I often disregard the fact that people affect me the way they do
whether it be good or bad, I just can't shake the fact that people matter
So I'm really astonished by the fact that good people
or anyone really, are treated badly
Is it that we forget the Golden Rule at a certain age
such as when adolescence hits and our selfishness consumes us
or when things gets so bad that it's depression you can't escape
whatever it maybe, whoever it maybe
don't you think they'd appreciate a little kind-heartedness?
even if it ain't reciprocated,
even if they hate you,
even if they harm you,
look into the core of their soul
and let them know,
how their actions only reflect
how much hurt they have endured
and the fact of the matter is,
that they are loved,
it's ensured
even if they aren't.

Hidden Weapon
By: James Desire

See me walking on the vacant street
What’s your first thought?
Black kid up to no good
See me- surrounded by others, my brothers
What is your second thought?
Black kid in some gang
Must be tattooed and tough
Discrimination- Hidden Weapon
See the clothes I am wearing
Big baggy pants, dark Du-Rag and Ripped shirt
What is your final thought?
Poor old ****** living in a ghetto
Discrimination- Hidden Weapon
Now Listen,
You see me jetting through the silent streets
What would you assume then?
Arrest!
Call the cops
Must have been a ******, a robbery,
Another black boy crime
Discrimination- Hidden Weapon
I am just a black boy trying to survive
Trying to enjoy-just to stay alive
On the street
People judging me cause
The blackness of my skin
The types of clothes I’m in
Discrimination- Hidden Weapon  
Unsuspecting black child taunted, haunted…
Fearing that one word-*****
Should I be blamed for crimes committed in the past?
Choice-less decisions made
Pressure reaches ******
Everything seems lost
At the end
I feel blamed
Nevertheless, I blame you
Whites
Rejecting
Hurting
Me- hopeful
Pride-earned-not given
Defending
Defending my dignity
Discrimination- Hidden Weapon  
Should I be judged/blamed for past generations?
Then, blame me for…
The jazz of Louis Armstrong
The voice of Billie Holiday
The poetry of Langston Hughes
The photography of Gordon Parks
The character of Martin Luther King Jr.
The power of Coretta Scott King
The dignity of Fredrick Douglas
Finally, the individuality of James Desire
You seek evil in blacks
The past has also proven a positive…
A positive outcome
That helped the development…
OF OUR WORLD!

Free-write, A conclusion
-James Desire

I remember back then
Back when, we sat overlooking the unsuspecting world
Discussing our futures
Reminiscing on past days
I wrote down a few lines to remember the occasion
Something about wondering if you were one to fade with the seasons...
Take a listen:

"Time comes and goes with the seasons
People seem to follow the same trend
I guess I'm looking for a little consistency
Like the few leaves that refuse to dance with the wind
Will you too be one to drift away?
I look for the answer in your eyes
But maybe I should wait for winter to come..."

I concluded that only time would tell,
Just one of the answers that I knew I'd find out sooner or later.
Yet doubt still resided in mind
Further reflected with a rhyme that I made:

"Through the sunny days, cloudy nights
And the uncertainty in her hazy eyes
I will continue to adore her willingly."

Made a decision then and there not to back down
Just so I'd see where that would lead me
And just as the year was coming to an end
You grabbed my arm and we walked side by side for what felt might be the last time...
We reached our destination as the night sky lit up in celebration of the year to come
You stared off into the distance as if to remember the moment
My eyes remained fixed on you
My body, tense and anxious with anticipation
Tried my best to gather up confidence
Took a breath to ease my doubts and concerns
And proceeded to find an answer...
Because you see time was no longer a luxury I had to offer
But you didn’t seem so sure.

“I guess that was the moment of truth huh?
The fireworks went off and you got to thinking maybe it shouldn’t be you huh?
But it seems I’m the one to blame because you warned me back in fall
That if I were to fall any deeper, I would end up disliking you
Shame is that the result isn’t as you predicted
Rather I despise the manner in which you conducted
But what does that matter because the matter is said and done
And I’ll admit the result had left me a little stunned
But I’m better now
Had time to reflect and contemplate
Just another life lesson…”

Fall and winter gone
Spring now in our midst
And you're nowhere to be found
Or maybe I just stopped looking
But it’s cool though
No need to ask what you've been up too
I know you’re busy doing you
So enjoy and may this season be generous to you
But before I end this story,
I've got one last piece for you:

"People fall in and out of our lives like the seasons changing
so don't ever expect a thing from someone who owes you nothing
time alone will be the indicator,
so when the leaves fall then later chased by the snow which eventually is melted from the various plants that must grow
to the shinning sun whom gives them energy to do so,
let the hands of the ones who stand by your side show
those are the ones unfazed by natures flow."

~Lessons Learned On Life's Terms~

I wonder whats so appealing about demons and their temptations
Or about characters who don't quite have their stories straight
Claiming the day is to come but never actually sets a date
Lost in a trail of their own confusion
In the hopes they might sedate it
But with the path of destruction left in their wake
They couldn't help but feel ashamed, right?
I mean, don't you?
You couldn't be so foolish
Or be so heartless
To realize this isn’t right
You only surpass me in age by a year and yet
You’ve become quite bitter
I try to understand but to be this lost
Is simply lost to me
I'm told to just try to understand that we all have demons
But must they manifest in this nature?
Then demand the respect of your allies with disrespect
It makes no sense
Do you see how vulnerable a piece is when the pawns are gone
Don't you hate feeling like you're all alone?
I truly wonder if you get it though,
Because its truly sad to see
Especially that day you spoke to me
I saw someone who wanted to become accepted
You just went about it the wrong way
and I can’t help but wonder what lead you so astray?
Whether it be a troubled past or you just like to be a pain in the ***
I hope you find some peace
In this chaotic battlefield you call life.

When your nothing to nobody
and you just want to be something to somebody

Same intro as before but please bare with me…
You see that moment was enough
If only you knew where my mind was prior to yesterday
It’d surprise you I swear
The demons I've kept in captivity as we laughed and sang
Even I forgot they existed for a moment
Sitting above the clouds
Cruising in my ride
A beautiful girl at my side
Her smile was everything
Her silly *** ad-libin’
But it was natural and simple
It felt so rejuvenating
and of course thoughts ran close to the borders of NSFW
As quick as when I stepped into her home
And had a chance to admire her **** physique
and how good her **** looked
on her slim little frame
Ravishing señorita
She knows I’ve got my eye on her
like something I desire
But time is critical to a matter such as this
A coin flips and like a hit switch
The light fades
Darkness reigns
And she can’t seem to take control of the thoughts that rage
Lately, I’ve known the feeling
I guess this is why I stay late and write rhymes such as this
And I love the influence you bring indeed
But I will always be respectful to what you need.
I just hope that she sees
What I’m saying ain't’t the same
Blunt or not
Today I was satisfied
Knowing I made her smile
and the only thing that would’ve made it better
is if I was singing those words into her ear as we danced
and our bodies intertwined like a moth to the flame
as the music consumed us…

Because there’s nothing like feeling wanted
When you’re told you’re worthless
By the same people you call family
Or when the friends you defend
Have you feeling ashamed
For calling them exactly that
A friend
but lately,
History is all that chains us
But like Ksan say,
It might be time to cut them off
And it hurts more because we’re supposed to be brothers
But that doesn't seem to matter to all of us…
I apologize if that’s none of your concern
I wouldn't want to waste breath on something you fail to care about
Don’t mind tho,
I’m forever the lonely poet
Trying to gather an audience of peers
To hear me speak
because I figure maybe its what they seek
I’m just searching for the ones that these words may reach
as they read this speech
and realize
that in life,
there is always more than meets the eye.

