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Adesina Temidayo Mar 2020
I don't jump into conclusions, though Each step I took was at bizarre pace
I don't look b4 I leap, I think life as an undecided fate
In reality it doesn't look as if i'm at war, but for real I know my life's at stake,‎
I lied if I said I wasn't over thinking every single time my mind is awake,
While the whole world around me is fast asleep,
I'm either looking at the stars, gazing, or i'm counting the lines of the ceiling,
From one thing to the next my mind races,
I cant even focus, I don't know what my mind's chasing,
I'm on this mountain peak n I know i'm terrified,
I don't even have wings, but yet I want to fly,
Do I even have the strength to suffice?
If I dive from these heights and hit the surface will I survive?
Literally my dreams are wild,but in my MIND I live in paradise,
That's the only place where I own everything I want in life,
Where I could fly around the world the way I like,
And this is the 100th time I just successfully thought about being the most successful guy alive,
In my MIND I call the shots, I **** every threat I see,
In my MIND is paradise, very similar to eden's garden
Right there I wish I could live, somehow I hope fantasy was real
But Then my phone alarm buzzes, snaps me back to reality,
The opposite of my thinking, 
My consciousness awake, my thoughts frightened,
Because everything around me questions my means of surviving, 
Its 5am already, my eyes widened,
I picked up my phone to **** the buzz, as I stand up to fight against reality,
A place i'd rather be, a place BEYOND  my DREAMS.
Adesina Temidayo Dec 2019
I know this relationship is new, 
Your character i know a few, ‎
I'm an introvert, how do i relate with you, ‎
Truth is we barely meet, but in my dream all i see is you, ‎
When you're around why do i feel this chill, ‎
Then when you leave, in my head its slide show of you, 

Several theories,  but i find it hard to accommodate,‎
The fact that i am in love again,‎
This love ******* i'm scared to participate,
Paralysis of d mind, m feeling numb again,

As i stand there, stiff like a statue, ‎
I couldn't help, but stare through mid-air, thinking about you‎
Your eyes ,  your smile‎
Would they really mind if your words were lie??
I know m scared to look you in d eye,

Because my broad chest couldn't stand the fire, That burns thru,‎
The desire, am scared of being accustomed to, ‎
Wondering how, because you wandering around in my mind has become a custom too, ‎
And if i migrate illegally into your heart, will i get arrested by the customs too,
And get kicked back to that junction where i became friends with you,‎
Sometimes i wonder, do you feel the same way I do?

When you hear my name, Does it twitch your brain,‎
When you see a girl around me, do you go in rage,‎
Do you laugh�, like a ****** when you read my text,
or smile like a fool, when you're alone in the room, going through your phone reading our messages.
How do you feel if you don't see me a day, ‎
Also do you hold on to your phone � 
if my promised call was delayed??‎
And hope every text or calls you received comes from me, ‎
Did you ever wish i'll b d one to buy you that diamond ring �, ‎
Few Years later. We hold hands and sing lullaby for our kids,‎
When you look me in d eye, do i send a chill through your spine,?

Wait let me explain, while staring at you, i see these spark in your eyes,
Or did that only happen in my brain‎, No maybe it was my mind,‎
But I am always willing to sit and talk to you every minute I get,‎
Let the night come, while we watch the stars, if i see one shooting,  i'll be quick to make a wish,  that the night never ends, ‎
Or request for hours longer than 24 so we can have more time to spend,

Hold hands and gist about our future,
Swears my heart is in love,‎
But my brains asking me questions, are you sure??
What if, she wants to lure,
You in, take waht she wants n leave you num‎b‎,

