Conflicted
See my mind’s in one place,
And heart’s in another
I figure I’ll have to wait until they catch up with each other
Because if I consult one I must consult the other
It’s quite simple actually,
It’s either all of me or none of me
Conflicted…
I should pull away and let you be
But I can’t seem to do it.
Infected with a sickness
See I understood the conclusion
And let go
Let the distance grow between us
Miracle grow
But you’re repetitive
You tell me, “Sorry but we can’t be”
What? Do you and I not have much compatibility?
Or is it because I don’t have an ******* quality that all my life I’ve tried to avoid
Regardless, I make the best of a situation I’d rather put to rest
And see you daily to share a laugh but it ain’t the same
This is nowhere near the same
But that’s partially on me,
Got too accustomed in a place I don’t reside,
But no worries, I’ll just return to the shattered abode I call a home
Continue to write about what I see and let it fuel me until I feel again
I swear this **** is real, and I love it
I really ******* love it but until I have reason to profess it
I’ll suppress it and never again let a soul gain entry to mine as well as you did
But I’ll confess this, I’m happy I was able to help you with whatever you were going through
But my heart doesn’t agree, because it would’ve wanted to help you and but then have kept you too
But it happens and I accept that
I had fun and I’ll admit that
You say you’ll miss me, I believe that
But you shouldn’t…
You’ll be fine; you’re too strong for all that.
They say people we meet along the way will influence us,
I just hope I did my part.
The road you’re on is amazing
I wish I could see how you progress
But alas, I’m on my own road where numerous tests and challenges await me
So if I never see you again,
I ask you to smile,
Not just when something is funny
But in general, as you go about your day, smile
Give someone something to be happy about
Because I hope that’s what I did for you
Remember the nonsense that came out of my mouth
The countless hours we spent together just hanging about
Most of all remember how we met
Because if I could I would’ve went to see Lion King with you I swear
You were so beautiful then
As you are now, and I know you know, but I just like to let you know that I admire it.
I’ll miss you most out of everything this semester
I thank you for that
Please be safe miss and continue to do what you do
I know you’ll find a man suitable enough to be your king one day
So until then try to keep your bad *** out of trouble.
Love Always,
Jimmy Desire