Welcome to my escape from reality…
A mirror to my soul,
My never-never land,
Understand?

A dream to write the words that whole world sing
or preach rather
in the hopes that maybe it’ll mean something when I’m gone…
my worst fear is wondering if this even matter when I’m gone
because the world’s being pulled by the influence of technology
and I’m hoping we don’t lose the basics in the process.

Excuse me miss,
May I tempt you with a verse?

and the contents of this book belong to,
the one and only…

James Desire

A clean slate on the date of January 26th
and I can’t believe it ended up like this
I mean how rap has become the nominator
and R&B; seems to have lost it’s appeal
what happened to the smooth seduction of the voice
From an introduction,
to the core of one’s soul
every note and rhythm makes us crave more…
and what happened to the women who believe in love
and the making of which could be so passionate,
You see all that’s needed is the right mood.
Don’t mean to intrude, but check out tracks 8 & 9 of Usher’s Confessions
That’s superstar and its interlude
and with a flow like woah
I make nonsense bring clarity
sincerely reaching into the inner depths of your mind
or even for some, their soul, just to let them know
We share something in common.
See what I’ve done is make a possibility for a connection
I long to bring a bit of understanding…
Between the few souls that float along with us on this rock called Earth.

Truly Yours,
James Desire

"Great Scott"
Like Lucas and Nathan
Y'all ain't perfect but you're trying
Relying on something other than your name to take you far...
You're a star
But let you shine diminish as each person you thought you were close to,
Tarnishes what you hold dear
No fear sweetheart,
No fear
Claim what is yours
Speak loudly and proudly
So that the haters hear
Let them know you're here
And that nothing can stop you...
---
Back to the drawing board
Or better yet back to this blank canvas
familiar and inviting and yet I can’t help but wonder
how these words will create an image
I guess there ain’t no better way to find out
but to move onward
---
How ‘bout we search for some meaning
A little substance from the soul
I mean maybe I can’t sing but I bet you gon’ feel this
I’m just tryna be the realest
give my people something relatable
and also a fragment of me
writing about what I see
or what might be
the hopes and dreams
of a child in this restless city
gazing upon the night sky
pondering on his life’s importance
in comparison to the billions of stars that shine bright
could he possibly one day emit light?
give direction to those who might’ve lost sight
could he scheme up a dream as big as Martin did
and if so, would he reach the masses?
because lord knows in the days we live in
we need hope
but how does one cope
when hundreds of thousands of lives are being taken by dope or foots of rope
we’ve lost our way
a country that once proclaimed to be best
now stands on its last legs
and the people we elect to govern us
continue to dig us deeper into this hole
have we nothing left to show?

Jealously brews insecurity
I guess that’s why the word love never held true to me,
Insanity…

You were the closest I had to it baby
Respecting your wishes, our eyes never meet lately
They wander around like hide and seek maybe
It’s crazy, i remember vaguely,
Sometime ago you told me we couldn't
That our friendship was too important
and that i should let the past fade
Like a second after history was made
But what are we without it?
Strangers with no connection or recollection
Of the algebraic equation we never found an answer to
So what’s say you?
Should we take a snapshot with the flash top
And wipe our minds clean of everything
Or illuminate the situation, try to use communication
To fix what we said we'd cherish and keep.
Not matter what.
So I'll swallow my pride
and ask you again to just sit by my side
Talk to me...

(A freestyle off of Revenge of the Dreamers / J-Cole)

Lost in a world
of a word
or a combination of which entrances me
onto rants such as this
Do you understand the feeling?
losing yourself in the rhythm
and imitating or recreating your favorite song,
in your vision?
What’s amazing is, what a large world this is…
and how much of it truly influences the music we hear
I mean, I can use my memory to remind me of her beauty
or instead I can bring together the words that will explain to you
how every morning the sun’s rays ever so lightly kisses her face
just to compliment the amazing glow that only amplifies the radiance of her smile
and her warmth,
is a treasure to be cherished as I do
Everyday, the sweet serenades of “sunday morning” remind me of you.
and how my lips graze and embrace her skin,
often I simply allow them drag carelessly along her valley of silky smoothness
as my tongue sends chills thru her spine
just to hover above her ear and remind her that she’s mine
this love is divine,
but something this great takes time
patience — most aspects of life ask of it
and these words let me pace it out
mediation for the mind
for the days where my eyes may glaze over a shade of red
and things don’t seem so easy
I let the creativity flow thru me
as history and THC embed my bloodstream
focused but my mind races
past the similes and metaphors that lay hidden in the borders of the margin
and the bridge echoes,
“Can you feel the buzz?”
my body trembles to the beat
I end up singing along…
“Do you believe in love?
What’s your drug?,
What’s your drug?”
as the smoke escapes my lungs and lingers in the atmosphere
I allow the meaning of the words to sink in
Can I get you to understand?
how the music inspires me to speak
on what it is that I care for or desire
from the need of perfection I feel once the idea is bred,
to the hours of lost sleep trying to avoid the clutches of defeat
when it comes to end,
I feel complete
as if these words fulfill my wishes
to bring back a little substance to our lives.
Although to some, I know this is simply nonsense
well then,  let me try to make it make sense
this time spent has been for my love of music
then simply writing off its influence,
poetry, more than just an art form
I’m just trying to reach your mind and touch your heart
Because you and I can’t be that far apart?
We live in this world together don’t we?
This is the human experience
It's in our nature, let’s connect.
Let’s spread peace and love throughout the land
with a little positivity and encouragement
vibe with me to the beat,
Tell me what it is that you seek,
Do you believe in love?

When your nothing to nobody and you just want to be something to somebody

I wanna be like
Life ain't fair
But you see that ain't rare
And my girl Ana said it like this...
"How they suppose to like what they see
If you ain't in their line of sight..."

I know she right
I'm a loner
That hate being alone
Work with beautiful women
But I'm always professional
Even when my thoughts start to become
Not Safe For Work
I just sang and do my thang.
Because the R&B; purifies me
& "Nothing Was The Same" tracks amplify me
So that the only time I hear my name in anyone's mouth
Is out of praise
Because I'm trying to be the best at what I do
I be thinking though
What these girls think of the kid
Quiet, but he really love to sing
Tap you on your shoulder cause he don't know your name
But he always smile after a question
Because he's genuine

Hello miss,
How are you this afternoon?
Well uh,
you look stunning
I just thought I should let you know
Because your smile has made my day
and now I hope you have a great evening too
****
Déjà Vu
But who woulda knew?
The kid is too cautious to jump into anything new
So he stays focused on what he came to do
Come to work and have fun
Wasn't that the agenda boo?

A few words from a good one.
Ana
Beautiful soul,
And I met her on the last day of high school
The girl deserves the best.
Because her mind right,
Her smile warming
And intelligence is ****.
And she can vibe with me and my music and poetry.
I'm so lucky to have this person as a friend
I guess I should really try to keep in touch with her more.
And that's real!

Take notice:
this went from talking about something I want,
to showing appreciation to my friend.
Even though I shouldn't, I always put them first,
they are my family
Honestly,
the people in my life are the best
and I am forever grateful for them

~
This was a little something for a friend.
Thanks for the inspiration.
As always sweetheart
shine bright
and know that if you need a shoulder to lean upon
I'll be right there behind you
just give me the word.
okay?

