There is this light. Shining so bright it sort of hurt your eyes at first. Then you get used to it and slowly but surely you open your eyes wide enough to see the beauty that stood before you. Something so simple but so hard to obtain was literally standing in front of me. It almost felt unrealistic until I realized the only person making it unreal was me. Still I couldn't understand how to get it or what it would really feel like. Almost as if I was scared to experience it. Anything I ever touched that was beautiful turned to stone. Leaving it only to be a memory or something to gaze at. So how do I grab this magnificent light that was in front of me holding a magnitude that was unexplainable. I had no idea and I was afraid. Afraid of trying or afraid of feeling; I still don't know. Maybe I was too comfortable sitting in the shadows looking in from the outside. Manipulating myself to believe it was just an illusion to dreamers and the hopefuls. Or maybe I simply wouldn't know how to enjoy this light. I wanted to... I want to. But the longer I took, the further away this light seemed to be. I tried pulling myself away from the shadows but it was latched deep, too deep into my body, my veins, and especially my mind. Maybe it was the anxiety. The fear. The insecurity. The doubt. The uncertainty... of the whole thing not being genuine. And I knew that if I didn't try, I'd never know.