Like she injected paralysis in your soul, ‎
You feel dejected, because your missing rib just broke your bone,‎
Oh,  m confused , my thoughts just profuse, ‎
What if she's not in love n don't feel what i feel?‎
Or probably she's lost in lust of my biceps and physique,‎
What if all she wants is just a taste of my ****?‎
So  scared babe,  permit me if i cause any delay to ask you out.‎
Am just afraid you might say, lets just b friends i don't want your feelings bro. ‎
And then you'll walk me back to that FRIEND ZONE i tried to escape, so please tell me how do i cope??‎
#disoriented #confused #demented #unclear #hazzy #foggy #bewildered
Adesina Temidayo Dec 2019
Sometimes i wonder of waht use is going to school,‎
And i ponder what knowledge we gain in books,‎
This tin called life tied a Father's brain loose, ‎
So tell me waht else you expecting of a son too,‎
after going to d university you still have to learn life as a lesson, ‎
This point gat me thinking if disappointment is a blessing.‎
I just failed jamb the fourth time, should i write once again, ‎
But from your point of view, explain #HOWUSELESSISMABRAIN.‎
But also don't forget i have the same head with bill gate.‎
Experience is the best teacher, who can help me narrate?? ‎
Life is the greatest teacher, these words i can"t just debate, ‎
Lined with several opportunities, how do i even relate, ‎
We try to reach it n we lose it, how do we recreate, ‎
How do we reach it when our hands are tied in chains,‎
The more we reach the more we reach in vain, ‎
All dis pain goes deep and cause a twitch in brain, ‎
Opportunity ain't for the poor that's waht the rich says...

Now i just learn wisdom done come wit age, ‎
Same thing that makes Zuckerberg sit n talk with gates,‎
I lied to myself n said there's alot of opportunities up in states, ‎
My mind of states told me shut up you fail to use your brain, ‎
Then i roll up some ****, if they would help me rethink,‎
Pick up a bottle,  sip up some gin,‎
So I could fall asleep, ‎
Then i woke up with hiccups, and my thoughts widening,‎
Pick up my laptop, well m don hiding,‎
Signed up for Air Force, hope i get a safe landing,‎
Waited for months, because that was ma only option, ‎
When d result came,am ****** i failed again,
Tell me #HOWUSLESSISMYBRAIN??‎
Now m imprisoned in my mind, who's gonna bail,‎
These storms of life, how do i even sail,‎
In this race of life, how do i cross the finish lane, ‎
But m confused, if failure helps you succeed maybe i should just fail again, ‎
Every time i tried to proceed life just hit the breaks again, ‎
Opportunity comes but once that's the lie they say, ‎
Wake up son Faraday tried 100 times didn't you hear the tale?? ‎
But i'm thinking of quitting why cant i b like Faraday??
If per adventure I quit, will that help me make the fame, ‎
This got me entangled n engulfed in the irony of words that says,‎
if I don't quit #HOWUSELESSISMABRAIN??‎
#pain #hope #broke #money
Adesina Temidayo Dec 2019
My heart is dark
My soul is cracked
But if you search through my mind
You'll find gold inside

Into the dirt I was tossed
Even all of my bones were crushed
Though I may look rough on all sides
 This ruby will for sure shine 

‎I am formed with hope
Crimsoned with bronze
Diamond are my eyes
Yet silver is mine

Because I am broken
I became forgotten and forsaken
As though i'm lost in this storm of life
But this treasure I hope you find
#treasure #broken #forgotten #forsaken #hope
Adesina Temidayo Dec 2019
I was once d free one, until we met,
True as I believe, Valid as I accent
I thought I was happy, but then, 
You became my source of happiness, 

What is touch 
When it cannot be felt 
Voices if they cannot be heard
Words if they cannot be said,
Reality is as real as I see‎, At your simple touch I melt,

Each time yu came close, I could feel my PULSE, Even at my feet
This feeling called LOVE, I wish its everlasting
Bt then you disappeared,
Like the wind carried you along,
Far out of my reach, for you ran out of touch,

I could feel my heart was crushed
I've chosen to b lonely this once,
I've chosen a distinct and separate world,
And now that you left, I am no longer the free one
For I am OUT of TOUCH!
#break ups #pain #out #touch #dissapear

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