Introduction [The Ride]
-Jimmy Desire

The Ride
Its journey is amazing
The process is sensational
Man, where I'm from
Who knows the destination though?
Constant names being learned
Forgotten while I go
I yearn to keep a few of them in memory
But only time will tell who comes and goes
So I continue on forward
Trying to understand the confusion that the world insists is normal
Meanwhile battling the emotions that you insist does not exist
Well then, what is this?
Bliss from ignorance
Then anger from your partner's diss
Not sure who to call friend or foe
And yet you claim this **** doesn’t exist?
Must’ve been blinded, there has to be something I missed
Because "dog eat dog" ain't nothing new
And yet I continue to resist as if someone will assist
Instead I'm hit with this metaphorical fist and left behind in the mist
Wondering what the hell is this?
The Ride

Of all the women
The last two knew me best
Taught me more than I'd like to admit
Especially because I did my best to help them
Something I never omit
But somehow along the way things happened to go amiss
And even if our eyes don't ever meet as often
Or things never seem the same
I continue to pray for their success
Because regardless of how they see it
It’s my life they've blessed
And there are two more that will never leave my side
Even if I were to decide to take a leave of absence
Forever my balance
I swear their voices took over my conscience
As if to lend me guidance
So honestly it may just be science
That these two incredible females remain a constant
Arevalo and Martinez how I adore the two of you
And although at times I may seem distant
I miss the two of you
And the fiascos that would ensue
Like hopping the border for dunkin'
Or attempts at grand theft in JP
Just the memories of those moments reminds me
That our equation is incredible
And I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world


The Ride
Where do I go?
Who will I be?
My future still a mystery
But the days pass by so quickly
And I’ve been living so peacefully in the present
That I’ve paid no mind to what awaits me
Even now I seem to forget the importance of it all
Like how time and money rule everything around me
And that in time, I’ll have love ones who depends on me
And that in time, I can no longer live carefree
So in time, I wonder who I’ll be
Because too much was sacrificed to see me succeed
To my parents and those who helped raise me
I understand and I promise to make you all proud
And I know I was quite the handful in the years that have past
But now in the years to come,
I plan to show you the admiration you deserve for the lessons you’ve taught me
So that it’s known that you’re involvement made a difference
So in time, I promise it’ll all be clear
The vision is near,
Desire Enterprises CEO
It was all a dream…
The Ride

Life is bittersweet
For it blessed me with a brother
But stole him away before I had any chance to get to know him
So in time I was introduced to three kids,
Ralph, Myke and Medrano, they would end up becoming my brothers
And in time my mother decided it was time for her to have another
So at the age of seven I was introduced to a young child named Jason
A few months before him, Ralph, Myke, and Medrano welcomed a young tyke named Billy
Now there were six
And for years, we were each other’s friends, bullies, teachers and rivals
But I often wondered what came about the first
However I often ignored it
Because that period and time of my life was so vague
That I started to doubt it
And as the period of change seemed to settle,
I was informed of the return of the prince himself,
The young Max Saint-Eloi

The Ride
In time it will all subside
My ***** told me life is too short
So I guess it’s time to shape up
Stop slacking, wake up!
For so long I’ve clung onto this cliff
Too afraid to fail
I want it all
But I’m too afraid to fall
But decided to let go cause who knows I won’t land on my feet?
Fear is just an obstacle we must defeat
And I rather have a fighting chance
Than to turn tail and surrender
So Here I Stand World
Test me
My name is what I cherish most
Because my mother taught me
It’s the one thing I really own
And to make sure to never taint it
D-E-S-I-R-E
What may be a word to you, means much more to me
All my life I’ve been told that I have great potential
That I was something special
Never meant a thing to me then
But now I’m working hard to achieve what I used to think was impossible  
And these words mean nothing without the actions to reinforce them
So I pay no mind to those who may judge me,
Care for those who appreciate my presence
And lend an ear to those who feel they need some guidance
Because it happens, like the morning fog that shades what’s in the distance
Or how perfect things change in just an instance
Life leaves us troubled with uncertainty and mystery
So the purpose of these words is to remind me
That if I should ever find myself lost or confused
To look back and remember the people and events that enlightened me
And my love for poetry
The Ride

The sands of the hourglass continue to slip through our fingers
Yet I try to catch some and embed them in my memories
Poetry, my method of preserving those moments I deem important enough to save
My name is Jimmy Desire,
Welcome to my story.

Young lover
absent of the knowledge and experinece to confront her
and the inadequacy you develop as her eyes begin to falter at your image
and shimmer in another
I'm no one special
I'm just another other
Replaceable, if she would need another
Luckily she didnt...
and I grasped a part of her heart
so then if she ever needed me
I'd be there from the start
she asked to promise if the sands of time tested our friendship
would it diteriorate
or would I help make it stronger?
I promised I'd help to fix it
if it ever were to falter
In return,
I ask she'd keep faith and know I could not leave her
She's my best friend,
my life wouldnt be right without her

And when I see her, my grin becomes a smile quickly…
A simple reaction actually, her smile is contagious
So even when I’m upset I become afflicted
And I love that but when we trade places
No matter how much I try, nothing seems effective
So I’m afraid she’ll get tired, get up and leave
That’s why I despise getting close, I hate deceit
Believing in something when it’s really nothing
And sure you may think I’m ruled by negativity
But in reality I’m cautious,
Simply trying to protect my positivity…
My heart seamlessly intertwined with these words creates sustainability
These words combined with my thoughts create invincibility
All of those previous things combined with my soul create vulnerability
Because writing brings me reassurance
But it doesn’t quite fix things
That’s what’s left for me to do
Then again, that’s only if I’m allowed to…
Now patience is a virtue I’m not quite familiar with
But I’ve become more familiar, in time, with you
Granted patience wasn’t the answer
Rather it was as simple as accepting what I already knew
Certain things are too good to be true
Now regardless of what’s occurred
We’ll get passed it because you mean way too much to lose
And clearly we’ve had our issues
But I couldn’t forget you even if I had the option to choose
Believe that,
The same way you should believe I have the upmost respect for you
So please forgive me for any vulgarity or offense that I may commit
Because you know me and disrespecting any female is the furthest thing from my wish
But what I do wish is that this distance between us doesn’t last
It just isn’t worth it…

-Jimmy Desire

Surrender aint no option for ****** who's head noddin'
to ignorance which is bliss
man, arn't ya'll sick of this?
I mean whyd ya'll go to college
Just to throw out all the knowledge
You were broke when you got it
replenished then you forgot it
like **** the ****** who taught it
...
Brain Dead
Corporate schemes
will take whichever means necessary to make their money
which means selling cancer in a stick is fair game
as long as the public is willing to stay tame
One of the leading causes of death.
I know we could stop it just surprising that we haven't yet
so why **** our own for murders that they committed
when the government is knowingly killing the population that it represents
They're just a reflection to what we allow ourselves to be
Ignorant
...
Celibate
to scared to take that step
united as a country
because in this story
there are plenty that are speaking
but nobody will listen
meanwhile generations that are to come
like my brother, the little one
will face the challenge we've all encountered
to either smoke or pass
and I hope when that times comes
he'll be able to answer his peers
and say he's time is done
before it even started...
[Learn Something...]

lost in my train of thought
music is guidin me
no signs of slowin down
snap me back to reality
cuz baby i'm cruzing
where i'll end only i will kno
unless we stay connected
follow me
intertwined with my mind, telepathy
see what i see
life movin fast
billboards displayin moments in the past
bluring out negativity
regret's a strong *******
its been holding on too long to me
a tear streaks down her face and it tears down another side of me
a shadow encases her whole and suddenly i can no longer see
i can her whisper the words
"please just stay away from me"
until she fades
moving on...
a young man approaches me
I shake his hand
finally ready to face the world he decides to turn his back on me
stunned i look on
until i realize he's no longer within my reach
another door closes...
another one opens and i'm blessed with a childs laughter
the silhouette struggles to stand trying to find balance
if only he could comprehend the lessons being taught to him
he falls and regardless he tries again to accomplish what he sees others have acheieved
determination...
I turn to find a wall
texture is rough but presense is familiar
strong and unbreakable
and yet i chip away at its will as the years fade
cold, no longer as strong as before
easily breakable
no longer can you defend us
stand behind me
let's see what i'm made of,
please let me try
I can't stand to see you fall and i know i never say it but
Mama you mean too much to me...
Found but still lost
a mirror in front of me
confused to discover
exactly whats become of me.

