These tendencies are wrecking havoc on my soul
Day and night I deal with the pull
As I’m trying to stop, I pop another pill
I look in the mirror and say I’ll stop soon
Soon isn’t coming fast enough for me though
I don’t want to die, but these tendencies are looking suicidal
I’m 17 but I’m acting like a child
I’m constantly refusing help
I’m acting ignorant and can’t seem to stop
I keep on breaking promises to stop
Don’t get me wrong though, I want to stop
I just can’t though,no matter how hard I try
Even though I know these tendencies are killing me
I realize they make life so much easier to deal with
I try and I try to stop but I always go back
To do them even more than before