do.