Meet at the crossroad
a disclosed location safe in the cover of shadows
silence our ally
street lights - kryptonite
we shield our eyes
and listen intently to each others' minds
without conflict
trying to reconstruct it
...maybe one day...

Simply Love
-Jimmy Desire

Have you ever been so captivated by somebody’s lips
That you get lost in the touch of their fingertips
So deep that oxygen can no longer find you
Instead you breathe her thoughts,
So that may you further understand the matrix that is her mind
And time utterly binds you because your body can only take so much
You break free
then rush to the surface only being able to inhale the idea of love
The intangible becoming quite tangible
Creating the ocean you were originally drowned in
Excuse me, your lost?
Well re-trace your steps and you’ll find when you were drawn in,
Caught,
Or for a lack of better words,
Taught
That your heart rebels

Truth or Fable?
Could a new world really exist and be able,
to enrich our lives?
Columbus thought so
He sailed there so that he may find the worlds’ treasures and claim them for his own
The idea of love is selfish
A single word that describes an entire race
Similar and yet so different
It’s a mutual journey with various results
Selfless
We share it
Because like in the pride lands
The circle of life represents a cycle that we all are a part of
So in the end we will all find it
And to our last dying breath we remember those who we’ve hold deep in our hearts
Hopefully at that time we’ve instilled our lessons into the future
So that the cycle becomes full circle and goes on and on…

Bianca Lorenzo
Your pretty wings stretch farther than the arms I long to hold
to fly into the breathe that speaks of sultry whispers in my ears
is what I dream of.
Your eyes can't reach my beauty
my soft exterior won't allow it
I seek the remedy that allows my heart to beat when i can't see you
so I close my eyes to feel the strokes that part my indecisions
Love took time by storm when it left us alone in quiet rooms
you leave my tongue heavy with the words that I can't roll out
and my heart beats in intervals of two
once for me
and once for you...

James Desire**
Reach for the sky
so that these pretty wings may carry you too
because we both dream of a shared solitude
that would ignite our souls and express our passion
so why not make our dreams a reality...
Steel chains cage my heart
with a lock in the middle that requires  your touch
free me and reveal everything that the smile contains
hidden inhibitions that call out your name
Our bodies rage in responce to each others animalistic phase
a struggle to tame our hearts begin whenever we reach this stage
so i'll give you all my love
and feed the beast that resides within us both
so we can both find ecestacy in each other....

April 2, 2012 – James Desire – Refine Your Mind

Dandelion spores
Drift with the shift of the wind
planting the seeds for the new generation
they’re influence reaching far and wide...
As is life’s course,
As we begin to mature and build our aspirations in reality
So there will also be a time when we discover what we must do
And in-turn drift in the direction that life leads you
So that we may build something for future generations to come...
We are living for more than just ourselves,
Realize that our lives are much more extraordinary than it may seem
That we can benefit from each other
Help one another grow and develop
I often contemplate on how my life wouldn’t be the same
If I hadn’t crossed paths with the numerous souls who were once nameless faces
Incredible, is it not?
That anyone could influence the life of another
And granted currency is an important aspect of life but it isn’t everything…
Yet the government seems to help corrupt us with its image
So a word of advice to you,
Be wealthy in knowledge
For acquiring that will grant you all the riches you need
And once you acquire the tools
Share them with others so that the wealth will grow.
Your selfishness may stunt you
But your generosity will reward you
Remember that always

…Just a few thoughts while lost in time,
and a few rhymes while lost in mind,
Make up the few lines to help reach my prime…
Poetry this art is mine.

It’s been a long time
Since I faced this canvas
Maybe it was a lack of time
A vacation with no rest
Actively brain dead, I couldn’t test the ability to conjure rhymes
A failure to excavate and train my mind
Or maybe it was because I had lost my inspiration
A certain spark or connection to my lost art
For someone who once felt complete, this is certainly a lost component of my heart
I ramble and I apologize but this barren realm sometimes requires this
Let me discuss a discovery that I made
Rather something I hadn’t noticed I lost
A longing for love…
To find one and bask in her radiance
And enrich her with the emotions I have since kept latent
I used to believe I was searching for purity
Someone simply made for me,
But experience would soon prove those thoughts foolish
Because sadly life will always inflict the heartache Ashanti described
To those who didn’t know it yet strap yourselves in for a bumpy ride
But the ride will equip you with the knowledge and experience needed to keep growing
Anyhow I digress, see this topic was often something I stressed
But lately, I’ve kept it at bay, admit to myself it was okay
Exposed myself to what the Christians would claim are sins
Stupid morals and standards
At such a young age who the hell was I to judge?
We’re all still learning, don’t you dare ever hold a grudge
I just want someone to hold
A girl with a confidence all her own
But still depends on my love
Her imperfections whatever they may be
Will make her perfect because she is
To me
And when I sleep I will rest easily knowing
She makes me happy
Genuinely content as I take one last look at her in my arms
Until the sun rises above our heads once more
A kiss to her forehead and I whisper,
“Sweet dreams my love,
Sweet dreams”
But until then I’ll keep the faith
And see what paths in life awaits me
Until I am once more reintroduced to love.

Our words never seem to reach you
maybe you comprehend for a little then let love blind you
open your eyes,
don't let your heart speak for you
Caught in a cycle,
[The Arcade Speaks]: "You Lose!
Continue?"
A vet at this game
You're diggin' for change
because you can't stand that fact that
1st: Doesn't read your name...
I know you're hoping things will change
but how many chances will you take before you realize its been enough?

Now I know quitting ain't easy
but lets take a look at the past
I guarantee your pillows knows the good and the bad
though it cannot speak
it can feel the texture of each salty tear that it takes in
and no one said love was easy
but don't you ever stop and wonder that maybe you deserve better?
that maybe happiness does exist in a place thats not like this.

From what I see your self-image is twisted
but I haven't the chance to dig past the exterior
to excavate the secrets that make up who you are...
You've blamed yourself and let him repeatedly toy with your emotions at will
You deserve better than that
you claim its non-existent but how do you find someone new
when your past is a reoccurring day-dream of what you want to be?
Just because you haven't found him yet doesn't mean he doesn't exist...

Looks to me you have two options...
you can either continue to play the game,
or let it go [until later where you can resolve things]and make yourself happy
because now you aren't...

Much Love,
Jimmy Desire

God Amongst Humans [Superman]**
-James Desire

The weight of the world lies upon his shoulders
He falls to his knees trying to support their needs
He’s overpowered but won’t concede
His will is too strong to accept defeat

He needs to get back up
The cries and pleads have successfully infiltrated his mind,
Slowly revealing an emotion he refused to emit
Fear
He was strength to all that looked up to him
But look at him now
Kneeling to the pressures of the world when it needed him most
He had become more human than anyone thought possible

Doubt poisons his mind
“I’m not good enough,
Could a world inflicted by so much violence really become utopia?
Could one man with all my efforts to help, make that difference?
Can I change the world?”
He isn’t sure that he can
But he gathers his strength and will try again and again
Because the world needs an example
The world needs a superman…

Reach…

-Jimmy Desire



In the silence of the night

He lies upon his bed

Unwary from the time that passes

He thinks of you

Staring at the ceiling

He remembers an old saying,

“The Sky Is the Limit”

Anything is obtainable,

If you just reach for it

As he submerged himself within his sheets

He forgets these words

And the meanings they preach

Because he doesn’t have you

Now lost and blinded by sadness

He yearns for you,

Morns for you because

He’s felt like he’s lost what he’s never had

And yet he can’t be mad

Because the world has taught him to love and cherish

Anything that he would ever have

Grateful,

For the lessons he’s learned

He does the one thing he knows best in return

To appreciate everything good in his life

And remember that although things may not always go his way

That there will always be another day, another opportunity

To do better, to be better, and to have better

Life is unpredictable,

Be ready…

You claim you want to change
but always find yourself back on that train...
Lost,
I know you need be on your own way
but a part of me wishes you could've stayed
because I miss you
and I can't shake this feeling my heart makes.
but this process takes time,
so I'll be waiting here when you decide to come home.
I just wonder where you've gone
and what you've been through
and I know I shouldn't worry
I know I can't save you
but I pray everynight that you'll find the strength to save yourself
because you're leaving a trail of destruction thats breaking a heart made for two
Meaning you're not only hurting yourself
but the ones around you.

I found her one day
mistakenly, I must say
I couldn’t help but stare and wonder
who she was and how she began to plunder my mind
Yet I could do nothing but that...
Wonder
How her very beauty intimidated me
Introductions were brief as I retreated to safety
In the solitude of someplace familiar
I wonder what’s come over me...

Her smile lingers in my mind like a veil of radiance
It brings me warmth and reassurance
You see she cleanses my mind of doubts and concerns
Brings me confidence and fear at the same time
But I like it,
This emotion is confusing and the scale is never balanced
This world is out of whack but you emit stability
It’s crazy…
I don’t know you but to lose you is like Shakespeare
A tragedy

I in no way want to portray her as perfection
But I swear given the time
I would come to love her imperfections
Help her reach her aspirations
**** I mean
All I really hope is that we can share this sensation genuinely
Because I’d rather her be something more than just a memory
As I sit here in solitude
I begin to muster the will to get up and follow through
Stomach the butterflies and this terror like stage freight
And reach out my hand to ask you out tonight
I guess the next move is on you…

[I can’t say I like her
but she reminds me of the happiness I want to obtain,
and the kind of person I want to share love with.]

From the concrete who knew that a flower would grow
breakthrough and show the rest that anything is possible
struggle is everything the challenge is overcomming it
because if you dont how could you claim you have achevied anything?

Last night I saw the most beautiful thing
A woman held by the man she admired
he kissed her hand time after time while the night sky lit up in recognition of the 235 years of independence
**** those lights in the sky sure were bright
but this year she was the light to his world.
So i ask you lady to continue to be his guiding light
because clearly he's found something special in you.

I envy him too
because this affliction is a gift
and the game of hearts is delicate
luckily its brought him bliss
the same I'd always imagined with the misses
nonetheless, I'm excited that he's finally found it
something i have long to see...

The Dark Side: Part One
---
And if I bit you from your neck
Down to the rest of your body
Periodically kissing the spots I know you love,
Would your body respond?
Would you reject my hands at your waist?
As I took a taste of the sweet nectar
That lay within your lips?
And once your body has reached its peak
And your mind goes blank as it begins to seep
Into the pure ecstasy of lust,
Would you surrender and just “say it”?
Just let your inhibitions go,
Your perverted imagination flow
And speak on your body’s desires
While my fingers trace your shape
Further exciting you more
Upon their journey they encounter a weakness
A point that influences your vocal chords,
As your composure beaks down
And the process of passion begins
Foreplay is now torture,
You speak sultry whispers into my ear,
And ask for more,
More, more…

-Jimmy Desire

Unity
-Jimmy Desire

Uncertainty and insecurity
Make up a false reality which engulfs your mind
This notion becomes a shade
It shrouds your vision
Blinding you from the truth
Caught in a struggle within yourself
You have a hard time being convinced
Of what’s really going on
Over analysis of a situation
Could lead to an unnecessary solution
So what do you do if you lack trust,
Or the confidence to make the right decision?
Find a shoulder to lean on
Someone to confide in
Even heroes need heroes sometimes
Giving in doesn’t mean your weak
But smart enough to know that you need help
And will ask for it
No one is perfect,
Everyone goes through the same things
Tell me why it is
That if we live on this world together
We can’t work through our problems together
This world needs more love and consideration
So I extend my arm
Reach out
To let you know
If you ever need it
I’ll be here for you

Free-Write 12
What's up with this feeling?
This unfamiliar feeling, dealing blows to my core
Bass shaking up the ceiling
I tremble with each quake trying to find stable ground
But struggle to find it, see I don't make a sound
The building is collasping and my mind gets to racing,
chasing an idea I haven't yet schemed up
yet another vivid scenero I've just so happened to dream up
a place where every thought and idea seems to fall and become debris around me
and my heartbeat emerges and lashes out wildly
as if to get my attention but I try hard not to listen
because my hearts desires arnt always morally acceptable
at least by my mind standards
You see I fear that emotion can drive us crazy
So I conceal apart of me because I couldn't seem to find a balance
And plus I'm tryna stay focused but it's strange without guidence
And at times when things don't happen to make sense
And the pressure gets too intense it happens to breakfree and dispense the nonsense that I've refused to hear into my consciousness.
Therefore I ask myself, what is this?
Why do I think when I must act?
I understand a need for caution
but maybe a leap of faith is a far better option
You've gone this far, don't hesitate, take action
If you fail, well good
Because if you hadn't how else would you have knew
I swear to you in time you will improve
Because in life there are things you must do
But you won't be able to if you can't prove
That when the oppurtunity shows, you will ensue.

Gravity** (Inspired by the music of Miguel)
“The way you pull me, you move me…”

Isn’t it interesting just how strange life is?
so many variables can influence the outcome
we all have a path to follow I guess we just need to discover where that path lies…
living without vision of a future is frightening
honestly, I need to have a tendency to try new things
because if not, I’ll lead life with no means to develop and grow
I shook because I feared the loss of it all
overtime she became important to me
I will not deny that…
I got too comfortable, I admit that ****** up once or twice
but pessimism was my downfall.
the same happens with poetry
no matter how many times I’m told
how good I might be,
the minute I step on stage,
and the light hits my face
I lose all confidence in my speech
my head falls down and stays glued to my feet
and just for a moment I feel the defeat
till voices in the crowd stand out
cheering me on, picking me up
my voice a little raspy
my legs a little shaky
I take a deep breath,
and slowly regain my composure
until I’m starting to speak those words
encrypted with stories I like to tell
or related to stories I might’ve heard
I hear nothing but them,
lost in my head, remembering the rhythm
remembering the feeling of how my pen formed every curve that created these rhymes
and in no time I find
there they are no longer any words to speak
no more hidden courage to reach
all that remains is the lesson I sought to breech into my thoughts
and become a teaching that I preach
so I hope that these words leech to the meek
or whoever was looking for some substance in this content
all this derived from the melody of gravity on continuous repeat
my heart and this beat
flow together oh so harmoniously
I suppose that might be why
Poetry and music seem to make so much sense to me…

EXTRA:
Our eyes meet,
My hands grasp at your hips
A kiss to your cheek
and I bit you a good evening sweetheart
Before I met you
Too little too late,
I won’t forget you…

Conflicted
See my mind’s in one place,
And heart’s in another
I figure I’ll have to wait until they catch up with each other
Because if I consult one I must consult the other
It’s quite simple actually,
It’s either all of me or none of me
Conflicted…
I should pull away and let you be
But I can’t seem to do it.
Infected with a sickness
See I understood the conclusion
And let go
Let the distance grow between us
Miracle grow
But you’re repetitive
You tell me, “Sorry but we can’t be”
What? Do you and I not have much compatibility?
Or is it because I don’t have an ******* quality that all my life I’ve tried to avoid
Regardless, I make the best of a situation I’d rather put to rest
And see you daily to share a laugh but it ain’t the same
This is nowhere near the same
But that’s partially on me,
Got too accustomed in a place I don’t reside,
But no worries, I’ll just return to the shattered abode I call a home
Continue to write about what I see and let it fuel me until I feel again
I swear this **** is real, and I love it
I really ******* love it but until I have reason to profess it
I’ll suppress it and never again let a soul gain entry to mine as well as you did
But I’ll confess this, I’m happy I was able to help you with whatever you were going through
But my heart doesn’t agree, because it would’ve wanted to help you and but then have kept you too
But it happens and I accept that
I had fun and I’ll admit that
You say you’ll miss me, I believe that
But you shouldn’t…
You’ll be fine; you’re too strong for all that.
They say people we meet along the way will influence us,
I just hope I did my part.
The road you’re on is amazing
I wish I could see how you progress
But alas, I’m on my own road where numerous tests and challenges await me
So if I never see you again,
I ask you to smile,
Not just when something is funny
But in general, as you go about your day, smile
Give someone something to be happy about
Because I hope that’s what I did for you
Remember the nonsense that came out of my mouth
The countless hours we spent together just hanging about
Most of all remember how we met
Because if I could I would’ve went to see Lion King with you I swear
You were so beautiful then
As you are now, and I know you know, but I just like to let you know that I admire it.
I’ll miss you most out of everything this semester
I thank you for that
Please be safe miss and continue to do what you do
I know you’ll find a man suitable enough to be your king one day
So until then try to keep your bad *** out of trouble.
Love Always,
Jimmy Desire

Y’all inspire me honestly
a spark created from understanding
lately I ain’t had none
recently lost, GPS receives no signal
an abundance of mirages in the distance
all that’s left is scattered footprints
fading with the sands of time
look at me now, god I ask what’s mine
possessions all material, in a decades past that’d be fine
but a decades past and im left searching for meaning
a little substance with each meeting
a somber thought, that it took till the 18th to reach 2
lines [11] that meant any **** thing to me
my momma told me once, your name is the only thing you own
and family is everything
hard to believe seeing how my abode was shattered
before I had the age to maintain a substantial memory
in time I was interested in some concept called love
held strong by the idea of monogamy
so I searched for someone special
something like a song in ‘04 called “Follow Me”
the melody did me good, my therapeutic remedy
word to confessions,
word to lessons taught to a confused adolescent
dreams I once had shattered by my peers
so my once booming voice grew gradually quiet
so it’d never reach their ears
but I forever remain sincere
even when laughter and ridicule is all I hear
my goal in 13 is to banish my fears
my vow this year is to make this blurred vision clear
reconstruction of the confidence that was once lacking
step up with the school work because I've been slacking
and becoming the individual my true friends are always backing
because it's time I reach my potential.

An Ode To TCC

As the sun sets behind the clouds
and the once warm weather becomes cold
I begin to wonder exactly how many sunsets have ended just like this
the sun’s rays glimmering perfectly off of the water
the rowdiness of the children’s voices slowly diminish
and a gentle breeze that waves with the leaves seems to guide us all home

“Another day, another dollar” I always say
forgetting most of the time to bask in the radiance of this beauty
because in a year or two,
it’ll be nothing but a memory
sweet recollections of simplicity
and yet for some,
these are the best years that life has to offer

Simple days basking in the summer rays on a fresh patch of grass,
taking in and inhaling the very essence of relaxation
or exploring the world and discovering the many secrets that it holds
for it may not change you,
but in time it will help you mold
the person you will be,
and the people around you
so I beg you, please, embrace the day.

Sometimes I’m too caught up in the future to enjoy what’s right in front of me
So today I picked up my pencil
and I took a minute to describe it
took a moment to decide if
I’d let this moment fade with the rest
and ignore it while the sunset

Introduction:

Everything I work for now is for my future,
the amazing wife that I know will ease my mind when I'm troubled
and the children we will raise together...
I will work hard to make sure they are as happy as humanly possible

I promised myself this as a young child when I have first dreamt of losing my parents.
I cried that night,
I still can remember that dream clearly
News crews lined up in front of my home
blocked off by "do not cross" tape
I never knew how they were taken
I remember a woman asking me in the dream,
"what will you do now that you're parents are dead?"
And I screamed...

My first night terror.
My father came in and asked
"what's wrong?"
I looked at him in reassurance
and said nothing and yet he insisted I tell him what had me shook.
I remained quiet in fear of the reality of the premonition
My biggest fear,
because although we fight and argue I do love them dearly
I've always planned on grabbing a pen and transcribing this feeling the only way I can
and then reading it to them
Maybe at an open mic night
if they would ever find the time to watch me one day
They deserve that much for the struggles they've been through
and I just want them to see why I love this art so much.

All my life,
I've just wanted to make an impact in some way.
Give what I can because life is too short.
There is so much other ******* in this world.
So I strive to give all that I can before I take my dying breath
because who knows maybe my mentality will rub off on someone else
and the chain will continue on thru my time.

Problem is,
I continue to put my own issues and concerns in the back burner.
And put all others before myself.
Except my family and I guess they feel neglected,
even though that's not my intention.
So as a result,
my parents think I'm a **** up
and that I'm gradually slipping down the wrong path.
They are also stuck in their "old ways"
so they think all that I do is wrong.
Rebellious and yet looking for a way back to gain approval in their eyes.

The struggle.

It's 8:37
I wrote the contents of my mind at the time
For the sake of my sanity.

As I Hold You In My Arms... (Re-write)
-Jimmy Desire

Tension is released,
my stress becomes joy all within a second
your aroma
so sweet
overwhelms me
with each breath I take
mesmerize me
I'm in too deep
Still, I won't leave
I'm stupid
steady looking for something out of nothing
So I hold you in captivity
just for a second
and pretend that you were mine
Imagine...
if these thoughts about you and I were true
What I would say
if I were to whisper in your ear
what I'd do for you,
or to you...
the gentle hand which holds you now
familiar
decides to take a change of personality
untamed yet aimed to please you
caress you
go on gasp for air cause you've got to
no disrespect but I want to worship
the temple that is you
when I kneel before you
no words needed I'll let my hands tell you
that your what I believe in
someone once told me
"show, don't tell"
apparently I never learned this lesson very well
and I know actions speak louder than words
but then why do these words seem so significant?
Because every word spoken has meaning
value,
and if not for you then I,
these words explain
A love that can never be broken

"Oh, I've finally got you right here
Tonight I'll ease your mind,
That's why I'm calling on you
and ooh,
soft your love's desire
it's hard to stay away
you keep me calling on you"

I could walk upon these words again and again
maybe that flew over your heads,
that was the bridge my friends
and after all this time he probably thought he was dead and forgotten
but listen here that "ooh"
of a crooner that simply learned it from you
resuscitated a gem from the archive just to prove
that your song made an impact.
Not just the sample but the words themselves live on in a tribute to you
and I was just one of those kids who loved those songs about love
you know because I'd imagine I'm the one singing to her like:

"baby you,
my darling only if you knew
these things that you do
when your simply smiling for me
but even more you
bring illumination to my days
when the skies aren't the right hue of blue
like the blessing of the sun's rays
after it's rained a few days
you, always seem to pick up my mood,
and I can do nothing but thank you
and show you how much you mean to me".

Just a few lines to describe a groove
a song to hold her tight and slow dance to
maybe a light a fire, just romance boo
because when the chorus comes around
I'll be all up in your ear like,

"Oh, I've finally got you right here
Tonight I'll ease your mind,
That's why I'm calling on you
and ooh,soft your love's desire
it's hard to stay away
you keep me calling on you"

~Just Another Reason To Adore The Art~
[Inspired by the music of Jon B.'s: "Calling On You" and Drake's: "Cameras/Good Ones Go Interlude"]

Written By: James Desire

Captivation

James Desire



Confusion erodes my mind,
as I re-read the words that have been engraved in time
words from the one I claimed was mine,
but never really was...

It wasn’t allowed
you and I, Forbidden
yet we tried to break the rules
and rebellion just wasn’t enough

Time with you was priceless
now it seems it was all meaningless
and I’m not sure why
You said, “I will always think of you as my baby”
but now it seems like you don't even know me
and I know a lot has changed, but I’m not transparent
“Can’t you see me?”

-Sigh-

Why’d we have to drift apart,
Didn't you believe the promise I made you,
that I would never leave you,
that I could never replace you?
It’s like it was goodbye forever
and you let the rain reach us
just so that it could teach us
that I couldn't protect you anymore
and it was time you broke free

Now,
time has changed the girl I knew and loved
into a woman whose has enough and scorns the world for the pain it delivered
our ties never really broken, just severed
by tension or little disagreements

Is this enough to break the friendship we once had or are we just calling it quits?
and for the record you may not have been captivated but I was,
just not by who you are at the moment...
With all this said,
Do you still think of me as your baby?
because after all we’ve been through,
no matter what you say or do,
I’ll never want to leave you.
You will always be my baby.

As always words are just words until proven otherwise,
but do you really think that these words have no meaning
because if they have none, then all of this has been for nothing
your amusement of my emotion, all because of a thought, a simple notion,
that I wasn't good enough for you...

how can an expression so simple
be so addicting?
smile is appealing,
mind is brilliant,
but it must be too early
I mean how could it be that you've infiltrated my thoughts
and reside comfortably in mind?
You're something else...
like Ne-Yo said,
"You're the best thing I never knew I needed"
and you've just succeeded in reminding me
that life's course holds a vast amount of surprises
you most certainly may be the most pleasant
and I know some of the best words are better left unsaid
but I just thought you deserved a little recognition.
A toast to my future queen, may you continue to shine on.

To whom it may concern:
thank you for your influence,
grateful to be your pupil
for your insight shed new light as to how to perceive the world.
As history carries along,
I'll reference back through the lessons
and pass them forward when it's needed.
You've succeeded in making a genuine connection,
I can only imagine your mentor did the same for you.
A metaphorical web you've spun to intrigue the mind.
Enriching mine.
Struggling to break free of the concept because I couldn't yet understand it.
Thank you for taking your time.
Taught me to deconstruct the process
and check my work then repeat.
Better safe than sorry,
talking bout I grew up on this show,
how'd I end up on stage with Maury?
Best friends one day, the next you're strangers,
nothing last forever is a phrase that's powerful in every language.
C'est la vie. That's life, C'est la vie!
Sometimes you'll find strife
or something you don't like and be forced to embrace it.
Heart racing, you're nervous but you've got to face it.
Please believe,
Once you live it, you'll learn from it.
Practice takes patience,
a lesson learned now I own it.
At times you may see something you like
and got to go chase it.
Have the confidence to take it,
anything you scheme up is feasible, believe it.
Anything you set your mind to,
you can achieve it,
as long as you work for it.
Just a few lessons from precious teachers,
whether they were licensed to do so or not,
thank you for your influence.
A Humble Student

All I ever wanted was you
and you can't believe that its true
cause I haven't been able to show it to you
words created from frustration
"I'm through, **** it, I'm through..."
Truth is my life was always easier with you
When I took the time to get to know you
hold back judgements to understand what you hid in the confines of your mind
So much so, at one point I could reply
"baby girl forever I'll reside at your side"
Your the only one I'd ever mutter those words too
so be still baby, I ain't going no where.
I'm determined to make you know
that you are one of the most important people to me...

Smile…
-Jimmy Desire

A smile,
A genuine smile
Emits the warmth
Of sunshine
Rays of expression
Absorbed by people
Deprived of happiness,
Depressed
The warmth is contagious
See with one comes another
The dim flicker gradually evolves
Finally,
Having absorbed enough
It shines
Blooms...
Into something called Human Nature
We may forget at times
Even something as simple as a smile
Can be the motivation
To tackle another challenge,
To push forward
To Live Life...

It's a reoccurring cycle,
Let's Light Up The World

…Until Next Time…

-Jimmy Desire



No matter how long I hold you

Things will never change

You aren’t a possession

But someone I’d like to call mine…



The hands of time have taught me a lesson

It’s not meant to be

But I continue to write because

You’re a constant dream

What kills me the most is that it isn’t reality

Dream turned nightmare

Still,

You haunt me

I welcome you with open arms

Cuz’ it’s where I’d rather be…



In Your Arms,

There’s no doubt

Silent,

But the sounds of our heartbeat

I look down,

Elegance in brown eyes

Lightly toned skin

And a comforting smile that satisfies me from within

The wind blows

And she clenches onto me

As if not to be swept away

She knows I’ll never let go

Her hands speak

Tricking her fingers around my back,

It whispers,

“Closer”

To ease her mind,

I hold her tighter and respond,

“I’m right here, I’ll always be here”

Under an umbrella

We stand

As the storm rages on around us

Pellets of raindrops fall with increased force

But can never pierce the fortress we created

Let the record show,

She’s irreplaceable



Finally,

Eyes stumble until they meet

The message is mutual,

“Until next time”

Unwillingly,

Simultaneously,

We break the chain that binds us

And drift back into reality…



Reality…



“Until Next Time”



Copyright © 2010 Desire Enterprises

It’s been a long time
Since I faced this canvas
Maybe it was a lack of time
A vacation with no rest
Actively brain dead, I couldn’t test the ability to conjure rhymes
A failure to excavate and train my mind
Or maybe it was because I had lost my inspiration
A certain spark or connection to my lost art
For someone who once felt complete, this is certainly a lost component of my heart
I ramble and I apologize but this barren realm sometimes requires this
Let me discuss a discovery that I made
Rather something I hadn’t noticed I lost
A longing for love…
To find one and bask in her radiance
And enrich her with the emotions I have since kept latent
I used to believe I was searching for purity
Someone simply made for me,
But experience would soon prove those thoughts foolish
Because sadly life will always inflict the heartache Ashanti described
To those who didn’t know it yet strap yourselves in for a bumpy ride
But the ride will equip you with the knowledge and experience needed to keep growing
Anyhow I digress, see this topic was often something I stressed
But lately, I’ve kept it at bay, admit to myself it was okay
Exposed myself to what the Christians would claim are sins
Stupid morals and standards
At such a young age who the hell was I to judge?
We’re all still learning, don’t you dare ever hold a grudge
I just want someone to hold
A girl with a confidence all her own
But still depends on my love
Her imperfections whatever they may be
Will make her perfect because she is
For me
And when I sleep I will rest easily knowing
She makes me happy
Genuinely content as a take one last look at her in my arms
Until the sun rises above our heads once more
A kiss to her forehead and I whisper,
“Sweet dreams my love,
Sweet dreams”
But until then I’ll keep the faith
And see what paths in life await me
Until I am once more reintroduced to love.

To the female with the inner struggle
miss, I wish you'd really let it go
even though I ain't one to speak
clinging on to that of which I never had
****, I know it's sad
but at the time,
she meant the world to me
and that's all that ever mattered

Now I've learned that time can accumulate distance
and you're so far gone that you've seemed
to have forgotten
he's long gone
and in your fortress of solitude
you reminisce on the moments you shared
it’s no question that you care
but let me ask you a question,
do you think it's fair that your heart aches from a heartbreak
that occurred so long ago?
it's true that the scars you can't see be the hardest to heal
but letting it drown your mind ain’t the best way to deal
believe me I know how you feel
I’m guilty of the same
and from experience I can tell you that
that’s a place I wish to never go back

Realized I was so consumed with her
that there no one else I could possibly prefer
so innocently blinded by the thought of her being the one
I never took time to notice something was wrong
when I did the blame fell on me
when in reality it was her
but all that time ago perfection protected her from any judgment
my only fault, other than expressing how I truly felt…

So hopefully in time
you’ll realize you need to let go
because being reminiscent of what used to be
sometimes highlights what you used to see and believe
compared to what it was in reality.  
Some of life’s lessons leave us feeling like we live in a cold cruel world
but sometimes it just what we need to go on.
A few rhymes for the girl who claims I never have the time.
Be well my friend

-Jimmy Desire

Inception - Inspire Me
-Jimmy Desire

See I knew we could vibe sexually
But then you went and intrigued me in ways I had not perceived
I had a sample of what you had to offer
And soon after, I wanted you to feed me what it seems I’ve been deprived of all my life,
Intellect
Or even better
Someone who can challenge my thoughts with responses that make me even question my thinking
All the girls in the past,
they're minds were as vast as the oceans that we strive off of
But empty,
Lacking any substance or comprehension
Robbing me from a nutrient I thought helped the world develop
Draining me from patience I had once built up to protect me from the world's ignorance
She helped me regain it
A tree of knowledge
I reach and feast upon the fruit she produces but hold on to the seeds
So that hopefully I can plant them in the minds of others
And they will blossom spreading from mind to mind creating an idea that an entire population could understand
infection,
it spreads because they're learning and turning the pages of history books to find out
why this and that didn't work and what could make it better
So don't ever say that one person can't make a difference
because revolution is overwhelming
especially when you discover that one can become one million within a matter of days
information is power and with the media keeping the public in the dark its no wonder that we're sour
politicians tweaking stories so that they may stand atop tower
these laws and rules are scandalous when even the presidents decide to take a risk
lets make a list and discover which
presidents had accomplished this successfully

As long as there are borders, we will continue to break them
but then why do people continue to make them?
All this from a mind filled with intellect
so won't you take a minute with me and just recollect
that mind is a beautiful thing.

And if I didn’t spill my mind all over your surface
I’d probably go insane with these thoughts racing through my brain
This pencil perfectly transcribes all I decide must leave my conscience…
Meaning, “I can’t get you out of my head” because you plague my train of thought
While through your eyes I’ve become quite transparent
Well so be it, again, I don’t ask for much but a place to release these stranded emotions
a place where it all can be put down,
erased, and bulit up and reconstructed with some time
maybe here and there I'll put in a little ryhme
and then, maybe then, I'll gain a peace of mind...
So in time I’ll heal I just need a constant dosage of my remedy,
Just a case of insanity,
Poetry

Love’s Advocate Speaks Life

-Jimmy Desire



All the gold in the world

Doesn’t compare to you love…



Both are treasures

In which case,

Makes them hard to find

They corrupt the mind

Causing their victims to want more and more

Pirates,

Scour the world

Inheriting deception and creed

For the things they claim they need

Companions become enemies

As this intoxication spreads,

They lose sight of the important

They saying is,

“One man’s trash is another man’s treasure”

So they find what one has lost

Reclaim them as their own

Then obliviously loses apart of themselves



The hunger that starves your heart

Is against human nature

Feeding it

Maybe the greatest satisfaction

Yet the little things in life

Can bring you just as much pleasure

So cherish them

Because they’re just as important

To whom it may concern,
That certain one running through my thoughts
MJ to be more precise
The L is missing because I’m not sure it ever existed
Now you’ve got a lot going on
that much I understand
But is anything you said reality?
Or are you just keeping me around…
Granted I know that kid was nothing
And you in love with the man you with
But those words shared only at the crack of dawn
Where are they coming from?
I’m not naïve; I’m trying hard not to be foolish
But you, you mean so much
And I know that I told myself I wouldn’t write these words again
But ****
My hands get a hold of a pen and your name is the first thing on the line
And I’d be doing fine if any of this made sense but its corroding my mind
…sigh…
Make it make sense
I promised to never leave you
And you claimed you didn’t want to hurt me
Well maybe for now, distance is the best remedy
Because I don’t want to see the same man hurt you
And if he doesn’t, I don’t want to see what I fear come true
But boo, I want whatever is best for you
And I mean that sincerely
so I wish you the most happiness
and bid adieu to you.

Much Love,
James Desire

She used to like sing with me
One of the first was "My Boo"
It had a ring to it
She wanted to sing out loud
I couldn't go through it,
The hardest thing to admit
was I was going through it.

She caught me through music
the constant thing in my life
see the rhythm and beats soothed me
it brought peace to my life
she understood that, so we shared it together...
on the phone from 6 to 12
we never really noticed though
conversations were timeless
and I got stingy cuz I knew she had to go
forgetting that there was always tomorrow
Last few words were:
"I'll try to stay on but if I hang up you already know"
...[click] and there she goes

The first person that was ever there
and I never had to ask her
it was procedure
she would call me every night
but sometimes on the house phone
just cause she liked to see my sweat
especially when we had that stupid little bet
and I was invisible
see I thought she couldn't do it
but it's like it didn't faze her
first time I realized how important she really was
she completed the puzzle.

Eventually she had to go her own way,
I respected the distance
but offered my help if ever she should need it
words were never traded
new music became dull
and with the old I heard her voice
just as she would sing it.
Time passed and she came around like a boomerang
picking things up where we left them...
with promises to always be there
and also to be irreplaceable to one another.
Thing is I can't even remember why we started singing that fateful day
but what I do know is that day brought me a friend
that only death could separate me from
so no matter what comes our way,
I promise to be there if the song isn't enough to numb the pain.

What I continue to wonder though is:
am I actually being a friend,
or do I continue to push her away
with a love I can't shake?

I know sometimes I can be selfish
but in the end,
I just want to see you laugh,
see you smile,
see you living life to the fullest.

-James Desire

Take a peek inside...

Stuck in my mind - From a time where everything was fine

My mind my own enemy
They warned me not to worry
Yet thats the only emotion I express
Always the piece that never fit the puzzle
Out of place,
Discarded,
Lost
Maybe I’m just corrupted
Twisted in the head
To have never had adjusted
To what the population considers “normal”
And yet the world should supposably be diverse
I probably should’ve ended my life as a child
Just to test the process of reincarnation
So that maybe I could have a chance at normalcy
One question always roams through my thoughts
Regardless of my state of mind
Are they laughing with me or at me?
And if it’s at me,
EXPLAIN EXACTLY WHAT THE **** IS SO FUNNY
Was there something I did to amuse you?
Or am I just a walking freak show on display without even knowing it.

To You
In the end, I know it’s nothing
we’ll reach our breaking point and stop
I’m actually surprised,
that you continue to amuse yourself even now.